“Rickey are you sure?” I blinked looking him in the eyes.
“Yes.”
"This isn't some simple thing you back out of. . ."
"I know, I'm done fucking around though. . . I don't know much what else to do, I mean I asked you to marry me already so. . ."
"Rickey you have to understand if you have any doubts. . ."
"Not a single one, I love you with everything- I know I haven't shown that in the best way but. . ."
"Let me make sure you understand. . . if you have any doubts, it'll back fire on you."
I made sure to keep eye contact with him to watch his eyes for any uncertainty.
"None of that matters because I trust you."
He said flatly.
"Okay. . ."
"Do you?"
I shook my head.
"No, I just didn't want you to jump into such a serious thing without fully understanding."
I got off the loveseat and grabbed a dug in the nightstand looking for a piece of chalk and grabbed the knife next to it and sat on the floor and looked at him.
“Sit.”
I motioned for him.
He did as I said and got up sitting across from me looking at me for instruction. It was odd having the tables turned, usually he told me what to do.
I drew a square with the corners aligned to the cardinal directions on the floor with the chalk. I then casted the circle inside the square. I picked up the knife and poked my left ring finger.
“Shit the glass- hold on.”
I got up and walked into the bathroom grabbing my glass from the sink and returned to the room and sat back down and dripped seven drops into the glass I relaxed myself causing myself to not heal for a moment. I nodded to Rickey and placed the glass down and gave him the knife. He did as I did and looked at me waiting for more instructions.
“You’ll mix it with your finger then I will with mine.”
He nodded and did as I said wincing in what looked like pain.
I took the glass from him and swirled my finger in the glass. I lifted my hand up and touched him on the third eye, then his heart and lastly his navel. I took in the smell of our blood and swallowed ignoring the watering of my mouth from the scent that filled my nostrils.
“Now, do the same to me.” I handed him the glass.
He took it and dipped his finger in and started.
“It burns. . ., but at the same time it tingles in the most soothing way. . .” he whispered softly.
It did, once he started putting the blood on me I felt it. He placed the glass down, but before he did I had stopped him and tilted it towards his mouth.
“Drink only half, then I will finish it.”
He put the glass to his lips and slowly drank his half and then looked at me as he handed me the glass with a dazed look in his eyes the red seeping through his blue orbs. I took the glass and let the familiar taste swarm into my mouth.
“Wow. . .”
“Feels like electricity doesn’t it? And like your heart, body, and soul is going to jump right out?” he spoke so softly I nodded.
“I feel like I’m on fire almost. . .”I spoke even softer.
My tongue felt tingly and then like it was holding warm liquid on my tongue and that feeling slowly dripped down into the pit of my stomach and chest causing me to shiver.
He pulled me to him quickly and bit into my neck claiming me. I moaned grabbing onto him as he fed and I pulled him closer as I bit into his returning the favor. He groaned biting into me deeper. I slowly fed tasting all of him, feeling all of him with each taste. I could feel all of his love, his passion, his happiness, his hate, and even rage. Everything, all that he was. He was mine. I was his. Mind, body, and now soul.
The liquid felt like liquid lava as it filled my mouth, it felt- tasted so different.
We stopped after a few minutes and we slowly separated and looked into each other’s eyes.
“I love you. . . so much. . .” he whispered rubbing my cheek.
I smiled leaning into his hand.
“I love you too.”
He pulled me into his arms and I laid against his chest closing my eyes.
“Luna.” Rickey sounded nervous. Why?
“Yes?”
“Why were so hesitant to do the bond with me?”
“I just wanted to make sure you understood what this truly meant.”
“Of course I know, that’s why I decided I wanted it.” He paused.
“Luna, I may not have as much as you. . . Hell I’m nowhere near your age even, but. . . feeling all that you are, being tied to you in this way if that’s what I can give you, then I want to.”
I smiled and pulled his face to mine kissing him deeply. I couldn't get enough of him today, these two months have been empty without him with us. He kissed me back, and then I felt it, I felt all of his feeling crash into me as he kissed me and I smiled into his lips and he pulled away giving me the biggest smile again.
“You’re amazing.”
"We should uh. . . get dressed and go to your room."
I swallowed.
He grazed his lips against my collar bone.
"Okay, but they'll probably end up right back on the floor."
He laughed.
I shook my head laughing and got up grabbing my clothes and putting them on.
"God, everything you do. . ." Rickey muttered behind me and I looked at him and he was just leaning back on his elbows biting his lip and I looked down and I started seeing his member twitch to life again and I covered my mouth giggling.
"So I see, come on"
I tossed his clothes to him and he smiled and started getting dressed.
