After the worst part was done about addressing the whole situation the next few days had been back to normal except now it wasn't as sneaky. Which meant we could put our full focus again on Ben and Kaiden. Though, it seemed our time together was running out, Ben seemed to be in complete alliance with him now, he didn't fully change or anything, but they were equally in control at will.
"Ben. . .it's up to you now, we've done what we can for you- you can always come by but there's nothing else to teach you if you truly say what you mean."
Jason leaned against the wall as Ben rubbed his face with a towel.
"I feel as normal as I can feel. . . I don't feel nervous in public as much when it comes to tense situations, not waking up with my sheets torn up so that's a good plus"
He laughed a little.
I smiled.
"Well I'm glad"
"I can't thank you both enough, when we first met I thought I was going to kill someone and end up in jail and I don't even want to know what that would have meant. . ."
"Well you aren't, we were lost like you once- so if we can help someone else maybe that is part of our redemption for all the blood we spilled" Jason said.
What if he disappears? I don't trust Zadicus still, I need this safety net. We need it.
I said into Jason's thoughts.
Alexander will always have him on watch, trust me he'll be there when we need him, but this was always a step we knew we were going to do.
Jason made sure to keep eye contact with Ben.
"Well, I guess I'll see you guys around then yeah?" Ben smiled.
"Where are you going after this?" I asked.
"Back home to England" his smile grew and I smiled back.
"Well, have a good trip back"
He nodded before grabbing his stuff and heading out.
Jason and I looked at each other for a moment not saying a word.
"If we did everything right, he'll be back in a week or so" Jason reminded me as I sat down in a chair tapping my fingers on the arm resting my chin on my hand staring at the floor.
"I know. . ." I whispered.
"Then why do you seem so worried?" he stepped closer to me.
"I'm not worried about him, I'm more thrown off by the other side of the coin. . ."
"Zadicus?"
I nodded.
"Isn't this what you wanted?" his face softened as he came up to the chair sitting on the other arm.
"I do, but I'm scared now that it's here. . .maybe"
He grabbed my hand and kissed the top of it.
"I hate to give the guy any credit, but he's right- he has let me live this long, now I could be playing into it too, or he could be just torturing me at this point to no end but maybe there's some truth"
I shrugged putting my head in his lap and he stroked my hair.
☾☾☾
After spending some time with Jason and by spending time with I mean having sex for the first time in about or month or so with him I felt a lot better about everything. Maybe he was right, maybe we were finally able to live our life.
I reached for the key to Rickey's apartment in my pocket and put it into the door.
"Get back over here Danielle" I heard Rickey's voice through the door.
Maybe I should have asked if he had friends over.
I opened the door walking in.
"Hey babe-"
And the female he was talking to was in a bra and a pair of booty shorts. Rickey's arm wrapped around her waist as he held her against his chest with his face next to her ear. His eyes met mine and he only spoke two words.
"It's over."
I felt a wave of different emotions crash into me. I was pissed, I was hurt, I wanted to scream, I felt beyond stupid. I ran out the door. I ran so fucking fast out the door I didn't even bother with the elevator, I flashed down the stairs back into the parking garage got in the car locking the door and hugged the steering wheel feeling tears sting my eyes.
Not even five minutes ago I was thinking how perfect everything was.
What a fucking joke that was.
I sniffled as I felt the tears run down my face.
I didn't know what to do, I didn't know if I should go home to Jason, did I tell Alexander? How was Jason going to react?
Jarred.
Jarred was the only sensible one to go to right now, he knew about this sort of thing better than anyone.
If I knew him well enough he'd be at his hide out counting his money for the week. Jason usually didn't call or text me for the first hour I was with Rickey so it bought me some time. Even better for me Jarred was only ten minutes away from here so I would have more than enough time to pull myself together.
☾☾☾
"What do you mean my sister is here? She never comes here- is she with Rickey?" Jarred sounded flustered as I approached his office door.
"Nah she's alone man, she just said she needed to talk to you urgently" Blake said before he opened the door for me and headed out giving me a small smile.
"Hey little lady, boss man is in there"
"Thank you Blake" I gave him a small smile.
I walked into his smoky office and rubbed my eyes.
"Sorry, had I known I would have aired it out a bit" he turned on an air filter and turned around and when he looked down at me he looked a mixture of pissed and sad.
