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天亮，上班。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKzif33tfN
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6c0ONKbeOj
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwS6gmRTTG0
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食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5a2ZaXrXJj
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5nLEPWYXT
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKAPT9ywBVX
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxzdS78feX
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUsvK5rtY5
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2oRqFvPewi
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsBrktVrjCI
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm4GWk0a0SN
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「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7EiXMHaoP
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWgqI7Lgp0D
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtd2uPYZTEM
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bNzDLYAnR
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTcRJbjABT
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHLNUgXhvdT
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8WONoCL8Lj
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2PHD28r8H
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbyr3rmvzGF
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEz1qMXpRa
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1hm8GJQUh8
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還是……824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabfmvJeLli
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDbuV0rXzK
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6v0zElWpt
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgabT0sNvWw
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcrtlafSFn
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXWeQyTjPty
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1whp8RlrDR
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很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb4643m9UTP
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBGYe0DJCW
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kCrOHsvT6
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5RgCsXAON
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFAY0R99TR
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「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOBJ2Mt9jPv
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9WGDLQvlL
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmCpOGb256
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGlKY1sDUq
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YR5BqqVHZ
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRPGIzNeypl
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2Lqp0iEad
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWqclhKLwi
醉倒。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDgcSaUIle
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迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79q7RauzAV
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp6glIEbHy4
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7ykbC33YA
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdrd5lHuroI
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媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUdtQA9xgs
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoutNRUIBeX
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfb5I6hsbBH
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQ7X6Ya5aN
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9BRae0gcA
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTnKinBptmB
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCf2EBoyTr
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShVi30qBa6
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzj62vD5w72
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUR37E1QhkL
死寂。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXlqeBhgbw
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7bxCU0S0P5
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YFL0nP7hb
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UbmHdldRc
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5z2QmvMUeY
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxu2ORv2lcQ
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEgXJjRzXv
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5jFcPwy22
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39wWIdrcZP
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJRVHJ7Otd
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68VD8HYS36
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTcXYTEakb
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUf4gVK93oj
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc2QIEUMuUN
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMjUf08yQk
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1Lqi8J7Cm
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYlr6Ot4r9
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzo42WWWkRX
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKfL85QhZNo
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoBOy3vLJD
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDfGqoDkQY
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhk2501ejF
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBXNmRvf0Xg
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEwnyqQMwmV
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm81QcoPbhs
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA1nypL6t45
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfPY2zFb6P
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMTgDExyVHq
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrOjmYkgBj
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrf5kRlkSb3
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYT8USbCQj
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbLrbCzuNU
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2C7f7YAoZ
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRaNIcxcUO
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKQn0lNbrS
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvd9egTBKjs
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWc0OumANNn
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqyUBsHlOj
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLHVmUxVqRL
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJZpOSO9Tp
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQDCdvpktnI
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6klqjjJNTr
「在你體內。」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXXmB6J7Wi
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7auoMRpEUI
「甚麼？」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7XdbLiNf8
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJsKYlwaxF
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDS3fAnK8Y
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMyQ9lq3vJ
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXshIab1He2
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHGoeVmpWX
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfFKFJI2wq
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnB1MsmiE0
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAsPJmw3q6
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgtM7XeEnsV
「誰？」另一聲音反問。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlG8wkx4Pk
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXkrgS9GRY
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHeMnvFiVp
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靜。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FSY22tD04
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIH8UPZmqUK
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ5Ba0Prhh
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLK6cthbXRY
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8X83rWogQ
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObkAF8g80f
我：「我有精神病？」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NEJhtn3Lg
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8m7ueiaC8T
醫：「是情緒病。」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzacvj9VYV1
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1xHAxFpbI
我：「怎麼辦？」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd37hpvGegS
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3LWfXduwJ
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYobps3MROk
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRD7yeXmBaG
我：「謝謝醫生。」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Z9zS1wFWS
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfu57eukTm9
醫：「不用謝。」824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzF9SyVaiqK
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ78j6wUTx67
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykbEXstcPz
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmEeTNWRZPF
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8pO7stdTII
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIYBsOfZh7
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uLTUGPGod
824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOV1I7SO6db
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；824Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXA4ruKtW34
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