"How'd you know about Jason coming back by the way?"
I asked once we got to his room.
"Jarred mentioned it."
He shrugged jumping onto the bed.
"Now come get over here" he opened his arms.
My heart fluttered and I smiled jumping onto the bed landing beside him and curled up against him.
"I missed you so much. . . you have no idea. . ." he whispered into my hair.
"I missed you too."
I closed his eyes as I listened to his breathing in the silence for a moment.
"Earlier. . . when I snapped at you- I was out of line, I just. . . believe it or not I don't think in that moment I was ready to have sex either."
He laughed.
"As crazy as that sounds"
I looked at him confused.
"I was nervous about what might happen. . . I was afraid you might leave."
My eyes widened, but he opened his mouth to speak again.
"So when you didn't answer my question- which I now realize was probably because you were focused on trying to do what you do best. . . I panicked, like an idiot and that panicked turned into me being a douchebag."
I took his face in my hands and rubbed his cheeks softly looking into my favorite pair of blue eyes.
"I wouldn't ever run away from you, I know I pushed some boundaries before we split up. . . and you're right, I just wanted to do what I knew how you liked to deal with things."
"I would never for-"
I put my finger to his lips.
"Don't even, I know you wouldn't- I wanted it believe me, you turn me into a fucking animal I was trying to find a way to help without prying into your every thought"
"You lied earlier."
He smiled.
"What did I lie about?"
"That you weren't perfect."
I was going to ask him to explain but then it hit me. I wasn't wrong, I did do right by what I did. He just wasn't ready. He wasn't mad at me, he was still battling his own demons and I was just unfortunately confusing things more.
"How upset is he?. . ." Rickey snapped me out of my thoughts.
"He. . . he's torn, it's not for me to fully say"
"Also, no you were never wrong baby. What you just thought was absolutely right."
I blinked forgetting completely for a moment that he could now hear them probably without him barely thinking about it the bond being so fresh.
He smiled and I laughed a little.
"I forgot you could hear that now. . ." I admitted.
"How about you?. . ." his face turned a bit more serious now.
"If I were to be honest. . . I cried a lot at first, I was a mess- partly my own demons too, but then one night Jarred talked to me he tried to make me understand."
He winced. I looked at him concerned by his sudden discomfort.
"I'm fine I just- I feel it right now that's all believe me I deserve every ounce of this punishment. . . keep telling me."
"You and I felt bad for similar reasons. . . I felt horrible because once again Jarred lost someone close to him because of me, then there was the fact that she was so young and innocent, there was you, God there was you and it all bundled into one and I didn't know who I should feel more sorry for."
"Then there was worry of security issue of what could she have said. . . which was a whole other mess, but I knew she wouldn't hurt the three of us so honestly I didn't care enough. I know that's wrong of me I'm supposed to think of the throne first, but I cared about the three of us. . ."
I continued.
He took my right hand and traced the ring on my finger.
"Can you help me with one thing?. . ."
I nodded.
"Would it be better for you and I to talk to Jason together or do you think just me? I've been rolling that thought around my head all day. . ."
He scratched the back of his head giving a sheepish smile.
A knock on the door made us both look at the door.
"Yeah uh, not to eavesdrop but he's home. . ." Alexander said behind the door.
Fuck.
I heard Rickey's thought and giggled. He smiled at me and poked my nose.
"Shh, so what do you think, Love?"
"Together to start. . . if you two wish to talk alone after that I can leave."
I got out of bed quickly and looked back at Rickey who was quick to follow and I suddenly felt a wave of nervousness that made me stop in my tracks.
"Relax, focus on you not me right now baby. . ." Rickey grabbed my hand and I shook my head feeling the nervousness almost feel like a wave pulling back.
"Block me out if you have to for a bit."
He opened the door and Alexander was leaning on the wall across the hall.
"Welcome back."
Alexander looked behind me.
"Don't say that yet. . . you and I both know it's not just her forgiveness I need. . ." Rickey sighed.
"Then lead you to his lair I shall for your interrogation" Alexander chuckled.
"Maybe you should just kill me, at least I'd get to see your gorgeous face as the last thing" Rickey bent down whispering in my ear as we followed Alexander downstairs.
I slapped his arm squeezing his hand.
"He's kidding, you'll be alright. . ."
Alexander knocked on the office door before opening it.
I walked in first looking at Joshua and Jason and smiled.
"Welcome home"
"Hey buddy! Good to see you're not lurking about anymore" Joshua started walking towards Rickey.
"Joshua not now. . . we'll talk later everyone else but these two get out- that means you too Alexander"
Jason's voice was firm I met his eyes and they were somewhat darkened. I tried to search for something in his head but he had blocked me out for the time being.