I must have still looked like I had cried in the car because his face said it all.
"What happened?" he asked trying to keep his emotions hidden.
I simply walked over and wrapped my arms around his torso and put my face in his chest and started crying again.
"Fuck, I've seen this too many times to know. . . he broke up with you didn't he?" he wrapped his arms around me and sqeezed me.
"I- I went over to his place to go out and do something and he had a girl over and she was like half naked and he was all over her" I said through my sobbing.
"Does Jason know?. . ." he asked quietly rubbing my back as I sniffled.
I shook my head still hiding my face.
"No. . . I came here, Jarred I don't know what to say to him you all were right and I feel so stupid"
"No,no,no" he pulled me back to pick my face up.
"Listen I know I said some bad things, but I never wanted the I told you so moment with you too. . . you're my little sister for fucks sake"
He wiped my tears and I sniffled feeling my eyes twitch as they filled with more tears.
"Though, I will say I still think you were too good for him" he smiled.
That got me to laugh a little and I wiped my eyes.
"There you go. . . listen I can't speak for everyone, but if I know my brother, he'll be more upset with himself more than even Rickey"
I shook my head.
"I- I don't want anyone mad at him"
"Luna, that's asking for a lot you realize that right? He was a fucking douche bag"
"Yes, that I insisted wasn't and was proved wrong. . ."
He sighed.
"You see the better in people. . . look at me" he raised his hands looking around him.
"We're in a drug den right now, and you came here to cry to me"
I looked down.
"There's nothing wrong with it" he added.
My tears finally stopped and I looked back up at him. He was just too fucking tall.
"I hate to ask this but. . . was the other night the first time you guys had sex? I uh, kind of heard you guys so"
I shook my head.
"Well then, you lasted longer than others if that makes you feel better"
No.
But I shrugged.
"Come on. . . we'll take my car home and send someone for yours or something. . ."
He grabbed his jacket off his chair and grabbed his keys.
☾☾☾
"No Rickey tonight? so just the three of us?" Jason yelled as he flipped through channels on the tv not looking up.
"Not exactly. . ." Jarred said as he nudged me forward and Jason turned his head around to look at his brother, but his eyes landed on my face first.
"What does he mean by that?"
"He dumped me. . ." I said quietly as I let out a shaky breath.
Jason was there embracing me in a hug within a second.
"Thanks for bringing her home. . . I got it from here" Jason murmured above me.
"Of course, I'll be in my room- trying to uh-yeah"
"Come here, lets go upstairs. . " Jason lifted me up into his arms and I curled up against him as he flashed us upstairs into our bedroom sitting down on our bed not letting go of me.
I couldn't help but start to feel the tears start rolling down my face again as I clung to him.
"I'm sorry. . ." I whispered.
"I'm so sorry" I repeated as I sobbed.
I felt him pull the blanket over us and he just placed his hand on my back.
"Shh. . . you have nothing to be sorry for, what happened?" he talked so quietly trying to soothe me.
"I guess going to Jarred first, I just, I thought I could get the crying out mostly" I sniffled.
I picked my head up putting it on his chest looking up into his eyes.
He looked so worried as he watched me wiping my tears with his thumb.
"He had some blonde girl half naked in his apartment. . . all he said to me was it was over"
He clenched his jaw and I watched his soft eyes shift, but he only took in a small breath. it was shaky but he was doing his best.
"Then what?" he asked.
"I ran out and went to Jarred. . ." I laid my head down on his chest still looking up at him, it seemed to calm him again somewhat because his eyes started to return to their normal warm color.
"I'm sorry. . ." he said softly.
"You don't have anything to be sorry for. . ."
"I just, I hate seeing you like this- somewhat wish I was there, but I know things would have been probably different had I been so. . ."
I wasn't sure if I should ask for more detail or not.
"Did umm, did he cheat on you?" he bit down on his lip as his grip on me tightened.
"I don't know. . ." I didn't think I needed to ask anything in that moment really.
"Are you gonna go over and talk to him tomorrow?" he started stroking my hair.
I curled up against him more and shrugged closing my eyes taking in a deep breath.
☾☾☾
Jason had been quite careful with me last night, hardly said a word and had only left to go take a shower and even then he was reluctant to leave my side. Alexander had cancelled all meetings for the day even though I insisted I could. Even though I really didn't want to any type of socializing.
