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Marca’s POV
I sigh as I walk. I listened to the two talk. But all I really wanted to do was get back to our friends. I slide my hands into my pockets. Listening to him give her a life lesson. I roll my eyes, sighing. She doesn’t need a life lesson, she needs help.
She’s betraying our pack by hanging around a vampire, she’s accusing our parents of some hateful shit. He. Is the one who needs to stay away. He’s brainwashing her..!
I turned my head slightly when he offered to help manage her anger. I wanted to scoff. “Why..why do you want to help me..! Why are you so nice to me.?!” She snapped. I sigh, turning to face them.
“Yeah. Why are you so nice..? Hm?” He looked at me. “What’s you're deal..? Hm? Why are you so obsessed with her..?”
“Marca..” Enya whined. “No. I’m serious. You’ve been brainwashing her. Haven’t you..?”
“What..!” He wrinkled his nose while taking a step back. “Is it true..? I mean..you’ve done nothing but turn her against everything. And now you're offering to help her with her anger..? What the hell is wrong with you..?” Her face flushed and she looked down at her feet.
I roll my eyes again. “Marca. Enough.” This time it was him stopping me. “You..! Don’t get to tell me what the fuck to do..! And you certainly don’t get to tell her what to do..!”
“He’s not Marca..! I want this..!” She shouts. Jerking her head up. “What..?” I say sharply. She sighed, shaking her head. “Marca he’s right..” of course he is. “This tourting thing..? Me acting this way..? I don’t like it. I can’t keep living like this Marca..”
“Like what..? A werewolf..?” Her ears turned a deadly pink and I knew I had struck another nerve. Good. Because she needs to wake. The fuck. Up! “Enya can’t you see that he’s trying to change you? You're supposed to be bad..! You're supposed to be aggressive..! You're supposed to follow orders..!” She groaned. “Marca..! Wake. Up! Can’t you hear yourself..? You're talking like a soldier..!” She whined.
“You're talking like our parents..acting like our parents.”
“I am not..!” I challenged. “You are. You're telling me exactly how to act. Exactly how to be.” She hissed. “Guys enough..!” Anwyll starts. Trying to split us up. “BACK OFF!” I yelled, shoving him into a tree where he froze. “This is you're fault..! This is what you wanted..! Wasn’t it..?”
“Marca stop.” Enya hissed quickly grabbing me but I jerked my arm away.
“What! What Enya..?” I finally say. Josiah.
That was enough to make my body stop, followed by my soul. I spin around to see genuine shock, disappointment and sadness. He turned and rushed off. No…I felt the sting of tears. No..no! I quickly rushed after him. “J-Josiah..! Josiah w-wait..!” I scramble up the slope. Trying to catch him.
Grabbing his arm, I quickly pull him to a stop. “Jo, I-“ he shoved me off. “What the hell is going on with you?!” I flinched and immediately felt uncomfortable. “W-what..?”
“First you break someone’s arm..! Than you lead us into this stupid forest..! And than ditch us to go fight someone and than now this..? Yelling at Enya..? Accusing her of what? Getting upset that she wanted to better herself? What the hell is wrong with you Marca..?” I gap slightly. Feeling my palms go numb and sweaty.
Fuck.. “n-no…jo that’s not what happened..! W-we we’re-“
“What? Hm? And I swear to god you better tell me the fucking truth because I’m tired of this..!” I swallow hard. I slowly rub my hands up and down my legs while slowly looking around. “W-where are the others..?” I mumble.
“They left..” he shrugged calmly while crossing his arms. “They got tired of waiting. So they went back to school. Said they rather be bored at school than be stood up by their own friends..” he snapped.
“B-but you stayed..?” I say. He slowly clenched his jaw. He blinked and looked away before looking back at me. “Obviously..I wanted to see if you had a good explanation for this..I wanted to know if it was worth it. So tell me Marca. What the hell is going on..? Or were they right to leave..?” I swallow again despite my throat and mouth being dry.
I open my mouth but nothing could come out. I watched in pain as his eyes slowly turned a shade of pink. “Nothing..?” He croaked. “Okay fine. Who were they? Hm? The people following us..? Anything about that? Or are you going to keep that a secret to..?” Joe please..I thought.