Alexander and Joshua didn't say another word and quickly let themselves out shutting the door behind themselves.
"So how was your business trip?" Rickey broke the silence and stepped further into the room.
"Lets cut the small talk."
I swallowed trying to remember what Rickey had said to me I kept my eyes focused on Jason.
"You have every right to be mad at me. I won't deny that" Rickey spoke calmly as he sat down in the chair in front of the desk.
"So what do you have to ask. . . or who do you want to hear from first. . ." he sighed.
I could tell Jason was tense and I could have sworn I saw his eye twitch. . . I could smell the mixed tension in the room. It was disorienting with the mixture from everyone. I quickly moved to the seat beside Rickey.
"Honestly? I don't even know where to begin. . . Alexander told me you two were upstairs. . ." Jason trailed off and he looked us up and down.
"Seems like you two made up so I guess I don't have to ask that part. . . or was this more of a pleasure visit?"
I felt a slight prick beneath my fingers and I looked down noticing I was digging my nails to deep into the wood it was splintering pushing into my finger tips.
"She's forgiven me. . . or she says she has at least, but I know I need your forgiveness too."
"This is the longest you've left." Jason commented as he fidgeted with a pen not breaking his cold stare at Rickey.
"It was, I know you know I had personal matters to deal with. . ." I could tell Rickey was starting to grind his teeth as his words came out.
"You know we could have been there for you- or she could have at least. . . she wanted to-"
"Oh really you could have helped now?" Rickey's voice suddenly snapped.
I looked at him somewhat in shock.
What the fuck is he doing?
I thought to myself.
"Rickey you know that was. . . different."
I watched them both as they held their tongues.
But you could see the fire in their eyes towards each other and I knew very well what they were talking about now. The thing that started it all.
"I still want to be with her Jason, marry her if I'm lucky enough- in whatever way I guess since you two are well, you know"
"The throne comes first. . . do you remember us explaining that?" Jason redirected the conversation and Rickey nodded.
"These. . . breaks, whatever we call them- they cause conflict within our business of such relations."
Jason crossed his arms leaning back into the chair.
I kept watching and listening silently. I knew they were heated enough I didn't need- or want to tilt that scale.
"If I have to make a statement I'll do it- whatever it takes- if I have to talk to that asshole I'll do it, just tell me Jason"
Rickey was pleading now, but both their eyes were still a dark haze.
"So how many girls this time?"
Rickey's mouth twitched and I noticed his jaw clenched.
"I haven't slept with anyone else. . . so I haven't- I didn't have sex until tonight."
"I thought we agreed that we weren't going to talk about that Jason. . ." I said quietly.
"You're right, normally I don't want to know about your sex lives, but I didn't ask for yours I asked what he's been doing."
"Even if I did I was single if you recall. . . you can't punish me for that, that'd be like me punishing her for sleeping with you idiot" Rickey grumbled.
A sudden dark growl filled my ears and I knew it as the only one able to come from Jason's mouth and I turned my gaze to look at him.
"Jason. . ." I called to him trying to snap him out of it.
He let out a shaky sighed and closed his eyes for a moment.
"Fine. . . tell me what happened while I was gone"
He said after he opened his eyes revealing he had finally calmed back down.
"He came in during a meeting, I told him he had to wait- I wasn't sure if he would if I were to be honest. He did though, and he apologized."
I paused for a moment looking at Rickey.
God I wish I could read either of them right now.
"I know we're all dealing with our problems with this situation trust wise, feelings wise he does mean it though."
"Jason I know I'm running slim on my options to prove it to you. . . I asked for your blessing and I was beyond lucky enough to be given it and I messed that up- threw it out the window for a while whatever you want to call it" Rickey cut in.
Jason stared down at the desk for a moment.
"Luna does he still make you happy?" he said with a sigh.
"I know it's hard to explain but yes. . ." I admitted.
I sounded probably a little crazy and dumb really. To have someone so loyal and loving then to have some be almost the complete opposite was crazy.
"I'd ask him again but his thoughts are screaming about it already. . ."
Fuck. . .
I thought to myself.
I swallowed as I let down my block on Rickey and felt a weight lift off my shoulders. Holding off two different people was a lot more difficult than one. Zadicus was pure instinct- was natural at this point, but adding another layer was not so easy. . .
"I uh, didn't realize you could hear all that. . ." Rickey confessed.
"Oh I hear every damn word, so I know what you two have done"
"Shit. . ." Rickey mumbled.
"Jason I-"
"I know, it's your soul-being whatever I just want to know who's idea it was."
