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天亮，上班。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgePNiiy6j
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpc7HDamO8l
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7q2Ehztjpd
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4qzj6GKWY
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDom344nrtn
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9i1DKuFha
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhfnb4YpUWd
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「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJOmz5q69u
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我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCxKzpJsQq
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzLG1eVoy7
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「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv93Pgxn8be
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「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVQGCJ6RWy
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甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNG84H2JgiS
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0G42wm18uD
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSd1OnENfuu
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驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWKaAvoXO0
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還是……822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMYZxsBc54W
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其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvfHPFViLf
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvnOMAcluQ
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大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj53ND4keUQ
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNG9Xo1yL3
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剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDQgbtjv1S
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快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblPPprSFGU
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDFOogoDwH
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3THjYCDWt
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNXzCumrkh
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「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsAcxluLhC
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聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGZz8E0WVc4
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醉倒。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHkbSErDG9
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDkFnNKyZj
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl3HDq0gGM4
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTPXMhrCU1
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFbYLh1Bbi
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYmWAIFNRu
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看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkqjG0JG5Zq
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmlXD93n7j
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUjc2OyS7aC
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大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MKwsaQMqO
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pL35pdpJJ
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOVZelXFJJ8
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavskE8Vqnu
死寂。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GXxxZjHxR
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1SBqtP69s
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一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65IFMjOvUJ
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLTE4bBpSO
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnEE2adku5
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZCm0O4WXx
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUBXccEjPu
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0CUvl9Bm5
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzsdqyAZkj
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1O4iFZSVJw
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfB3Sb9RGZ
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtLMECfb54
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVeZ1q187U
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前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OIvXa1NGs
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産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiJyvySlkgr
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我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk85w8fUdpz
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6QAKRNcOB
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTnxQOCckU
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說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktmUqZMDoU
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「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajGprucax6
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtDLZY2TGfY
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUDzsE8QgY
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3t5Y6Na1yq
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtzuQ4b62X
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0OJRNoluvA
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkar8KiQxL
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK4B1NL8YO
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7URVdh7z1O
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhA36yT3HKc
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBrOpk0BFU
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今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9MJaQ9ZDn
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「在你體內。」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmuq5VctFH
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「甚麼？」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyzOqQT1tO
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「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8urzDBjvpy
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtii8A9v2Va
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWMvBwfAxF
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結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGpzrYA4Ud
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuWpEVvpTW
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlNccup9WU
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyH4qeBK2F
「誰？」另一聲音反問。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfuyIbW2Wm
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyFLb1pMkn
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhUCYNWVCG
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靜。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRU5wlmDjQ
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我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCvx0Qdj9F
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYS1ZfAVeU
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAuMXUuC72c
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXcXl5vEIcz
我：「我有精神病？」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRxNE8E7wh0
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSY8bgqMOt3
醫：「是情緒病。」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7a7788C2S4
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU78hCgBbVE
我：「怎麼辦？」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYWTLDoABp
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPzVThpGvbS
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzZYALMZcyu
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmREtMebOPJ
我：「謝謝醫生。」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sjvovayEw
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡli7omN1zTv
醫：「不用謝。」822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4aWUxNL6zS
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbkk7pAZOo8
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKX8BQopWW
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不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNkzqQodV0
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUvuBzSG003
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wyP14AdDP
822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMjzYiFMFfC
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；822Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTMY4P8WhB
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