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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12cDlovhn1
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FMteTHELQ
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXEKzGV8Hk
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCA8T2Hnhm
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmH8qANcfPc
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrrMueklr1
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvhojLN3VU
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「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQjxzt1jPdG
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「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1rEmmWK4T
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「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaIlcw12G1
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrApsk93aWA
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「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8QJhjzGqUq
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家宜沉默了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxFO5UNfeQv
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媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxctu6UENbQ
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttrvy7aIgc
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原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqqPOm8JQI
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIdOgrXqse
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMd4RjY1lbv
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有人說她成熟了，進步了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqF9316mJIe
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd73R0xxarf
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡopJHupVaxB
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YRMuPZjeI
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7JUr3sOKg
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ou9wLibWf
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還是向現實低頭好了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHjc77E5Q6
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ca7vBUlLH
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz3UQf5fB2p
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycgeZnhivh
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOPka1n5nt
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「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kWeGpDb82
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ961xNxmTCR
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jn6AU924x
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5VYJwpk1z6
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LNhqLjrvH
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家宜沒答話。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcPOyNnyVr
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望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9i4S9LTwC0
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當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5ulpN74jM
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrQokbbiCS7
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkTDbkKlNUH
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當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxV1HijHYP
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當初…740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7shJMsz1I
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整個晚上，媽一言不發。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ359rfKwzzy
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduR80ONQrH
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdD4WTVr7FW
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但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3UVLAVNOD
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ohPN7lghH
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8jecd1L7Us
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0ZVdCLac5
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZvEFX93pX
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根本不是她的錯！740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF29MORAPEu
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但道歉可保住一椿生意…740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2BhEhaaGYJ
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卻扭曲了自己…740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpKe93IHiH
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值得嗎？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxRQvA6Xom
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgf0P74JnU
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaQ3XCE8eGE
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliv1wKKSER
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9LoklvgwFE
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJIKTvRKWQ
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmCR8RHXl8
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoIoncNZYDM
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7vEMrzu2j
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6wGHgTIvy
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOI1F3RCcz7
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIvTrD9CksH
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT6RgdLhr6k
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyBlnbfqGPV
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNi0BYM34Z
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4OEQV6Gb8
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtnaKIuliH6
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsvTh4PcGSP
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曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1ydcwboJMP
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理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNapP6S7eI
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5VDj15srq
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6rkob3leE
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不管了，先遞信吧！740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEo5szmqgYm
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8F3FfaEJ2
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家宜呆了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cdT0N3IRy
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrilSEKT0Z3
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVmH4aWtMZa
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJkS5o7bQN
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這是…放棄了嗎？740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ27xtD2fgLc
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oUm6HGqu4
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家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyYKMMrxQH
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCFhFmj04vL
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZyM3ophsy
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHZnQgf4nS
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBje1RnA9C
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhW8reVhWa
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnDP3VCAnZP
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjtcTS7Aa1
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZH8wJac0T
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6B5mQ65Dl
740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcOiiMBdmPv
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0rQMjbP1Y
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLSvqAcmct
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1SzjhrPye
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。740Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3AU0phRpFc
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