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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7jipUKnit
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4NdvyAQjg
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pnvTKik4e
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhQy9YObx0
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQAy6MVPppw
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCUcijgurm
面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6V2VzRIE7i
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tiSGZsv6M
面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0zHU0txw9
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWvRtCWQRX
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvBfDXGwFG
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFv0BogLFoy
「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYSYbiZBxE
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzS7Ormt0yT
「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6HfTI0bZS
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMaDscmKWQ
掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTsv5zbfEHD
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxtkM3KCF2N
「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGQosU4OFZ
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNw0D3Axybd
家宜沉默了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXa9T5H3sh
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD19cMJXCvB
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsLgwRpZaI
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsMpir9tuu
這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSogWcg0UWv
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyDjtx6LEv
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbXIpdBOFC
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4ajwJspYQ
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLkkxeZQ3Qm
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYcJgnSAET
有人說她成熟了，進步了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cWh8pI1KM
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrohrwKA9bo
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhmH8l6cai
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLePiqkjEO0
似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdiBmnzVb7Q
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTBXPv2KKW
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnMcG4HWGiO
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還是向現實低頭好了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOofoSCwEB
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvK6JSWoGOa
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9MTKfBzkZ
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPGfd8g9Hu
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGZSA6AlMR
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvmACPSqtw9
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWH7lQsJiI7
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXos7xb8Hb
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxEG9UpcTy
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVskHuwn1xc
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPY868LmjwB
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzd0Xi0VZi
家宜沒答話。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JxOIFqBUR
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgNXrXhu4db
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUoXoTRy9n
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrqBG9DDVAo
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTa5MZoxqo1
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtQrBmvagcS
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJv4vAYcI4e
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2IAUyywtNX
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQONiZf5fLJ
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsS2owwF5b
當初…736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESFRSmRrKF
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbiMDLHZyI6
整個晚上，媽一言不發。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWhczzBEil
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxHxwWZWOsr
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyFKM2Olrc
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzDn0tPURCj
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksUu4yMt76
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJa0qmYpuFH
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX1YHhMm2v0
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeKCcHZJSH
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lJ9D3iKb3
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYug6md55J
根本不是她的錯！736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHk1KozKIRx
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLGVZoicRQ
但道歉可保住一椿生意…736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ZtHOTrDzX
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卻扭曲了自己…736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtisZMwZusA
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值得嗎？736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3h4ZdPvTy
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡef126h67nJ
「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UNfjKSo0t
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4CirLh0RZN
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡypfevgEdJo
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHmN84YbQGd
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQ2BAh0RO3
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡprEkYdV663
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVolqAhrZca
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Tklx3iw4Y
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQ5utT18Vw
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPjGkVqruU
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTPBTBm15uW
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLRZDIFWnGV
「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQotJ2h9I8Q
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5MXAsZ3YY
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0X568a92u3
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMFWFeY52P
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx0sdfDGmbv
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UFB95rMTZ
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuXF8XJsbR1
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHH4BjuX7kY
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUpI9cgc5a
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOgkhwYTit2
難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUUCDSKKkRg
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKy7L8wu4L
還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzlBSASwek
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBJ0GPVG4n
不管了，先遞信吧！736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRWxnKeDTIL
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioGGvcYG00
「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpX9m5mF8HJ
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlf8rFCzIKZ
家宜呆了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwsHF5dT1Z
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvVxKeG0bW6
「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSU2yWX36FN
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeRQASShq8
她沒即時否定——猶豫了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT2GJrMa1lD
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXz2cY1alYV
「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2o0BC3MCGX
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2AP1eeOL5
這是…放棄了嗎？736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA06BnSD0O9
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrfUAxMiDC
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6VA3Q2RBW
家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkzxgsyxfhM
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6b658sZ0t
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTta5zhnmIu
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcw69i0kos
當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIETbs9BsBC
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdNjRM2wpES
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSuFwf5era
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4LOqQXdCK
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDLoBFaa0U
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEXYDpRb5E
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2REE475lmT
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROKqu7GFVH
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLiwBop90c
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOBbUqlZcX
媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vay18lpEr
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcH7BXIqjo
「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunwhIMtgLK
736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZr75OHMPn
回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。736Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01uyRvtciQ
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