"You want me to run you a bath maybe? Get you a nice bottle of tiger or something?" Jason stepped closer to the bed wrapping the black towel around his waist.
I shrugged.
"I'll take the bubble bath, not in the mood for a drink tonight"
He nodded and went back into the bathroom turning on the water. I got up pulling the covers down and made my way to the bathroom.
Jason was putting in a few drops of lavender bubbles in when I walked in pulling off his tshirt I was wearing tossing it into the hamper and grabbing myself two towels.
"Call me if you need anything?" he gave me a smile before kissing my forehead.
I stepped into the warm water breathing in the soothing warm smell of the lavender as I slid into the tub feeling the warmth of the water embrace me.
My brain was doing circles, part of me thought I should go over there and give him his key back, but I could always have someone else do it like Jarred. Should I just try to talk to him and ask him what happened? No, there wasn't a point he made it pretty clear it was cut and dry over. Then it hit me.
I love him.
Though I guess that would be in the past now. . .
Part of me had also wondered how things were going with Jarred and Rickey, if I had made it even more difficult for their situation. Which only made me feel worse, I was so stupid to think I could be with someone like that, then to drag someone else into the aftermath was whole other thing. I just felt guilty. Maybe I should have read the file, did Zadicus know? Did the press know?
I slipped myself underneath the water closing my eyes.
Fuck there was so much work to do, so many things to address. So much while I emotionally went through this rollercoaster.
I brought myself back up to the surface and squeezed the water out of my hair.
Rest time would have to wait.
I got up and stepped onto the towel and grabbed the other wrapping it around myself. I unplugged the drain and made my way back to the bedroom.
"Done already? Everything okay?" Jason was not in a pair of pajama pants laying in bed.
"Yeah, I think I'm going to talk to Alexander"
He opened his mouth to say something, but then closed it and simply nodded.
I went into the closet finding a pair of my silk pajama pants and a shirt and slipped it on.
It was about ten at night or so, so Alexander should still be in his office so I made my way downstairs.
He was wrapping up a phone call when I entered.
"Well hey there, did you need anything from me?"
I shook my head closing the door and sitting in the chair.
"Well, sort of. . . is there anything I need to know about. . . the recent events?"
He frowned.
"No. . . no ones picked up on it, do you want me to bring his stuff to him? Jarred? Wanna burn em'? I hear girls love doing that"
I let out a small laugh.
"No,no it's okay. . . thank you though"
"Don't worry, we'll take care of everything Luna. . ." he looked up at me.
I nodded.
"Do you uh, want to talk about it though?"
I shook my head.
Yes and no.
I thought to myself.
"Just came down to check in. . ."
☾☾☾
I had spent the past two days lounging around the house still. Jason went to the meetings for me and Zadicus even sent me a text saying he'd help him out with everything, but honestly I just lacked the motivation to care. I barely had any blood the past few days with everything with Zadicus and now Rickey. It just kept slipping my mind, I didn't need it anyway so I just didn't give a shit.
"Luna you wanna come out and watch a movie in my room or something?" Jarred knocked on the door.
"No I think I'm gonna stay in for the day"
"Only the fourth day in a row. . ." he grumbled.
"Alright well if you change your mind"
I shrunk back under my covers and scrolled through my phone.
A few hours had passed and I had decided to shuffle myself downstairs for a drink.
Jason and everyone else was still in their meeting about something over in the Europe section of things so it would probably be a while, but in the meantime it was nice and quiet. Once I got to the study I grabbed a bottle of lion's blood and whiskey and a glass and poured it setting it on the bar.
The door creaked open and my eyes quickly looked to the door. I was currently still in one of Jason's shirts and a pair of underwear so I wasn't exactly wanting company.
"Luna?" Rickey asked.
A voice I wasn't at all ready to hear I think because my heart sank.
He opened the door sighing.
"Who am I kidding I followed your scent in here. . ."
"I didn't think I'd see you here, least in here."
I started putting bottles away keeping my eyes from him.
I wasn't sure what they'd show, anger, hurt or what.
"I came to apologize. . ."
I grabbed my glass taking a sip trying to still avoid eye contact, but he moved closer.
