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家宜拿著一紙文憑畢業。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghRI2FimjF
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和很多其他年輕人一樣，她是有夢想的，並一直堅持著。她一直在心中盤算著，要找一份怎麼怎麼的工作，要怎麼怎麼實現她大計……但眼見一封封求職信杳無音訊，石沉大海時，她開始著急。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuOHjd5PhO
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日復日，她心想：「機會在哪兒？」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODZGJafvW6
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLeiLTQJKP
終於，有回音了。縱使只有一個面試機會，她仍興奮得很。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdKUT0QWApZ
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面試當日，她穿著整齊，拿著沉甸甸的公事包，於烈日下到一幢舊式工廠大廈去。到達門口時，大汗淋漓的她，被玻璃門後的公司吸引著——是她夢寐以求的室內設計公司！還記得修讀室內設計文憑時，她常幻想著自己會受聘於一間大型室內設計公司，每天都從忙碌中獲得滿足感…738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFln9ffKsCr
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面試後數日，有回音了。「八千五？」她在心裡嚷著：「當日不是說月薪一萬嗎？」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAN6h9tIwt
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpDtfc8IxO
「你是零經驗的畢業生…」電話另一頭的男聲解釋說。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXYXaoqZZ0K
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「好。」家宜吁了一口氣，把心裡的標準降低了少許。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGl1Y3OBMNa
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「那麼，明天上班。」男聲的口吻近乎發號司令。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvoyHGIzh1z
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掛線後，家宜把消息告知媽。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFn9YBe8ZY
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「八千五…」媽想了想：「差不多…」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcR0849r9Q4
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家宜沉默了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGgQrQq92h
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpS3fc4Qg22
媽瞥了瞥她，續道：「『零經驗』、『Fresh Grad.』…八千五，已算是不錯！」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRHdkLvwlXK
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這一句話，又把家宜的標準拉低了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP96gB6QaX
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvonuwZlRIk
原來，她自己只值八千五！
一年後，進步不少的家宜被擢升，成為初級設計師。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDs1WmCpDF
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWNZ4PQDA6
自此，仍然年輕的家宜，決定不會再穿著花花綠綠，只會穿黑白灰。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQaq8XfGhZ
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKstmYVfvxu
有人說她成熟了，進步了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNkjjacJvfx
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVQuvPvbhkx
「我可不這樣認為。」家宜很想要這麼答，但卻總把說話生吞回肚子作罷。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1riiu65g9
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似乎，大家都只看到她「正」的一面而已。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEm5AqQSBr
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tRhlri51y
這就是大家想要看見的家宜嗎？一個只會穿黑白灰、不苟言笑的女人。大家似乎忘記了——家宜只有二十歲，是屬於青春的年華。真正的她，可是一個愛笑愛玩的小女生；但這只會令她被標籤為「不思進取」、「幼稚」、「被寵壞」的新生代。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWU0Q5xmrQ
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還是向現實低頭好了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZj7Uta6BH
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgxN8Hy0eW
家宜又再穿上套裝，遮掩仍然年輕的身體；化濃妝、塗豔抹，好讓笑容沉重得消失了似的。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKpVXppVey
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0ZJSN0RAjQ
這就是，大家想要看見的家宜吧！
「我回來了。」家宜脫下高跟鞋，一屁股坐在沙發上。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3TkgAD9yFI
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXvnSLpfsK
「發薪了嗎？」媽聞聲而至。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwblZTxPOX3
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPjfdgWsxv
「發了。」家宜從手提包拿出支票和糧單。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCN2bpRDng
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJNY3yI5hg
媽看了看，聲線幾近尖叫：「你不是已經升職了嗎？」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHkQ2G6HqF
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1B9ARvKcm
家宜沒答話。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVPSQDUXCI
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbsgakfvJM
望著家宜，媽氣得火燒心。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphdZf0S7ub
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33eig1u45O
當初，是家宜承諾會賺到更多的錢。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9b4V7s5U4
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXaktd3TZx
當初，是她講理想，擅自推掉一份待遇優厚的工作。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55h5RPm40T
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UieoeKQXp
當初，她根本不應為興趣而揀選室內設計。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkoURaKjpbJ
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當初…738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIeCMmy7CEi
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZ9NNJ3Enn
整個晚上，媽一言不發。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62sDbRGlU6
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhWfCs8ZC8
家宜很難受，但卻選擇不多話。是的，她很後悔——為何她當初那麼有理想？原來，理想真的不可當飽飯吃！738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MJqV9UHr0
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCV6KGG7U9D
但現在，何如？
這是家宜首次到酒吧來。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoz4qy0u3V
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1n5WthqjaS
形形色色的男女，都不約而同地帶著一對黑眼圈；家宜也不例外——她昨晚失眠了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIIUG7ZpUJ
