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一九九三年，他六歲。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZvdakwiPf
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夏夜有風。媽媽替他更換小背心當睡衣，撥扇哄他入睡。睡得香甜，不願醒來，懶理微微發癢的臉頰。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uYzv1dF5p
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夏日惡毒，毒不過他臉頰上的無名腫毒。媽媽焦急收拾銀包和證件，說要帶他到醫院。爸爸睄他一眼，認為他近日吃過量煎炸食物，長暗瘡，純粹熱氣，無需花錢求醫。媽媽沒好氣，匆匆拖著神智不清的他前往醫院。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4clNvGQz9y
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醫院離家不遠，不過二十分鐘腳程。相識的鄰里、熟悉的街景，既近且遠，扭曲模糊折疊……天旋地轉，手腳一軟，眼前一黑，倒下。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBeHuHMlxc
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看不見，聽得到。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOBTWrpLJC
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尖叫，呼救。心跳，鼻息。人，車。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL6aVLBC5ZH
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電車。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcvV6cf7Es
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叮叮——叮叮——293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNhiM6kvCO
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他曾取笑它慢吞吞。媽媽說電車再慢亦會比他快。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1yhwzR1tM
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媽媽喜歡電車那叮叮聲，平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiKMcr6fRe
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他仔細聽、認真聽。平凡而獨特，隱隱卻嘹亮。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl6dAiexVdy
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刻骨銘心。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgnKkMYEq47
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叮叮——叮叮——293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡte6oNrzwgc
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（02）293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgA7DWxPD9
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看得見，聽不到。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9dJv3v2ZZ
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聽不到醫生說他內耳受感染，無法康復。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOWOZ8WdAF
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聽不到爸爸怪責媽媽疏忽照顧他。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTBPefMfKnI
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聽不到媽媽自責飲泣。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuNvSsply9i
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但他統統看見了——他看見聲音。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7q4hM8buC
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絕望聲音是揚沸的黑煙。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjshmKfMydr
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憤怒聲音是燃燒的血紅。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinIhONNtXU
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罪疚聲音是混濁的海藍。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZrDdhZBLS
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世界五顏六色，暴烈狂亂。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPDM77Siw8T
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他受驚瑟縮在家，直至媽媽的顏色徹底消失。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfKlCoV03q
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爸爸指向電車，比手畫腳，示意媽媽昨夜在電車自殺。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgXtjXuEmv
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叮叮——叮叮——293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd0L189Fnrh
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二零二三年，他三十六歲。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugRhzd84wE
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當年媽媽離世後，爸爸帶他遷離港島，遠離電車，遠離傷心地。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuNQAvACk5
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時日漸過，傷痛漸退，他漸漸看不見聲音的顏色。他明白那是幻覺，是自身心理防禦機制產生出來的，用以舒緩情緒和壓力。聲音的顏色日益淺薄，如煙如霧，再也妨礙不了他的人生路。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9AjlnP4zI
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他決定要勇敢，走出陰霾，好好過活，不然會像爸爸一樣帶著哀傷終其此生——爸爸去年自殺，同樣在電車上。明明爸爸比他更抗拒港島和電車，為何偏偏在電車自殺？因為媽媽？沒能知道，沒能問個清楚明白。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCxbzgolrwT
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二十七年來，他首次踏足港島。心情緊張，有如當年踏入新居。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv99zPlicSn
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熟悉傢俬配上陌生單位，有形無神，是家不是家。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbnelC3itu1
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常見事物配上獨特氛圍，舊瓶新酒，突兀不協調。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiiGmWLUrcH
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周遭顏色頓變濃稠，阻擋視線，如屏成障。看不見前路，聽不到指引，忽爾忘記將來。人總沒法拋棄過去吧。過去構成現在，現在組構將來。過去如何，將來也必如何……293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkELsNHii4
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一抹綠影突然冒出，撥開重重色彩，在他眼前掠過，緊隨而來是隱隱卻嘹亮的聲音。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oKjGUvLN4
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叮叮——叮叮——293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKfLlvKIIf
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震驚。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZLkwABgLA
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怎麼可以聽到聲音？293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVBsIIv7jo
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叮叮——叮叮——293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxmnDJcx6b6
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一股莫名衝動驅使他拼命追趕電車。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTmAc1vG42
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累。電車再慢亦會比他快。他再快亦追不到那些經已遠去的。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5z4CMtaC76
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他開始不明白自己為何要追趕。他沒有追趕的原因。他再努力亦無法追回那些人事物。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNtzKeodPNG
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他不想再追。很累……293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DSqqWn3as
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叮叮——叮叮——293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBzA1oP2jH
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乘客陸續發現行為怪異的他，將手提電話伸出窗外拍攝。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyCixqty3R
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電車似是擁有生命，生出無數觸手，向他招迎。當中有兩隻全綠的右手沒有手提電話。揮動姿勢與其他手臂不同，是多麼的熱情親切，充滿期盼，彷彿在講：「來！快來！」293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlxkEyNv4z2
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他咬咬牙，跑得更快，想要看看綠手主人——會是他們嗎？293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlzuD7k31t
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他沒能看見綠手主人的臉，但他堅信那是父母的手！293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrAa2TvGII
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這可能是他有生之年最後一次與父母團聚！293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBVFQJrQ5rA
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父母都是自殺的，在他毫無心理準備之時離他而去。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQyogBJrMpg
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他接受不了。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKhcDBwriY
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叮叮——叮叮——293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0WrD1QvJLZ
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電車準備靠站，他快要追到。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kAAXRzgp6
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綠手開始氣化。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAdc5j4ZurJ
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再努力亦枉然？一切努力只顯得他是那麼無能無力。他唯一做到的僅是無奈接受……293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtReiEIRuUF
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綠手在他眼前消散無痕。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT3BgZAdMuc
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他力竭倒地，哭得像個孩子。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLVQH9mJ2r
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叮叮——叮叮——293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7xt5wMKbo
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電車靠站，乘客分道揚鑣，世界運轉如儀，沒有因為他的怪異行徑而改變本身命運。正如他沒有因為努力而及時握著兩隻注定要消散的綠手。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lIubAO5K6
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緣盡。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDyEaJm9ys
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無謂執著。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPu61loneSs
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忽爾澄明。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdDv3gedibb
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汗止，氣平，淚盡。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZZzO88Vzd
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他重新站起來，拍拍褲管塵灰，抬頭挺胸走向電車站。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82qzpX19nW
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排隊，付款，上車。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJMFxEFKfiH
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如同其他乘客。293Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfiQQgrepHU
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如同其他同樣平凡而獨特的乘客。