"Luna please look at me"
I set my glass down looking at it. I was scared to I didn't know what my emotions would do.
"Why are you sorry. . ." I asked quietly.
"You know why"
I slowly looked up at him biting my lip afraid to ask him already knew the answer to.
"Did you sleep with her?"
He swallowed.
"After I said we were over, yes"
That stung. I was barely out the door and in reality did that mean he would have just cheated on me?
"Sex is just sex. . . you know that"
I mean yeah, what we did was. There was nothing loving about what we did. It was just raw, open, as dark and carnal as we wanted it to be. Though I let him control me in ways no one else did.
"Right, so why are you here?"
"Because I miss you, I fucked up and I'm sorry fuck I'm so sorry" he reached for my hands and I backed up a bit.
"Do you remember what you said to me? that you weren't playing the same game?"
He sighed.
"I do, I'm not- I mean I fucked up but I'm serious about loving you"
I finally looked up at him his eyes looked sad, but there was still some spark in there.
"I got so distracted, fuck I even almost let the vamp side show on a job I fucking thought of your smell - that one time in the shower and it all came flooding in and I fucking nearly lost it"
His hands were moving around as if he were panicked.
"I just saw a stupid similar shower curtain that's all it took"
I could understand somewhat. Jarred would come in and check on me and if they had been near each other just the scent of him made my heart ache about the thoughts of him.
"I'll admit since you probably still haven't looked into it. . . I'm a sex addict okay? So I do stupid shit, the thought of cheating on you made my stomach turn- honestly she was just walking around like that"
I let him continue and I finally allowed myself to come out from behind the bar.
He sucked in a sharp breath as he looked at me. Being just in a tshirt of Jason's that just perfectly was oversized enough with a black thong was probably not helping his brain at all.
"I appreciate your honesty. . ." I said quietly.
"But will you forgive me?. . ." he responded even softer.
I stepped closer to him.
Maybe it was because it was so soon that it was somewhat easier for me to forgive him, for me to just want to be near him again. He had been honest since day one about his feelings, but I had only just realized mine.
"It stings, I won't deny that- but I forgive you" I put my arms around his neck and moved my hands to play with his hair as he looked down at me putting his hands on my waist.
"I fucking missed you" he whispered putting my forehead to his looking into my eyes.
I smiled.
"Oh yeah? how much?" I gave him a small kiss on the neck.
Sometimes when I was with him I just had the strongest urge to do some spontaneous thing that I never quite understood. Sometimes that was just pushing my luck with his dominance and other times it was just a big game of cat and mouse. The small kiss on the neck was all he really needed as assurance to continue if he wanted to make any move.
"I don't know if I should show you that today. . . I think today should all be in favor of you, love"
He never really let me have my way with him- which was fine I loved the way it felt so natural to let him have all the control.
"You never let me do such a thing" I admitted.
He shrugged and I kissed my way down his neck and gave him a good nip on his throat.
"Mm, well take it before I change my mind, love"
He moved his hand up underneath the shirt to trace his hand up my back and I had started to give him another nip, but my teeth just completely sunk in by accident and I felt him groan against my mouth.
The sound vibrating my teeth as the coppery sweet liquid touch my tongue I moaned against him.
He swore under his breath.
I struggled to pull my mouth away from the bite and I think he could tell.
"If you're trying to stop I really don't mind this, feed as much as you need to"
He pulled my waist closer to him and I could feel how hard he was against me showing he wasn't lying and I sunk my teeth in deeper and I felt his twitch against me.
I was quickly moved and pulled against him as he sat on one of the small sitting tables.
I giggled as I lost my grip on his throat licking my lips and he grabbed my chin tilting it up so he could look at me.
"You're so gorgeous"
He leaned in and licked the small bit of blood that I felt dripping off my bottom lip before pulling me up onto the table by my thighs so I straddled him.
I looked down at him.
"So uhh, how sound proofed is this room?"
He bit his bottom lip looking at my chest as he ran his hand underneath my shirt again and cupping my breast.
"And no bra? you're full of surprises today"
I instinctively grinded against him biting my lip.
"Pretty sound proof" I managed to mutter.
Fuck he felt so good. Why did he always feel so good? The way his rough jeans gave me just enough friction against my bud through my panties only made me wetter and almost whimper. I slid both my hands underneath his black shirt feeling his abs underneath my palms as I slipped his shirt over his head. I leaned down licking against the bite mark that was still healing and he let out a soft moan against my mouth.
