Matty's POV
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This has been a whirlwind. But I will not say anything to make this about me. It isn't about me, she is the one that has had to go through it. I just only hope I have been there enough to make her not want to leave me. The worry I feel swirling in my stomach as I drive her through downtown LA is irrepressible, I do not want her to leave me. Above all costs, I must keep her.
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Had we of not gone through with the emergency contraceptive. Had we of, by some kind of miracle conceived a baby, I would most definitely have done everything in my power to be a dad. I would have proposed to her, made her mine for the rest of our lives.
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I can't help but think in my head what we might be doing if we hadn't gone to the clinic. I support her decision and I would not say otherwise but, if we hadn't of gone would she be carrying my child? It's a heady thought.
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We head into the store car park and she smiles at me for the first time since the clinic. I've missed her smile. I reverse park noticing all of the other members of the public busy getting on with their day; and then there is us. Madly in love, gazing at each other as if nobody else exists in our little bubble.
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"What we buying Matthew?" She's asks me curious as I open up her door.
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"Food of course. I am buying you food and I am cooking it” I smile down at her.
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“You are going to be relaxing all evening. I will be doing it all, babe” I wink at her and she smiles following me into the store.
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I grab a small trolley and push it around and she smirks at me.
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“Something funny Taylor” I laugh and she fully giggles.
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“Matthew you look great pushing trollies” she laughs.
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“I see you think I should be a checkout boy” I laugh and she smiles hugging my waist.
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“Thank you for being there and for making me laugh” she says and I kiss her forehead.
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I quiz her on her favourite food and she tells me that she wants Mexican. I laugh telling her that I’m glad she didn’t ask for Chinese and how I would struggle making anything remotely edible if she did. She tells me she will cook me some Chinese as soon as I let her. Eventually we decide on enchiladas and rice.
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I sneak some chocolate ice cream into the basket for her too. She spy’s it and smiles warmly at me as we head to the checkout joined at the hip.
Usually I would be heading to one of the guys houses for an all nighter I think idly looking at the bottles of brandy and thinking briefly about Jay. Instead I'm food shopping with my girl. I rationalise in my head that I will check my messages later for him and his continuous problems that he causes. Pushing him firmly to the back of my mind I bag up the food imagining her face when I cook her a nice meal after a stressful day instead. She deserves my full attention.
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“Favourite show” I ask her settling down on my sofa by the fire once we’re home. Our home. I’ve played it all out in my head: taking her to university everyday. Graduating together; upscaling this place for a family home. White picket fence, porch and all. And then babies.
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“One tree hill isn’t it” I smirk and she fully laughs pulling me on to the sofa next to her.
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“Matthew” she smiles looking into my eyes, her hands either side of my face.
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“Mmm” I say and she smirks kissing me. Her hands going through my hair.
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“I have to cook for you” I whisper and she giggles rubbing my jeans with her hands and pulling at my belt.
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“Taylor” I say smiling and she laughs.
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“You will starve if you don’t eat and I can’t have that” I joke and she kisses me. Settling for a few more kisses before she releases me to cook.
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“I love you, just so you know. I think you’re the bravest smartest woman I’ve ever met. And I love you for that” I smile down at her before I leave.
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Taylor's POV
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Strange how this place already feels like home to me. I can't imagine going and spending a night alone in my bed without him especially after the day we've had.
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There are positives though, we have told each other how we feel about each other and I feel like we are connected on a deeper more meaningful level now.
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As he settles into cooking, music on in the kitchen I pause one tree hill. Call over my shower that I’m taking a quick shower. He smiles through the hall, his shirt off as he’s frying up chicken.
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Each step I take upstairs feels like a mission in my tired state. Eventually though I make it into the shower. Standing under the warm water, I think about the whole thing. The clinic, the potential life I just discarded. I cry solidly for ten minutes or so. Images of babies in my head, of Matthew laughing with a little boy or girl.
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Wiping my eyes, and fervently telling myself that it’s done now. Over, no more tears. I leave the shower behind me and pace back to the bedroom retrieving a shirt of his I put it on and smile.
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Clean and makeup free I head down to Matthew. Spying him in the kitchen on the phone talking to the same guy he shared a phone call with the other day. Mystery southern guy.
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“But what is it then, you’re not out anymore” I hear the commanding voice utter.
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“Yeah man” Matthew replies looking up at me as I walk into the kitchen and hug him from behind.
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“Well Matthew I’ll just make my assumptions if you won’t tell me” the voice says and I can’t help but chuckle looking at Matthew’s utter aggravation. I put it down to a friend that misses him, because I’m taking up all of his time.
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“Later Jay” he says and hangs up. So southern guy is called Jay I think idly.
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"Look I know you've worn my clothes before, but you look so damn sexy. It's literally like so distracting" he laughs ignoring bringing up the phone conversation and turning to face me in his shirt.
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“Who is Jay and why does he keep calling you” I smirk and he pushes his hair back.
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“He’s my friend. He’s just back from Dubai and he’s just I don’t know interested as to why I haven’t been out” he smiles.
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“And we both know why that is” he smiles down at me. He pulls me in for a kiss and I smile up at him.
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“I’d rather be with you here” he whispers and I chuckle.
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"The food smells perfect" I say to him hugging him from behind.
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"What do you want me to do to help?" I ask softly and she smiles. He flicks his eye up to the large round table, that we’ve made out on serval times.
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"I would like you to sit down and relax. Wine or juice ?" He asks.
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"Am I supposed to drink ? Let me check" I say grabbing the pamphlet about emergency contraception from my bag on the side.
"That's a yes to the wine. Do you a want a glass or something stronger" I ask him shooting him a smile.
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"Ohh I'll have a brandy and coke, if you're asking" he says softly.
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"Make it a small shot" he laughs.
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“Are you trying to get me drunk Taylor” he asks when he tastes my rather generous brandy and coke.
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“I’ve never poured shots” I laugh and he smiles down at me.
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Sitting at his dining table I sip my wine and watch Matty cook. He's taken his top off and as I begin to wonder how practical that is I briefly think about his mystery best friend and whether he’s told him about me. Worries aside I decide to enjoy watching him cook half naked.
