The next day seemed to be moving very quickly. Had to quick meetings between my guards and another to discuss funds for the year. Next was to have my session with Ben.
I stretched as I made my way down to the hall to the library. Thankfully today wasn't a training day because I was exhausted mentally, even though knowing me it wouldn't be much of a task to avoid his attacks and somewhat still relax. If I kept our relationship specifically work than we probably would have a very flawed trust which would be a flawed planned.
I opened the doors and looked at bed who was sitting in one of the round redish brown chairs reading a book that I couldn't quite make out before he looked up at me giving me a smile.
"That bad of a morning huh?" he asked knowing the obvious.
I shook my head rubbing my temple before sitting down in the chair across from him.
"I hate number crunching in the morning. . . Hopefully yours was better?"
He shrugged.
"Went to see my family, had some breakfast- and you know I was thinking. . . these past few months have been a lot of learning for me-and I guess somewhat for you and it got me thinking"
I tapped my finger impatiently waiting for him to finish his sentence, it may have seemed rude but I could never understand people who drug out their conversations if they clearly knew what they wanted to say.
"Have you ever thought about not drinking so directly from the source? Like not getting blood from someone even if through a bag-vial or whatever and just using like I guess. . .stored bagged blood?"
Excuse me? Now, this may be pretentious of me , but did he really just say a Queen should drink like any other person? Just random not naturally warmed ( or in some cases cooled) blood?
"I'm sorry what are you implying?" some sting was definitely delivered with that question as m anger grew.
"I just- I wonder if you weren't the way you are maybe you wouldn't I guess have the-aggression? Or issues from feeding as much? I don't really know too much but I mean the little experience I have I mean-"
"You mean from your blood? If I hadn't drank yours at all? Who knows, but that's a you thing."
"I just- I thought maybe if you tried maybe certain things might make you feel better? or just different"
"Certainly different I'd be drinking god knows what-maybe even feeling nauseous from half of it"
"But if you could?" he tested.
"I suppose yes, I could try it but why?"
He put the book now seeming to grow more nervous about his thoughts.
"I just thought maybe- you've helped me so maybe I could think of a way to somehow help you"
"What are you even talking about?"
He blinked and then tried to clearly hide his growing emotions of being uncomfortable.
He knew something I didn't.
"I heard a few words about Jason going around and umm. . . I guess sort of forcing blood out of people?"
Why would he do such a thing? Especially forcefully?
"I don't know what you're talking about?"
"Luna it's okay - I mean I guess I don't really know it just seems kind of odd to me after you went through that whole thing. . "
"I'm being honest with you, I had no idea"
"Has he done this before?"
I shook my head almost ashamed for his actions.
"I mean sure when we had to get all this back," I motioned to the room around us.
Maybe a bit before hand when you know such things weren't available for keeping, otherwise no"
He was very obviously being careful about his next few words.
"I don't know, I suppose the rumor about him sounding so aggressive just shocked me as well knowing how I know you both, but you've known him longer of course so. . "
"I mean rumors are rumors, talk is talk you know?"
He gave a very weak smile.
"I suppose so yes"
I cleared my throat.
"I'll look into it though the situation"
He nodded.
"Anyways, so I know we've been training super hard the past few months, and we've pretty much gone through all weapons I guess. . .didn't even think that would have been a thing we'd have to do"
He took another moment to pause.
"So what now?" you could tell he was nervous for my response.
"I mean you feel more aligned now with yourself and Kaiden yes?"
He looked at me for a moment before nodding.
"Well that was what was most important, is for you to be in balance and feel more in control or mutual with each other"
I smiled.
Which hopefully meant when the time was right if I needed Ben to do something for me, Kaiden would be forced to comply.
"There's. . .actually something I want you to promise me. . ." he spoke again but much more quiet.
"Of course, anything"
"I-I found something-or Kaiden did and I-he wanted me to hide it because he said it would harm us. . . I want you to have it, but more importantly, if anything goes wrong, I want you to kill me with it."
I blinked.
There is no way that I would be handed such a key to my plan. . . I mean I understand the trust but this must be a trap, right?
Sure enough he picked up a large case that was sitting behind the chair and brought it to the floor space in front of me opening it up to reveal a well crafted sword and had I not been told what I was just told I would have assumed it was brand new with it's condition.
"Hmm I mean I suppose to slay a dragon you would need a sword huh?" he winced at the dark joke.
"Sorry, didn't mean it to come out so crude."
It was silent for a moment but then he chuckled.
"I mean I suppose you're not wrong, kind of feel the same way to be honest"
I laughed with him a bit.
As sad in a way as it might have been that I knew at some point he would be used- which could even result in his death, it was nice to give him these nice moments. I had hoped even more that he had them in other parts of his life as well. He was kind, and in some way just an innocent young man. He just unfortunately had harbored something inside of him that wasn't so innocent.
"So you new boyfriend? What's he like?"
I twisted my face a bit, to be honest he was still so new it was hard to describe him.