There was something extra sexy about feeling the rattle of his moan against my mouth it was like a jolt of electricity every time.
As I made my way down his hands slipped to around my hips and made me grind against him more. He was so hard and you could tell he was strained against his jeans as I moved my hands down between us to release him somewhat and pushed down his pants.
He leaned down so his mouth was next to my ear.
"I won't lie to you, seeing you in Jason's shirt like this does make me a tad jealous at this moment"
Before I could even respond he had switched places with me and I was leaning over the table and my now bare chest was laying against the cold table. With one quick move of my panties he was buried inside me and I had pushed myself back against him.
"Fuck I love how you're always ready like this for me" he whispered and I felt the blood rush to my cheeks as I laid my head down on the table closing my eyes feeling him grow even more inside me and just kept it still for the moment.
"Rickey. . ." I whimpered pushing my hip back again and for once in my lucky life he had let me.
As he took a long stroke out of me before quickly slamming right back in he had reached down pinning my two hands above my head.
Every inch of my body was pinned down against the table with his and I was loving it as I heard the slaps of his body joining with mine behind me. He had kept my panties on which in their o[position had just kept rubbing me with every rough thrust he put into me and that was nearly enough to pull me over the edge. Before he moved back up I felt his breath against my neck and I shivered.
"Go ahead, cum be as greedy as you want tonight"
And I did just that, I felt my body clench around him as I bit down on my lip trying to muffle my cry of pleasure but as he withdrew away from my his hands released me an he put his now free hand around my neck pulling me up.
"Except that, god I missed those sweet sounds don't hold those back. . ."
I let out another moan as my rhythm met his, he started to pull away which seemed reluctant and as I was about to ask why he had turned us back around so he was laying down on the table again and he only grinned.
"Of I did say it was all you tonight, so get up here"
I bit my lip and crawled up onto the table. This was one way to make it up for me.
☾☾☾
"I don't think I've ever seen you be so carnal. . . you've never seemed that close to biting my- let alone actually" Rickey chuckled pulling up his pants.
I watched his as he got dressed my eyes tracing up the black and grey ink that traced along parts of his body.
"Hmm? Oh yeah. . . how are you feeling?" I tried to shake off my dirty thoughts already seeping back.
"Fine, you look tons better, I mean I could see how hungry you were in your eyes- apparently not just for my dick either" he laughed again and I rolled my eyes.
I picked up Jason's shirt from the floor and slipped it on.
"You uh, still have a mark on your throat" I bit on my lip.
It was just really bruised, but none the less there.
He shrugged.
"You want to go upstairs and have a shower or?"
"What kind of shower" he grinned walking back to me putting his hands on my waist.
"Okay, okay I get what you were saying- love you all the same, but" I giggled.
Did I really just slip that in there?
"Does it bother you?. . ." he asked almost looking sad as his fingertips drew circles on my waist.
I shook my head.
"Wait, did you just say you loved me?" he gave me a big grin.
"It doesn't bother me, lets go get clean you dork"
I couldn't help but feel the smile tug at my lips as I opened the study door.
"So uhh, where's Jason?" Rickey asked as he followed behind me.
"Oh I'm here."
My eyes widened as my eyes landed on Jason who was sitting on the couch in the living room.
Rickey's arm snaked around me as he pulled me against him giving me a reassuring squeeze.
I couldn't get a read off of him but he was alone just shifting his phone around in his hand.
"You guys seemed to have made up" he finally commented.
"You could say that"
"Well I can see the bite mark on your throat"
"I uh, kind of lost my control for a moment. . . " I admitted.
"I kept my teeth away don't worry" Rickey grumbled.
"So uh- where's Alexander?" I shifted in my spot, I may have walked down here in this lack of clothing but considering I just had sex in them I wasn't exactly wanting to be around people.
"Everyone is in their rooms."
"Go ahead Jason, I know you probably want to yell at me or hit me or whatever. . ." Rickey let go of me and walked in front of me.
Jason took in a deep breath.
"Luna can you please go upstairs-"
"No, if it involves Rickey then I should be here too."
I straightened myself up walking over to him sitting on the other couch.
