***Taylor's POV***
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My anger for Tom was completely unavoidable, I'm quite shocked that I was unable to rein it in at all. His stupid face, pulling that expression of disbelief at me dismissing him plays in my head. Like I was the one in the wrong. I quickly check what he said in the message he just sent me whilst waiting for Matty.
Some rubbish about not believing how quickly I've clearly moved on and how that's not like me.
I delete the message and consider blocking him. I'll decide later.
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Matty comes through the door. It is absurd to me how this guy wants to to stick around right now after witnessing that slanging match.
He closes the door behind him, I take off his leather jacket which I’m wearing and hang it up for him for when he leaves. I almost forget that he has been wearing only a T-shirt, doesn't he get cold?
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I decide it's safest to invite him into the kitchen, not the bedroom. Laughing to myself at how many times we’ve made out in his kitchen already. I mentally go through where the pictures of Tom are in my bedroom, I know there are some group snaps of me and Rhea and he is in them. Instead of one tree hill binges I’m sure that’s the next thing on my to do list, continue operation exorcism of Tom. From my entire life and room.
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I offer Matty, who is casually sitting at my dining room table looking like heaven, a drink. I don't even know what he likes.
I give him a coffee upon his request. He's watching me, I can feel his eyes as I move around my kitchen. I glance over at him and smile, he is perfection and I feel like crap right now.
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Our kitchen is modern, yet homely, white marble worktops and a gas stove. Pictures all over the fridge which I cringe at even just the idea of him seeing, dance shows and competitions that I’ve attended. I tie my hair up in a high ponytail, turning back to him, approaching him with a coffee and a smile.
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I sit down with him at the table waiting for his inevitable questions about what just happened.
"That is just what I needed" he says sipping his coffee. He seems relaxed sitting there as if he is completely used to being in my house.
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I think he's waiting for me to bring it up.
"That was my ugh ex" I say addressing the elephant in the room. I decide it's best to be fully truthful about the whole thing. He just smiles at me and waits for me to continue sharing.
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"We have been distancing ourselves from each other for a couple weeks, or so. We're not right for each other as you can see" I say and leave it at that for now. Not sure if he wants to know more. I drink my water. And wait for him to say anything back.
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There's an ashtray on my dining room table, my dad used to smoke when he lived here. Not a can of worms I wish to open up right now. Matty indicates to it and asks if it's okay to light up. I nod.
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"You want one too" he says softly sensing my stress.
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"Please" I say looking up from the cream oak dining table I’ve sat at all my life to eat.
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He rolls up two and I just watch him. His fingers moving. He hands me mine and lights me up. Second time around I'm much better at this. I've got the hang of it. I stand and open the windows, my mum will ask me who has been around if I don’t.
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"I can see why he wants you back" he finally says, and I look at him shocked. Of all the things he could have said that isn’t what I expected.
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"What do you mean?" I say curiously as I drink some more water. I open up the biscuits and hand him some cookies, it’s juvenile but he smiles.
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"Are you kidding me, that guy was out there for how long? For all you know babe he could have been there all night" he jokes teasingly taking a cookie.
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"And yet you still cannot or refuse to see how beautiful you are" he says biting into his cookie as he lets his comment sink in.
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My tummy flips. I can't believe that Matty with his dark green eyes, perfect skin and dark hair called me beautiful. He is the epitome of beauty to me. I don't think I need to tell him that he knows the effect he has on me surely. I feel so average next to him.
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I finally look up at him, I can feel the heat on my cheeks and I'm sure I've turned red. I take a cookie and consider before I speak.
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"Im not and that's beside the point, he's an idiot" I say instantly regretting it.
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"Oh now we're getting to it" he teases me chuckling.
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"So what did he do?" He asks humour shining behind his eyes.
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"Doesn't matter, he's an idiot." I say candidly.
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"Now I'm interested, how could any guy in his right mind do anything to lose somebody like you" he says softly leaning in to me.
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"If you keep talking to me like that I'm going to have to come over and sit in your lap" I tease him.
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"Point taken, I will not stop." He challenges me
We laugh together for a second. The atmosphere changes in the room and suddenly I am keenly aware of him. His eyes watching me, the way he pulls his hair out of his way. His tanned arms that I want around me holding me.
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I decide I want Matty to know about everything, I feel like I can trust him and I hope I'm not mistaken.
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"I wasn't anything to him, he continually lied about stuff thinking I wouldn't find out the truth. He saw another girl whilst using me, I felt like nothing" I finish and then my head tells me to shut the hell up before I start crying in front of him. You look ugly when you cry I remind myself.
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I look up at him, and I can see in his eyes he is really registering what I just said and that I am not mistaken in confiding in him.
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"Come here" he whispers to me softly. I walk to him and straddle him on the dining room chair. He holds me.
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"You are worth more than that, more than me even. Don't ever think you are nothing. Because you are somebody special to me" he says softly.
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And before I can protest he kisses me. A kiss that has all of the passion of before but is not merely lustful. There is something more urgent in the way he kisses me, it is deeper. I briefly wonder how I can feel so attached to somebody I don't yet even know.
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I push his brunette hair back as he smiles up at me. The familiar scent of him, the way his hair falls in curls. I’m falling hard, I realise.
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“By the way I would totally watch one tree hill re-runs with you” he smiles and I laugh out loud. Slowly kissing him again never wanting him to leave my house.
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“That’s totally something I’m going to hold you too” I joke and he laughs tickling me.
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“We could watch it all night long if you like” he smiles. I want him to myself.
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“We could watch it and you could just sleep whilst I stroke your hair back” he says pushing his fingers through my hair. Eyes watching my own.
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“I can’t stop kissing you” he smiles his lips pressing against mine again just one more time.
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“Then don’t” I smile and he holds onto me in my little kitchen. The sun streaming through the windows and the birds chirping outside.