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2R1a1q9l3
從未試過被人當中那麼奚落，還要她道歉。但更難以置信的是——她道歉了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRfCo1cAQWu
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根本不是她的錯！738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfgLVER8sOf
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但道歉可保住一椿生意…738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdblfgdynPs
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卻扭曲了自己…738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpub5lJKnL7
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值得嗎？738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDLmHCtxdO
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「你是家宜嗎？」有人從後拍了拍家宜的肩膊。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZil0b7NRy
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDwroZuppR
「學姐？」家宜不自覺的伸出手來，公式化地打招呼。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2VfGIHwG4
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDnEYdUwOUS
「近來好嗎？」學姐也成熟了不少：「還在那室內設計公司工作嗎？」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaGYwDscSz
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2ioZkLskO
「是的。」家宜雖然盡力隱藏，但仍掩不住眼裡的失意。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2xMXh8x8K
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjk1fm4Ax4
「我最近自己設立了一所室內設計公司…」學姐有意無意的說：「需要聘請設計師…」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM17SOO3YYA
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN6uj5GNcHg
「設計師…」家宜頓時精神起來。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EgnXBYN94
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「雖是自主度高，但薪金卻…」學姐小心翼翼的試探著：「你會來幫忙嗎？」
草擬了一整晚的辭職信，就在手心。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUxhC5WxvtI
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHHFfhyeR34
只要家宜有勇氣遞上，再加幾個模稜兩可的原因，理想便能確切的握在手心。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq5FL7ojR1S
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2YNUrOQh7
「理想不能當飽飯吃！」這句話突然在家宜耳邊響起。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG8vsu8BllW
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaK7lC6DNi6
曾講過這句話的人，有媽、朋友、同事、上司…甚至家宜自己。還記得，講這句話時，家宜自己的心情是絕望的。但大家的表情卻很輕鬆，活像只是講及一些與自己不相干的事。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwlYUmJTuV
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLe6IfZRdW
理想，不相干嗎？很遙遠嗎？738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthIWJBWLbV
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難道大家年輕時沒有理想嗎？738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeZNynAUJ8
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還是大家根本知道現實裡沒有理想，乾脆直接放棄了？738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPYZdaMVlGO
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不管了，先遞信吧！738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzqxPEpd3c
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「你…」老闆氣定神閒：「很缺錢吧！」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tDxE5jjKK
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家宜呆了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4b7FVsHtk
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「加薪能留住你嗎？」他豎起兩隻手指，示意加薪兩千元。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vxO2TK0aw
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她沒即時否定——猶豫了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbLvPLoUvO
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「既然沒問題，你先去工作吧！」他以微笑作結。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3ylHSzmAnn
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這是…放棄了嗎？738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdzxVR12eR
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家宜只知道自己剛才的確心動了，再沒追求理想的資格…
天，灰灰的。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gu7nmGZHr
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家宜傻傻的抬起頭來，心想：「我到底在做甚麼？」她的手在顫抖著，弄皺了手心的辭職信。從來不相信「為五斗米折腰」；但今天終於領略到。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaRbnF3lmb
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家宜垂頭喪氣地來到家門前，勉力地堆起笑容，按下門鈴。應門的是媽。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJcfss4sVw
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昨晚，為了工作上的去留問題，她和媽吵起來了。當時大家都氣得面紅耳赤，卻未能分出勝負。家宜最記得媽那一句：「生活艱難！」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxZ5vnTxrn
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當時聽畢，家宜禁不住吐了句：「錢不是萬能的！」但二十四小時後，她願意收回那一句話。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEiLrtqg8G
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAAS8b8Uxv
「真的辭職了嗎？」媽的語氣，冷淡得令人難受。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Gwjo5rfg4
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3sz24VeIQ
「沒。」家宜感覺到自己的眼淚快要奪眶而出。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBQhgk2Jaf
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEcuPKiPLH
「真的？」媽的表情很複雜，既喜且悲。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY69kWzoWsO
738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSh4AV3Hlk
是的，她很高興家宜沒有辭工；但她實在太熟悉家宜的脾性了——幾近頑固的堅持自己的想法。要是她的想法改變了，原因有二：想通了或是徹底被「擊潰」了。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgD3YsUusUt
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媽選擇相信後者：「有話要講嗎？」738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aZdzv7F1I
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「沒。」家宜搖搖頭。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiOYzrg8ajc
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回到房間，家宜躺在床上，呆望著天花板。738Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm58l2CIXw
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