He tilts his head while clenching his jaw. “Anything..?” He whispered. I hesitantly look down at my hands which trembled dangerously. I squeeze my hands together. He scoffed looking away.
“Is there anything you can tell me..?! For fucks sake Marca..! Is there anything honest about you?!” I flinch and I just..stare at my hands. “Is your name even Marca..? Can you tell me? Is Enya even you're fucking sister..!?” He shot out. He scoffed while walking away. He stopped and face me.
“Marca, who are you..? Seriously..” he hissed. “I’ve known you for years and I don’t even know your last name..I haven’t even met your parents..o-or been to you're house..I’m not even allowed to you're trial..” he shook his head.
“You never celebrated a birthday..o-or been to any of our games..you're always busy..” he whispered. “Who are you Marca? please..tell me something. anything..” he begged. Tears flooded from his eyes. I look down at my hands again where I just stood there..like an idiot.
I blink repeatedly while trying to stop my hands from shaking. “I..I want to tell you…more than a-anything..” I whisper softly. “B-but I can’t..” I say weakly. There was a moment of silence. It felt like eternity..it was horrible.
“Than I guess we are no longer friends..” he finally whispered. I snap my head up. “N-no..Joe please..!” I beg, a soft whine escaping my lips. He shook his head while taking a step back.
“Marca..I can’t trust you..n-not anymore..not when I know so little about you..you're terrifying Marca..you beat people’s face in…you hide everything especially f-from me..” he whispered. He shook his head.
“Enya is right. Things need to change. She’s right to try and better herself because no one. No one. Is going to want to be around someone who’s aggressive and so secretive about every single fucking thing..” and with that he was walking away.
“J-joe please..” I say again. “Josiah..” I cry out. Silence. I curse and groan, throwing my hands up to my face where I turn away. I scream, dropping to my knees where I just stayed that way. Cursing everything.
I lost Joe..”no one is going to want to be around someone who’s aggressive and so secretive about every single fucking thing” those words rang in my head.
I felt myself hiccup as I slowly pulled my hands away. I flinch at the sight of them being wet. I slowly raise a hand to my face where I pause at the feeling of tears.
Oh joe..I sat there for what felt like hours. Just letting the tears fall. I lost him..the same day I got him back. And it was my fault..
after a while I stagger to my feet and head back towards my sister. She pushed herself off the tree and I wiped my eyes and my nose. “W-what happened..?” I didn't reply at first. I just felt tired. I sigh heavily. “Let’s just go home..I’m tired..” I mumble turning away.
“You can do whatever you want with you're life. I don’t care. It’s not my decision. It’s not my life..” I mumble. I sigh, closing my eyes for a moment. “Just promise me you won’t get yourself killed in the process..” I add walking in the direction of home. “I can’t go through it again..” I whisper. 180Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPsdomBAOS
I stop for a second so Enya could bid her goodbyes then we continue on. Enya jogged to my side but I don’t say anything. After a while she tilts her head to look at me. “Marca what happened…?” It wasn’t a nosy tone. It was a curious, gentle one. I sigh softly.
“He left..” I mumble. “He..said he couldn’t be around someone like me..someone aggressive and secretive..” I mumble again. “S-someone he hardly knew..” I felt my throat close off again and I blink looking At anything..anything that’ll make the pain disappear.
Enya sighed and frowned, pulling me into a side hug. “Marca..I’m so sorry..” I shrug. “Why..? I-it’s true..” I add painfully. “How c-can he be with someone like me..how can he love..” I paused when my voice gave out.
I shook my head quickly. “Enya I just wanted him to be safe..” I blurt, feeling myself break down. “I didn’t wanna hurt him..I swear..I-I just didn’t want to lose him..!” I sob. She quickly pulled me into a hug. “I want you to be safe” I add. “I don’t want to relive what happened to orris..” I hiccup. “I can’t lose anyone else..I can’t..!” I wail. She gave me a gentle squeeze while pulling me closer to her.
“I’m sorry Enya..! I'm so sorry..!” I sob.
I can’t lose her too..
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