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「無法不可以。」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaSpkLPqqe
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「如需幫忙，來找我吧。」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxyQN5fEKrA
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「謝謝你。」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8GvdQC2qq
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我對隸屬同組的小妹報以虛弱苦笑。與她向來關係不錯，概略知道彼此家庭狀況——同是經濟支柱，一屋老嫩。聽到她主動提出幫忙，我除了感激，更多的是感覺羞恥。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTkvui3Pga
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唉！多講無謂，反正既成事實。倒不如動腦筋思考如何向妻子說明狀況。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqe3XKdFofQ
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疫情關係，全球經濟不景氣。我和妻子預料這段艱難時期將會維持好一段日子，早已節衣縮食，積穀防饑。但我們慢慢沒有想到老闆會有此一著：工作日數減半意味薪金減半。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwJeJmxRzi
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供樓開支無法削減，父母醫療開支不能削，孩子教育開支不能減。唯一可以削減的只有我們夫妻倆的使用……411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡublSkBiHcR
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飯後，兩老早睡，兒女溫習，妻子洗碗。我怯怯到廚房去。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqodW4Bq0CT
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「老婆……」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xaJr3ZW1d
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「有困難？金錢？」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWOqm2XnYm
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妻子搶佔發言先機，心裡不安的我更覺虛怯。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Wc4a7Ctln
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「是。明天開始，只需星期二、四上班。」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMslnxiK5WA
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「嗯。」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt7y6X6hc0Z
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妻子沒再多話，專心洗碗。她的冷靜淡然在我意料之外，卻又在情理當中。無力改變現實，也就只得接受和硬撐，呼天搶地無補於事。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlr9ibDtuw
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我回睡房躺在床上發愣。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCdJIATyKCL
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無能。無力。無奈。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA6tZb7Xc7z
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千思萬緒化作團團亂線。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ07HQObL1kv
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剪不斷，理還亂。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohfnvxdQOF
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勿剪，別理。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IqKP7VB0Q
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待時日將其化解。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprhxe2fQ7o
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莫操心。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqe0n3MZzom
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莫操心？411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxGDqtWWCC
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如何莫操心？411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgu7gocownk
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我知道困境必定會過去，但我必須硬撐直到那天到來。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw0v0awqsTT
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撐多久？如何撐？411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCP6UtDLTVo
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不知道……
日出。星期二。上班員工人數銳減，辦公室冷清不少。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKAMC4i33S
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有人若無其事，有人變得寡言，有人大吐苦水。不論個人感受如何，公司繼續營運，世界繼續運轉。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerpNKxRlxf
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啟動電腦。電腦桌面背景是站在浮冰的北極熊。毛色暗啞，骨瘦如柴，神色虛弱。想必多日找不到食物，飢腸轆轆。絕望？誰管你的！天地蒼茫，白皚皚一片。無論北極熊是否存在，北極仍是北極，我仍在地球另端為家庭財政傷透腦筋。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRmgErALuC
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午餐。翻熱食物。是昨夜飯餸，白飯菜心排骨。白飯黏糯，菜心苦黃，排骨柴乾。想要一支豉油。下班後去買吧！不了，豉油不是必需品，不該浪費金錢買奢侈品。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugTmFhHOeN
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下班時間，加班。加班同事還不少。沒法子。減少工作日數不代表減少工作量，也不代表工作進度可以放慢。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tPMoBsIV1
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每次想及時間、日子，位於電腦屏幕右下方的時鐘就會顯得格外礙眼：它在提醒我妻子的飯菜變涼了、孩子掛念我的心情變淡了、父母與我相處的時間變短了；它在催促我加快手腳完成當前項目，接下來的工作將以排山倒海之勢襲來；它在教導我人生大道理，一寸光陰一吋金，吋金難買寸光陰，更何況加班沒有加班費……411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUiip403YHY
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關機，正式下班。心情太壞，說服不了自己留下來。回首，同事們仍在埋頭苦幹。理解，但無法奉陪到底。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXsUgJnTdn
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大街上，人影疏落，商店無燈。車站無人，想必有一班次剛剛離站。等。車頭燈或白或黃，在黑夜暗色環境當中尤其刺眼眩目。節慶煙花，演唱會螢光棒，無燈飯廳裡的金魚缸，床頭小燈，被窩裡的手提電話屏幕……腦袋失控，只管想著一堆毫無意義、不著邊際的雜亂畫面。累？是吧。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1XxXJM8nB
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我笑。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYdUBnSVEQI
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在巴士入站之際決定轉身離開。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtxBhyILVB
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忽爾不想回家。
「飯餸在雪櫃。你自行翻熱吧。」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pSvx4vSVj
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「好的。」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpdRl27SSUl
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我敷衍回應妻子幾句後也就洗澡去。熱水沖去臉上油塵，皮膚霎時變得乾淨而乾燥，微癢微痕。或許每個人都是因為這些不著眼的小耗損而老去。無可避免。無可奈何。是否只得順從？是否只得接受？不順從又如何？不接受又如何？411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAwIKijC3x
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只會苦了自己。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLUNoWFSEP
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努力改變過，極力掙扎過，然後一切依舊——世界依舊不似預期。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZcHlssGOO
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通體蝕骨的無能無力無奈。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQJnjgbJDx
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浴後，睡床上。妻子望著天花發愣。天花燈沒有亮著，光源自窗外滲入，剛巧側照伏在天花的小蟲，以誇張得滑稽的比例拉長小蟲影子，如怪物，如鬼魅。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHibbvAnwJ
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「你的同事有沒有跟老闆反映近來遇上的問題？」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqYavttvZ0
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「沒有。大家都在座位上邊罵邊工作。」411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbbYfgP1Fu
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妻子乾笑一聲，側身面窗睡去。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡadup4YMZkd
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我實在笑不出口，呆望天花數蟲子。411Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyLOhFtmOG
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一、二、三、四、五……