I looked back into his eyes and they were still surprisingly calm seeming.
"I told her I wanted to do it, she didn't jump at the opportunity, she reminded me and made it very clear of everything. . . almost like she was worried to be honest"
Jason eyes widened as they grew concerned as he looked at me again.
"Did you have doubt when you did this?"
I shook my head.
"No, I just knew he just found out about them and I wanted him to make sure he didn't have any questions kind of thing. . . I feel alright"
I did. I didn't feel weighed. Or any different at all really, when Rickey touched me it was way different of course, but mentally I seemed to be fairing pretty well.
"I'll talk to you one on one if that helps my case any."
Rickey offered.
"No. . . I think I've got what I wanted. . ." Jason sighed taking out his phone and started tapping at the screen.
"How'd the trip go?" I asked.
"It was fine. . .was a little loud in the room, hotel rather but it was okay- I put our donation in for the charity while I was down there too"
He put down his phone and Joshua quickly came through the door.
"Huh, I was expecting one of you to throw a punch" Joshua admitted.
"I've had a long day Joshua, don't tempt that punch at you."
Jason glared.
Joshua's smile soon faded.
"No thank you, I've sparred enough with you to know I don't want any of that" he put his hands up.
"Good, because I called you in to tell you that you have permission to settle in for night."
Joshua looked at Rickey.
"You staying the night then?"
Rickey nodded.
Joshua shrugged.
"Alrighty then, I'll see you three in the morning!"
And with that he had flashed out of the room.
Jason started to get up he grabbed some papers off his desk tossing them into a drawer locking it and headed for the door.
"Where you going?" I asked starting to get up and Rickey did the same following my lead.
"Upstairs. . . you guys coming?" he raised an eyebrow back at us.
I nodded- I think we both just nodded. As we followed Jason upstairs like two lost puppy dogs.
He stopped at Rickey's door and opened it.
"Well goodnight Rickey. . ." Jason said as he started to walk towards our room.
"Actually. . ." I spoke up.
"I don't want to be without either of you two tonight, so can the three of us just sleep together? Please."
Both their eyes grew.
Fuck if this is what I get for leaving for a bit. . .
I shook my head at Rickey's thoughts.
"I don't mean sexually come on now, you both know better- at least one of you should"
I huffed.
Rickey gave an embarrassed smile.
"You hearing my thoughts is going to be an adjustment"
"Nah, you can block her out from pieces and what not after a day or so"
Jason chuckled.
"Thank god, I wouldn't know how to surprise her if she was living up in my head like that"
Rickey laughed with him.
"Sooo . . . is that a yes?" I looked at them hopefully and with the good ol' puppy dog eyes.
"I think I can manage that. . ." Jason said with a small smile.
"Whatever you want Doll."
Rickey smiled.
I smiled back at them before turning around opening the door and walked in and started to get undressed and into some pajamas.
"Christ, babe. . ." Rickey whined shutting the door.
"What? You both have seen me naked, I'm sorry but it's a little weird for me to go change in the bathroom"
"I think he just doesn't want me to hear his thoughts- honestly I can't say I want to" Jason snorted.
"What side of the bed do you take?" Jason looked at Rickey as he walked over to the bed.
"Least he gets it, right side usually, but I can do either"
Rickey moved around me and grabbed a change of clothes from the dresser.
"I'm going to go change in the bathroom" Rickey laughed to himself.
I walked over to the bed and crawled in as I looked at Jason unbuttoning his top and undoing his belt.
"You planning on sleeping in your underwear?" I raised my brow a him.
I wasn't against the idea. . . but it would be a little odd.
"No, no I just don't want it to stab myself or you in our sleep- god your right that does sound weird still"
He chuckled.
"What are you two giggling about?"
Rickey asked tossing his clothes in the hamper.
He was now shirtless with a pair of low hanging pair of pajama pants. I stared at his muscles for a moment as my eye trailed up and down his sculpted body.
"Hey, hey I don't have control of everything yet- please go easy on me Love"
He bit his lip and I felt a familiar tingle in my core and my cheeks flush.
"Just get in bed you slow pokes" I groaned shifting impatiently in the bed waiting to be sandwiched between my men.
"It really is the small things with you huh?" Rickey chuckled getting into the bed.
"I used to try to plan these big trips for us for anniversaries, you know what her favorite part seemed to be? The plane ride there"
Jason chuckled getting into bed.
I frowned.
"Hey there's a good chunk of time where our phones don't work so we were completely isolated can you blame me?"
Jason shook his head smiling.
"So what am I gonna do while you guys get the luxury of sleeping hmm?" Rickey asked slipping into bed behind me and wrapped his arms around my torso cuddling up behind me.
