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天亮，上班。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9XXEM0PF2
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRR1ZE2LiC0
擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzlKizmcw8i
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuKSSYpt9kt
車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKhl5kd5yv
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5RyKfeha2Z
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJuZtUGrvv
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4Zt384opn
到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshFoqf0Toq
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj0uBApijVm
看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgdozZ3tic
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0sNPvXHkfm
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycSCQaKRMm
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSjDaonyS4X
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6gnrjpTpw
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBhHXQo42G
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvewVkbh0y
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwIZaojZOp
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoO1vvWI1MM
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvYfMLLXFg
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pVTP8PIAE
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1RdVWkGYD
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtMzdMBXdEp
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxSXwAvyay
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNRVIijy1Xr
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS7cTDhMDL1
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJIiPo8HLT
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlqiq9WnUPa
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXaojN6IkZ
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQo6sRwXFgd
還是……828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVO5GzmiKQ
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzmSB6mAkzJ
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2Yej54KQ6
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkLnwA2fbn
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHiDW8MVBaf
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMmQQl7vtGI
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49u4wZcGKy
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLVM4UnDe2
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGFKlb6AMLa
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaC8p4mDHs9
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQsN2bYp63F
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBchUl2kyw
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHas0JRpsa
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSlyAvz0nu
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM7ukJIQhXf
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloH5tspeOF
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0OBGszKGj
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9l868bIfrJ
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsJpKBDICGJ
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1Q0GUN8jd
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbF8bzFJAf8
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZbOIh3OGU
醉倒。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnrE3isid93
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYbTfECTiM
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqlIztTFDU
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoHKhEypMbk
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4zD2aU7O6
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQwwf2gmECf
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOEHggUodB
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQa6wFj06ds
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhenpNqYdVb
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVyXEM2zZq
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyapUJCAX0
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnAQX2Gtfk
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3yvLZyy813
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUt7VNermRg
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZN99OdOQFc
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQJpJG4Ffo
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhtojUW26T
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsLecR2BSA
死寂。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAcC4jF70z
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡai187nY5Uf
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7VXigaUcA
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92RLFspBL5
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJzUzMIeCcE
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0Zi8zYExc
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡixfFfXfgDj
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8re2vFsr0
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPkUtSht863
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ZFFQst1tC
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAKhiYPdpH
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkwDYK2qAu
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcOKdmi2yd
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2JNYxOydN
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNuSiz41rG
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKR3KphZ8SE
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSMrs4U4TV
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXd2YeAhU1X
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnpGMaJjfR
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgAG3zIJVQe
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljc2e8CZ9X
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9GIMINxAuU
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOeCD0FleW
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXDQqRbJjk
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSV7qHGJR0d
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK35UJNRsK
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKrBkhNnIG
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGWQFgUJvh1
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKx9Ppq5N63
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFK1lwUZzLp
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuknUL7LEW
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhxMVKqfq69
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0jvmQRwrG
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLKTlTDYZ2
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TLI825bNp
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMftn57W0l
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHytpcxPXse
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9ckpMYtTl
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUnpdvqQ2hd
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRP4lCYqApF
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdD9CWdXri7
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObDybatn70
「在你體內。」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7h67szrzvE
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cqj4xqaTP
「甚麼？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK6MOdpkRXJ
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAXoFxeQcJ
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLu6oQOiuAK
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgGsrjNdDR
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaxd9ZVr2j
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97L5fkoylr
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6fbmHmKxu
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd34InrpkZj
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9hhOeE7mOf
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGad6kH3DoF
「誰？」另一聲音反問。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8CXWXFAV6
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSIig5XI9f
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbMLLdlaOI
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLfS0JEkDzN
靜。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKinr3ckm4H
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzEksjZ5mnJ
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8JxIt9Fx1
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1ppHoN7yM
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxt7jBTasDA
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKNlmVwgSej
我：「我有精神病？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvBcE9zbvh
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JuKigIsXM
醫：「是情緒病。」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93ougflnW6
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3addLydDzg
我：「怎麼辦？」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKroMXhbzXY
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrv7yD8atp
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6J6feVrs8S
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WOMxBjrEN
我：「謝謝醫生。」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXhm9n47iz
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdhXlSIvEwB
醫：「不用謝。」828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4tHjery8D
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7R5vAIlgxU
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFAvwxHFhp
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡca7SjUgwKa
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsHX6mB374
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡArQQRExSI9
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtIV6bSaUW
828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CgYpfpTtI
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；828Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ609NF3lbG4
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