"Well. . .suppose that depends who you ask, Jarred told me he was a bit of a player, and that he wasn't exactly someone you date I will say he is quite the charmer, but maybe it's just that British accent" I winked.
"Oh? He's English too?"
"Mhm, he has a younger brother and actually one of my coven members live with him as well"
"So why did Jarred say such things? Are they friends or?"
"Well. . . he works with Jarred and I guess they umm, share common interest in females-excluding myself of course in that aspect"
"So why did you still want to pursue him? I mean you have something solid now right?"
I nodded.
"I can't quite explain it . . . he just caught my attention, Jason are perfectly fine, we had this discussion centuries ago-if anything he's more encouraging because he thinks every year will be his last for the past five centuries" I rolled my eyes.
He started to get a confused look on his face as his brow furrowed.
"How is it that you're so confident that he will be fine? How is it that he isn't dead if Zadicus wanted him dead so bad?"
I shrugged.
"To torture me? Who knows at this point, maybe he realizes it's pointless, I mean I hung out with him with my own free will and it went pretty decent I'm not chained up or anything"
He blinked and shook his head if he was trying to wake himself.
"You what?"
"Well I mean I figured after he kept me at the his house for a while and helped I figured it was what I should do-maybe even would help me look less suspicious"
He huffed.
"In my eyes I'd think the obvious- I mean you ripped his heart out did you not?"
I nodded then shrugged.
"I mean I suppose you're right, but only time will tell"
"I'll be honest. . . I just hope I'm gone by then if it does happen"
I stayed quiet for a moment.
"I wish I could say the same for myself. . ."
"Right. . .sorry"
"Lets not dwell on such a dark thought huh?"
I said as I got off of the chair heading towards the mini fridge that I knew was filled with some alcohol.
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I took off my leather jacket placing it on the door handle as I entered the bedroom.
"How was your meeting today?" Jason asked as I started tying my hair up in a ponytail.
He was wearing a nice grey button down with his sleeves rolled up with a pair of black skinny jeans.
"Went well I think overall, the numbers were tedious as always, but once that was finished it was smooth sailing from there, Ben and I hung out and caught up nothing to crazy. What about you?"
I smiled walking over to him reaching up to put my hand around his neck kissing his cheek.
He smiled returning the kiss.
"Went for a run with Jarred, pretty much had a guy day and hung out outside"
I raised my eyebrows.
"You, hung out outside?"
He nodded.
"I know, but I wanted to swim and then he wanted a big fire. . .so it was a fair balance"
"So then what do you wanna do now?" I asked tapping his nose smiling up at him.
"You know actually, Ben mentioned something to me today"
"Oh?"
I nodded.
"He said he over heard talk about you forcing blood from people?"
His eyes grew a bit, I could tell he was trying not to show it.
"I just, ugh, I don't know how to talk about this- I've been hungry very obviously and I just didn't want to dry out the house"
He ran his hand frustrated through his dark hair giving a sigh.
"I don't like the phrase forced, but I did use my title as persuasion. . . it's not like I went around attacking or anything"
To be honest I wasn't sure how I was supposed to feel, if I should feel sad, or upset or maybe both, or maybe even a little disappointed.
"Well. . . Ben seemed to think maybe you should lay off and just do what every other normal vampire does and just drink bags maybe"
He shook his head.
"I'm sorry, maybe this sounds a bit rude but you want me and only me to drink like every other common vampire?"
"Okay, first off don't be on such a high horse. Second perhaps just until this all fixes itself, besides it may sound selfish but the only neck I want you sinking your teeth into is mine"
I frowned.
He gave me a small grin and bowed his head down to the nape of my neck grazing his teeth against it before speaking.
"Mmm well I suppose I could think about that, but does that mean you're offering?"
He kissed that spot as if he were trying to persuade me.
"As much as I would loooove to, wouldn't that be cheating?"
"Or we can start tomorrow"
His voice was sending chills down my spine as he spoke into my neck.
"I don't know I could really use a shower. . ." I rolled my neck to the side a bit.
"No problem at all" and before I could question what that meant I was swept off my feet bridal style and was brought into the bathroom and Jason set me down in front of the shower as he turned it on.
I giggled a little as he looked back at me with a smirk before starting to undress.
"What? I needed one too"
He carefully placed his clothes in the hamper before stepping into the now steaming hot shower as I finished taking off my clothes and put them in the hamper. I took a deep breath smelling the scent of the water as it hit my skin but before I could finish enjoying the refreshing water hitting my skin Jason had wrapped his arms around my waist and was back at my neck grazing is teeth against the same spot again.
"You really are hungry huh?"
I ran my hand through his hair as it started to get wet.
"Oh you have no idea. . ."
And those were the last words he spoke before he hooked his arm around my waist tighter and sunk his teeth into my neck and I could feel my blood pulsing against his mouth as I let out a soft moan.
It was very rare that he was like this, he was normally quite patient and slow with things but today he was indeed different. I could look down and see some of the blood trickle down mixing with the water before it went down the drain, the inky crimson color mixing in like water colors.
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