「你還可以嗎?」365Please respect copyright.PENANAWcEZDHQoSi
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「無法不可以。」365Please respect copyright.PENANAgxLVMNSFDZ
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「如需幫忙,來找我吧。」365Please respect copyright.PENANAN4JmnTYYVj
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「謝謝你。」365Please respect copyright.PENANABz2Y2ZJ3iW
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我對隸屬同組的小妹報以虛弱苦笑。與她向來關係不錯,概略知道彼此家庭狀況——同是經濟支柱,一屋老嫩。聽到她主動提出幫忙,我除了感激,更多的是感覺羞恥。365Please respect copyright.PENANAnNhxsejnPY
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唉!多講無謂,反正既成事實。倒不如動腦筋思考如何向妻子說明狀況。365Please respect copyright.PENANAO90xbRVfaM
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疫情關係,全球經濟不景氣。我和妻子預料這段艱難時期將會維持好一段日子,早已節衣縮食,積穀防饑。但我們慢慢沒有想到老闆會有此一著:工作日數減半意味薪金減半。365Please respect copyright.PENANAFL0ukhOGOh
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供樓開支無法削減,父母醫療開支不能削,孩子教育開支不能減。唯一可以削減的只有我們夫妻倆的使用……365Please respect copyright.PENANASccIQ6mHAt
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飯後,兩老早睡,兒女溫習,妻子洗碗。我怯怯到廚房去。365Please respect copyright.PENANAX6cXrbGdh1
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「老婆……」365Please respect copyright.PENANAGUayZqPAWk
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「有困難?金錢?」365Please respect copyright.PENANAgnweizMQIs
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妻子搶佔發言先機,心裡不安的我更覺虛怯。365Please respect copyright.PENANA7VIPCsC7sZ
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「是。明天開始,只需星期二、四上班。」365Please respect copyright.PENANADg73NqYnWs
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「嗯。」365Please respect copyright.PENANAWoX3aDmw9L
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妻子沒再多話,專心洗碗。她的冷靜淡然在我意料之外,卻又在情理當中。無力改變現實,也就只得接受和硬撐,呼天搶地無補於事。365Please respect copyright.PENANAjNv6UwPgY1
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我回睡房躺在床上發愣。365Please respect copyright.PENANA5fOfAVRL95
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無能。無力。無奈。365Please respect copyright.PENANAzUwqHRg6E3
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千思萬緒化作團團亂線。365Please respect copyright.PENANAdMuBoAYSLp
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剪不斷,理還亂。365Please respect copyright.PENANABsTBqngBn7
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勿剪,別理。365Please respect copyright.PENANAPtCDalRKGM
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待時日將其化解。365Please respect copyright.PENANAK0wDBFKZBd
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莫操心。365Please respect copyright.PENANAWxfUsfC5gQ
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莫操心?365Please respect copyright.PENANAyrcVurX8cV
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如何莫操心?365Please respect copyright.PENANAbeZVtIB2E0
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我知道困境必定會過去,但我必須硬撐直到那天到來。365Please respect copyright.PENANAVRLTJrhW5E
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撐多久?如何撐?365Please respect copyright.PENANAsouzxalIPE
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不知道……
日出。星期二。上班員工人數銳減,辦公室冷清不少。365Please respect copyright.PENANAiYDYFLoSMA
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有人若無其事,有人變得寡言,有人大吐苦水。不論個人感受如何,公司繼續營運,世界繼續運轉。365Please respect copyright.PENANA6C4HBvroJ9
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啟動電腦。電腦桌面背景是站在浮冰的北極熊。毛色暗啞,骨瘦如柴,神色虛弱。想必多日找不到食物,飢腸轆轆。絕望?誰管你的!天地蒼茫,白皚皚一片。無論北極熊是否存在,北極仍是北極,我仍在地球另端為家庭財政傷透腦筋。365Please respect copyright.PENANALwU6tx5c7g
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午餐。翻熱食物。是昨夜飯餸,白飯菜心排骨。白飯黏糯,菜心苦黃,排骨柴乾。想要一支豉油。下班後去買吧!不了,豉油不是必需品,不該浪費金錢買奢侈品。365Please respect copyright.PENANA4GgTaJZiN5
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下班時間,加班。加班同事還不少。沒法子。減少工作日數不代表減少工作量,也不代表工作進度可以放慢。365Please respect copyright.PENANAirEtwDbVuX
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每次想及時間、日子,位於電腦屏幕右下方的時鐘就會顯得格外礙眼:它在提醒我妻子的飯菜變涼了、孩子掛念我的心情變淡了、父母與我相處的時間變短了;它在催促我加快手腳完成當前項目,接下來的工作將以排山倒海之勢襲來;它在教導我人生大道理,一寸光陰一吋金,吋金難買寸光陰,更何況加班沒有加班費……365Please respect copyright.PENANAER9p8cOROb
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關機,正式下班。心情太壞,說服不了自己留下來。回首,同事們仍在埋頭苦幹。理解,但無法奉陪到底。365Please respect copyright.PENANAGxpkxpdih6
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大街上,人影疏落,商店無燈。車站無人,想必有一班次剛剛離站。等。車頭燈或白或黃,在黑夜暗色環境當中尤其刺眼眩目。節慶煙花,演唱會螢光棒,無燈飯廳裡的金魚缸,床頭小燈,被窩裡的手提電話屏幕……腦袋失控,只管想著一堆毫無意義、不著邊際的雜亂畫面。累?是吧。365Please respect copyright.PENANAOIBxrLKDZz
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我笑。365Please respect copyright.PENANAAYgq7hdQ8Z
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在巴士入站之際決定轉身離開。365Please respect copyright.PENANALgbETr78xD
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忽爾不想回家。
「飯餸在雪櫃。你自行翻熱吧。」365Please respect copyright.PENANAW7honSjUqj
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「好的。」365Please respect copyright.PENANAGBNMFGXLkd
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我敷衍回應妻子幾句後也就洗澡去。熱水沖去臉上油塵,皮膚霎時變得乾淨而乾燥,微癢微痕。或許每個人都是因為這些不著眼的小耗損而老去。無可避免。無可奈何。是否只得順從?是否只得接受?不順從又如何?不接受又如何?365Please respect copyright.PENANA8dzEdMi3Dh
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只會苦了自己。365Please respect copyright.PENANAEqqaQxCfUx
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努力改變過,極力掙扎過,然後一切依舊——世界依舊不似預期。365Please respect copyright.PENANAIpgsI6UgyW
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通體蝕骨的無能無力無奈。365Please respect copyright.PENANAgqJOHut9Rb
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浴後,睡床上。妻子望著天花發愣。天花燈沒有亮著,光源自窗外滲入,剛巧側照伏在天花的小蟲,以誇張得滑稽的比例拉長小蟲影子,如怪物,如鬼魅。365Please respect copyright.PENANAr9zNCMa7bw
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「你的同事有沒有跟老闆反映近來遇上的問題?」365Please respect copyright.PENANAtaO5PRsL0K
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「沒有。大家都在座位上邊罵邊工作。」365Please respect copyright.PENANAF9kG9GNw8u
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妻子乾笑一聲,側身面窗睡去。365Please respect copyright.PENANApBVUobRDPL
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我實在笑不出口,呆望天花數蟲子。365Please respect copyright.PENANAv2DqM75AUz
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一、二、三、四、五……