Even though we made up as sisters I know deep down in my heart that things aren't going to change. My two older sisters are way too into seeing who is more of the boss around the house and of me. Yes, I lied about the whole situation about him raping me but he did embarrass me or so I felt. I didn't know that my sister would have gotten a type of revenge on him. I do feel bad about it but I do have the man of my dreams which is Seth. But now I feel like my relationship with him has nothing to do with my two sisters. I understand that Nubia has been through a lot but with her being gone I felt like I was the most vulnerable because I didn't know how to cope with the bullying of being dark skinned.
So when I got picked on I just shut down and I got picked on a lot as for my oldest sister the firstborn she dealt with it in a different manner period like the middle sister she will fight but somehow she wouldn't get caught. I guess it's because my oldest sister first born didn't hit them in the face she would beat them to where nobody would see the bruises. I guess that's where the middle sister went wrong who knows period that or my parents caught on the her problematic life before they caught the first borns.
However it went I refuse to be like neither of them I want people to see me for who I am I don't want to fight just because somebody called me a bad word it does hurt but fighting gets you nowhere period however that does not ring true to my sisters because now nobody messes with them they don't call them names or give them any type of problems.
But now that I go to a very prestigious school there is no bullying I don't have to worry about being called names or having any problems out of my new friends or my new school. 590Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdGu9JkSFV
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I didn't want to tell my parents that I wanted to go to a new school even though I told my sister that my parents wouldn't they have offered a few times for me to go to a different school because of how amazing my artwork is. Our parents are very supportive and what we do and how we do it and they want the best for us because they can afford it.
With me I know my sisters are supposed to be like my best friend I'm supposed to be able to tell them anything and everything. But the way that they want me to solve things is not the way I see it or the way I want to do it. I'm a pacifist I don't like to fight it's not that I can't it's just that I don't like to. And I don't want to tell my sisters any of my problems. Rather they be personal or not personal I feel like it's just none of their damn business.
But for now I guess I can try and at least tell them what's been going on with me I do have a art showing for the art gallery this weekend I was thinking about not inviting them and just inviting my parents because nobody and my new school knows that I have sisters and frankly I would like to keep it that way.
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