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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOab3HYdkS
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6gIqkxMAK
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOomJvu4mz3
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IW4TmFtKV
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYm9EAAEml
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2j1BUCJO6
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrI8HpTwRY
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkBbuJA3oy
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh43mwL6PVJ
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBUcQOQTvm
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTLDI8ytEu
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MV1X0VrYj
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uXx7THvRA
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvZU9Dy9wp
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFeZ2wK5BHx
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxdtAoSJyK
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJ6ggF1Yta
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGtENiVU4H
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3sKYTpmvO4
家宜沉默了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzIFJm63vX
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvl0wWYwadv
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRXIm4BfKw
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvcnVyisFh
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqyiuVH68X
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF4pjSCSxy8
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bdAAm2nbd
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR0Y6dY1ZAU
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTA7lu6bMSa
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmUnZLG9xp
有人說她成熟了，進步了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2ibkR4Bzy
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzwKfIyEcos
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7eu2ob2DUs
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDGGeFZ8d3
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRk8lO1DdX8
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCP1ubmH6eU
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkDlC9cj7Z
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpjxhzTTUt
還是向現實低頭好了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8wcBLtK7cT
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtNU5MreZSh
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtqbkPCXuN
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwYJKx6WZA
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlE0ghO8BD
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tpcZEx30c
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBXXY2cO1Q
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcoThW1v1P
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSRhOCPSgl
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadb75DavKe
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lh1oc4j06
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSImhfkwLeZ
家宜沒答話。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEI6VOOiwI5
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJLATdU2yGG
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKRzgStpuf
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9dNNXftVhi
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaOwIAF5u5
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqKHbwNrzL
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7cic1eW71
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4VMbnaI7q
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGQzeeqMhz
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjF1KLL2o46
當初…784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvjyPdf22x
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdtHlVTgUh
整個晚上，媽一言不發。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE3yckOZhq5
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtGedUbhW9
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi83o8szCw3
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrhtGYwU1EJ
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzVU7Ojxpr
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV2dlYbwPqC
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbfmJnYBOb
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QxZxH2vXT
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBjDo5hfou
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy35Q9MZplX
根本不是她的錯！784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiMagwx2zWp
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4o0oz59cGk
但道歉可保住一椿生意…784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SZuqCFM24
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡelINilsSu9
卻扭曲了自己…784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwNdJhd57t
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0XjxOVWK1
值得嗎？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6nDJH1JlQ
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBYz5K00yn
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVRdTA5BSk
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNAdl9wx7Nr
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fmacXrM6H
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpprgPipYJ
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOu22Dgn9qd
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TlQrjPfIc
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxUHcOo4T1
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeROjPTfFS
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9j6QzXBFHG
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJgpGFVJmA
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlsRAssRDF
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw64jeoJxFu
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNLeKsz9Ka2
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfuMqljRxb
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifit0eeLY9
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0p06lunqny
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPimyxXe6j2
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdVXHOVKK7
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaJnh9yDZ4f
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxUnOEc9an
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKaVP5IKB8
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLxZ2s6ceDK
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCqkNULTN4
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoJqYOgRLo
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTvwVE5Tx2A
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZn5KXcNn3r
不管了，先遞信吧！784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKLLM5sjJA
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSfeEkQeMV
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdpISWJqCd
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqyEWQVjwa
家宜呆了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOt0pU863g
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQl3mcncAvR
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPGqUBb04P
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqD0920GPut
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwVhbMnCpz
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDUcuJmdrX
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3nODZEB34
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumEg09WhJo
這是…放棄了嗎？784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFKh7u2YbN
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFhADhCw5V
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcuKCHzAra
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxg2gEiI1T
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDLzwIfHhO
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdL1tc2txnE
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HyCzL6Rgv
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtobEX5AsWb
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYAqeOZIqL
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9I3us98wh6
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeLlrnkVnA
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KQrm4SOvZ
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMuRMWVLSy2
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq4ffY3UmH8
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYHxL6AhSK
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFazw0gwmR
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0nQgFBMHs1
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOKSB14QsL
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50I6KvwD1Z
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfL9uIFMiU
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJfQ54UJA5
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzDFK8jqb7
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmJLavMuZo
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFT7CPFQyl
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgTA0f6vYgX
784Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePySX0QAfA
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