He pressed his lips together as if he were going to say something, but decided not too.
"Go on, let me have it- I don't think you or me want her downstairs like this half naked for anyone to walk in on"
Rickey said as he sat beside me.
"You dumped her pretty shitty, and in poor timing- you almost nearly fucked someone in front of her from what I heard"
Jason gritted his teeth his eyes were dark with barely any light in them.
"I did, I won't deny that I was an asshole."
"I'm not hearing a fucking apology in that" Jason spat.
"I apologized to her. . . and I am sorry Jason- to you too."
Rickey sighed.
"And hopefully since she said she loved me tonight. . . you can find a way to forgive me somewhat- I know you aren't just going to trust me overnight, but shit I'm trying"
"Are you going to do this every time you want to fuck something?"
I shifted in my spot and Rickey looked at me knowing that I was uncomfortable.
"I had a lapse in judgement Jason, I'm not fucking perfect asshole. . ." he gritted his teeth.
"Well, I'll admit I'm glad your back" Jason gave him a small smile he then looked at me.
"So you told him you loved him? That's news to me"
"I realized it the other night when I took my bath. . . felt there wasn't much need to talk about it since I doubted he'd come back" I frowned shrugging.
"You really thought I wouldn't come back for you doll?" Rickey asked quietly.
"You looked pretty happy being wrapped around her." I huffed.
"Sure, she was an alright fuck for a minute, but that's it"
"Jesus Rick. . ." Jason sighed.
"Stop fucking calling me that" he growled.
"Sorry, forgot you hated that" Jason chuckled.
Rickey only rolled his eyes.
"So are we done?" he asked.
"Yeah, but you better not make this shit a habit- lets get her upstairs" Jason sat up.
I got up heading for the stairs Rickey was slower getting up behind me and I heard Jason talk to him closely.
"For the record you might wanna be more discrete when there's a meeting in the house"
"She said it was sound proofed." Rickey simply responded.
"Ugh don't tell me Zadicus made some weird comment. . ." I groaned walking up the stairs.
"No, thankfully I don't think he could tell- I could hence why I sent everyone upstairs, for the record if anyone comes out I'll kick your ass!" Jason yelled as we reached the main bedroom floor.
"Go take a shower in your room, Love I'm sure Jason wants to talk alone with you"
Rickey had stopped at his door and I looked back and nodded and walked towards him and gave him a kiss on the cheek and he smiled.
"I love you too by the way"
I gave him a big smile before turning around.
"You can come hangout in our room after if you want" Jason offered.
"Is this your olive branch?" Rickey chuckled.
"Is it working?" Jason laughed.
"I'll take what I can get man" I walked to the end of the hall looking back at Jason and Rickey talking in front of his room before walking into our bedroom.
☾☾☾
"So are you really okay with this?. . ." I asked looking at Jason as I dried my hair with a towel.
"I mean, do I think you should have forgiven him so easily? maybe not, but I understand why you forgave him, I wish you would have told me about your feelings first though"
He was laying on down on the velvet loveseat scrolling through his phone.
"I know, I'm sorry for that- I just didn't know how to really go about it since we had broken up when I realized. . . he does really seem to feel bad though. . . he told me about his sex addiction though. . . so he was honest with me"
I tossed the towel in the hamper and walked towards him sitting on the edge of the loveseat and he put his phone down looking at me.
"And your fine for him using that as an excuse?" he raised an eyebrow at me.
I bit my lip. I didn't like the way he said it, even it might have been somewhat true. Still, I felt better that he left rather than cheating on me. Though I'm not sure how much better that felt- I didn't mind him sleeping with other people I just hated the chance of it happening without my knowledge.
I realized I still hadn't given him an answer.
"Somewhat. . . he was a player- I mean I guess in some way I didn't think it's be all magic and rainbows you know? Though the sex addict bit makes sense"
"You mean the fact that you guys have nearly got caught a lot of times in the house?" he snorted.
I rolled my eyes.
"What? I don't know, it's not exactly something I'd want someone to walk in on" he shrugged.
"I mean- I don't either, but you know I don't see why I have to be restricted to a bedroom either. . ." I grumbled.
He seemed to shift his position a bit, Jason was never one for much of sexual adventure, the most adventurous he got was the bathroom. Which was fine I guess.
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