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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iuJGDlqDo
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp0lP4YJlhv
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5f0cTMZEH
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bbfC9TLje
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1y5RlwLPC
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPmEs9hMTp
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMh4Gto9Eu
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNuH7Hf9ic0
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8XOE9WlE42
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVt1JYueHPY
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOve2rKXAad
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ96AKrZMmtN
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHPlfbfFVo
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgKLPteNs9
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaKU0YBt8qe
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Zv7nFlx2j
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIVxYWRLR0o
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCaga68RoJ
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIUULZz7tV
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlsAfgZoORG
家宜沉默了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsjYG4T7yK
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIahcl1vdp
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmydqZtiHJO
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEp1mz5GHR
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wYuy3cakp
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbO7jhcUjT
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx1ovkZy3Ee
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt3W8HZJgPg
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkU8hZUyvd
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgH6acyoxY2
有人說她成熟了，進步了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cn8svpwFC
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMgDKM7bRSP
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWkAMoJSuw
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZuRz1Gz2G
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90sBVHiSnt
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1WqQ3Keeqd
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKkxSDuLgso
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還是向現實低頭好了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2cd1Vu5gzR
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2hZiCQl6rK
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tKYMDLWIq
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6kAiLlnHb
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkztl9fTECA
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUjf20H6c0
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY8ukQcRx8o
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZZURXwsE2
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7F8kyRdUKM
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaIiFtvap2
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWTCM5PBNR
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9J9gMa3Qa2
家宜沒答話。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡycVt4UhglQ
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeBY7gDzJS
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfNhidpGFwN
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxNB5iHQTx
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxEqoA7D619
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB4MuhgnJwT
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYe2DUya9WU
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqodxtSWVC
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6ln35hLB4
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkolBUU12I
當初…739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrnhbGTBHcZ
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcrbPnJkts
整個晚上，媽一言不發。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMG1eNmWLW0
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3B9zDaZlVH
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqHlpiLSF7
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkifp01h8dB
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGNXOWIqESv
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ12irHiX9E5
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyUvZSzSCSO
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv3NqHBPFP3
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc233VWpGuB
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcssySnU4V
根本不是她的錯！739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0fgo1cGmO
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqda4AYBSMl
但道歉可保住一椿生意…739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2673U0wiEm
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卻扭曲了自己…739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYyCdDC2nY
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gwcfbU7HG
值得嗎？739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbLobRxn5F
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkGuY2il1h
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyALg1fuGN
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRFK4OT19R
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMBkp5MTg8A
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHywFZclSpj
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoHb8GU9gf
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjk3ohgCQfY
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8ENGRJOEb
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NqK6cXwBb
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFtPYNWopg
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzrwqw6MsPS
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQmuzebudC
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Ul0qBuwWK
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZHAAufAjul
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNog6fkRdH
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6M7wKv1z6l
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhxp70xkca
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI29zL4vOZq
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHh4tz9V9Vu
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡikegkkdCgx
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSND9v9ppKy
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefM0Ok2sKU
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7h4086U7mK
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XlEl8KXCp
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDn9Ixzl3W
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPJz70vkAf
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyE2FPSDxV
不管了，先遞信吧！739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UgtVomDGc
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6cTf3XpwHi
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZmGPOWkyT
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunQEpU0p1y
家宜呆了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUPpQ7aJ9q
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPeshyD0g2
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJTtvZy42f
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIp5ALbh2W
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzASYcFLM3e
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qBiNLrFKB
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RzrDBWgR9
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpoUuT12BR
這是…放棄了嗎？739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6IKtoM55F
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OvA5o9v8t
家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5OlQqgkUts
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXdHcLWJJmr
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKo0Hb1kvyF
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrR5dCci76h
家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwrgydKTwZ
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9RBjBPzEkI
昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiN0TI3aWr
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJaaB7gJ2MY
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQ25QFUQmI
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1Zss6K53y
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8X0RTGKA1e
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFXSsM86EFn
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtW7wOq8LeO
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡScR61TS573
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCmqqUIN8n
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGE1pIbwYxI
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYeTIAa4NF
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NcqyM0q68
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbxTh57rKG
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HjQLar4g6
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkGgN0JYXA
739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJruvnDcNPU
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。739Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww6oUBFECB
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