The sheer contact of his body was making me shiver again.
"Shh. . ." Rickey whispered in my ear as he slip a hand into mine intertwining our fingers.
"Uh, honestly- didn't think about that I can stay up with you for a bit though if you want" Jason offered.
Jason put an arm over me almost at my shoulders and closed the space between us and he looked down at me.
"You okay?"
I nodded putting my face against his chest breathing in his cologne. Feeling a wave of calmness was over me.
"I think it's just my fault. . . everything still feels different."
Rickey was putting that lightly.
Don't think about it, don't think about it, don't think about it.
I repeated in my head trying to distract myself and push him to the side in my head.
I felt his breath on his favorite part of my neck and he brushed his nose against it.
"Night, Love"
"Night, night Jason" I placed a quick kiss on Jason's bare chest before closing my eyes.
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Dreaming had been so different since when I started back in Italy. I could pull so many past memories and combine them, I could rearrange some bits to make them even better. Maybe this is what dreaming was like for humans. I couldn't honestly remember. . . I didn't care if it was a human thing or a vampire thing I just loved it. Everything I smelled, touched or saw felt so real some nights. The breeze that blew through my hair, the smell of autumn or delicious treats I once was able to eat. Though I couldn't remember any of their flavors but the people around me in the dreams eating them looked so happy they must have been.
I felt a small tug of my mind and a sensation on my lips as I woke up.
"Muttina." Jason whispered brushing his lips against mine before kissing my nose.
I smiled pecking his soft lips.
"Muttina"
I stretched out yawning and I felt something stiff suddenly poking my lower back and I felt my cheeks heat up as Rickey tugged at my waist.
"Where's my morning kiss hmm?"
I rolled my eyes turning around and pecked his lips.
"Alright, up we go; we have to deal with a lot today"
Jason said as he started to get out of bed.
"That was a tight fit last night."
"Well it's smaller than your big ass bed. . ." Rickey mumbled and I started to get out of bed.
"Guess you're right- come on you too"
Jason ushered Rickey as he grabbed the shirt he took off last night and started putting it on before looking at Rickey.
Rickey shifted underneath the covers.
"Uh I think I'll be a bit behind you guys- you can do your morning schedule thing or whatever. . . if that's cool"
"Do you have a boner right now?" Jason glared at him noticing Rickey's sudden weird shift of position.
"Come on, cut me some slack I went without sex for forever with me. . ." Rickey grumbled.
Jason laughed.
"God you really are an addict huh?"
"You have your dick against her ass all night and anytime she shifted she grinded against it and tell me you won't wake up with a massive hard on-"
"OKAY- enough about that lets go downstairs and leave Rickey to. . . whatever" I pushed Jason out the door.
"I thought it was funny" Jason chuckled.
"Inconvenient maybe, but kind of funny"
I shook my head as I walked down the hall with Jason.
"You two seemed to have. . . somewhat smoothed things over?" I asked starting to walk down the stairs.
I felt the hair on the back of my neck stand up for what felt like the hundredth time the past twelve hours and I knew Rickey was quickly coming up behind us.
"We stayed up and talked for a while, thankfully I think we're past the he wants to punch me in the face phase"
Rickey chuckled.
"That was quick" I commented as I reached the second floor.
"Same clothes from the night before. . . good mood. . . did the three of you fuck last night?" Jarred sudden voice startled me and my eyes widened as he was leaning against his doorway as we started to head down to the first floor.
"Sorry, I forgot you don't fuck you make love or whatever" Jarred laughed a little looking at his brother.
"Nope, slept in the same bed together, but dicks were away you nosy asshole" Rickey hugged.
"I hate all three of you" I groaned and went back to walking back down to the first floor.
"Why do I have a feeling you knew he was coming last night and didn't tell me" I heard Jason question his brother as I waited at the bottom of the stairs.
"Listen. . . we can point fingers, we can be mad that I did or didn't tell things, for maybe a multitude of reasons or we can appreciate what has happened"
I watched as Jarred pushed them aside and walked down the steps giving me a small smile.
"Unfortunately for the three of you, I have business to tend to sooo" within a blink of an eye he was gone as he slipped out the door.
I laughed to myself.
Sneaky Jarred.
"You guys couldn't even get dressed this morning?" Alexander chuckled.
Jason shrugged looping an arm around my waist.
"I figured her and I could start of with a morning work out or sparing session and the clothes are in the gym for that soooo"
"So we're going to ignore the elephant in the room?" Alexander let out another chuckle.
"Least for another hour till Zadicus gets here" Jason shrugged.
"Alright, gym it is then" Alexander turned around and started his way.
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