***Matty's POV***
Taylor. The girl who waltzed in and changed my entire life. The one that whenever I start to draw something no matter how it starts off, no matter my intentions, I always end up sketching her.
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She glances up at me with her pretty eyes.
"I remember this moment" she says and my breath hitches. She moves away from Ross, who by the way is really trying it on with her. Touching her and holding her all the time.
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I'm treading carefully here, she knows how I feel I don't need to keep saying it. She pulls her blue dress down over her thighs and I'm dying to touch her. She tucks her legs over the other side, leaning towards me and I start to wonder if she will lean on my shoulder.
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She goes to my camera roll and I let her because I only have pictures of us. She has her glass of wine in one hand and my phone in her other. I move my arm around her shoulders just allowing her closer to me. Rach shoots me a warning glare and I roll my eyes at her. Since when is she bothered by Jay and his feelings. Taylor belongs with me, not him.
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She scrolls to the beginning of the roll and opens up the first image. It's her. Just her, I took that picture at the restaurant I took her too. With the rose garden. She relaxes next to me her head resting on my chest. She scrolls through our entire relationship, I have all of our important moments on there. We have so many pictures of us just being silly laying in bed together and she laughs. I rest my arm over the side of her waist and my hand on her hip. Rach glares at me and I sigh lifting my hand away again. Settling on her waist.
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Taylor is settled on me looking at our pictures. She scrolls to the one I took of her with my mum and she looks up at me.
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"I was you know here" she says. She means carrying our child.
"Yeah you were" I say looking at the picture pushing my hair back.
I'm intoxicated by her scent, the closeness of her. I need her. I stroke her.
She keeps scrolling. I know Jay will be here soon but I don't care, he stole her from me first. Not the other way around.
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I thank my lucky stars when Rach gets distracted by Nate and they go off to his room. Most likely to have sex with each other. Lord knows why, Rach is boring and ordinary. Not like Taylor. I hug her into me.
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She sticks on one picture. Refusing to move on from it. I know why instantly. It's a picture I took. When we had been pregnant for a while, she was laying next to me my arms over her tummy. She's just wearing her bra and the bed covers are draped around her. From this angle you can see the slight curve on her tummy. I had to take it at the time because she was, is, the epitome of my everything.
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She glances up at me. Her eyes tell me so much, she isn't completely over me, over us. She looks at me like she used too, when I was the soon to be father of her children. Her other half; her everything. How I've longed for her to look at me like that again.
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I'm caught entirely in the moment and I stroke her hair back off of her face. She turns away settling back onto my chest. She continues scrolling and I watch her go through our memories. I mentally take note of the ones that she stops on. One where I'm kissing her, one at the dinner when mum got engaged to Steve, and another where we are in bed together me holding onto her tummy again. And interestingly one after the miscarriage.
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She holds onto my phone and relaxes hugging into me. I glance at Ross who is busy debating about some irrelevant stuff. His problem is that he always gets distracted. He does not capitalise on moments. Like I am right now. He could have been with her so many times had he of just not let me swoop in, or Jay for that matter.
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Justin however is watching my interactions with her closely. Perhaps he doesn't realise that we used to be together. He looks worried like he wants to warn her away from me. That won't be happening. She's leaning into me, I can feel her soft breathing.
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"I'm so tired" she sighs looking up at me.
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"Sleep then" I say warmly.
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I hug my arm around her and Justin stiffens. I eye him. What's his problem? Does he like her or is he just odd? She rests her head down onto my chest and I stroke her long hair away from her face. And just like that in this moment we are together again. Her laying with me, Ross always on the side. I never could get rid of him completely. I smile for the first time in what feels like months.
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I realise she's asleep and I lounge back. Ross glances my way his deck on his lap rolling up a spliff.
"You're so fucking dead man when Jay arrives, and he will" Ross says laughing.
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"Not even I would do that with him in the picture" he chuckles rolling it and lighting it up.
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I sigh looking down at her sleeping on me. Her hand coming up to my chest. Of course Ross is right. Jay is wild. And he's going to punch me. But I'm going to punch him back, and this moment is totally and one hundred percent worth it.
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"Yeah what's the deal with them?" Justin asks watching Taylor sleep. Again, this guy likes you too Taylor.
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"They are together, have been for a while after ugh" Ross begins glancing at her.
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"She stayed with me and before that those two were together for a long time" Ross says looking at me.
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"Oh right got it" Justin says smiling.
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We smoke together and Taylor remains asleep on me curling her legs up. I stroke her arm over and over again. My fingertips touching her, she's breathing lightly and I pull her in continually.
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"And anyways you stole her from me" Ross laughs
"Now you know how it feels" he says.
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Taylor puts her arms securely around me. Holding onto me.
"Yeah I know man" I say watching her.
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"What do you mean" Justin asks.
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"We met Tay together, I made a move on her first. Tay and I weren't anything serious, I wanted it to be but... she chose him. Lord knows why?" Ross laughs jovially.
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"She was umm..." I begin looking at her.
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They look at me expectantly. I back away from what I was about to say. It's not for me to say.
She was pregnant and I don't know who she has told. As far as I know only myself and Taylor know.
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"She was and is my everything" I say. I stroke her face and she sighs hugging into me again. We stay there like that for a while. The spliff hits me pretty hard and I get paranoid over Justin and his intentions for her. He looks at her over and over again. Her lips, her chest and her cream skin. He's eyeing her up when the door swings open.
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"What the, Matthew?" Jay asks. Not a good start.
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When Jay gets pissed his chest tends to beef out and he flexes his hands instinctively.
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Taylor wakes up and I curse him. She rubs her eyes and pulls her dress down. She stands up as he's approaching me and she pulls him into her arms. It's like she absorbs all of his anger, it dissipates when she's holding him.
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"Let's talk. I missed you" she says and I feel that deep in my gut.Why does she miss him? She had me.
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He's glaring at me and she half tugs him to the door.
"What the fuck Matthew, we had a code" he says and I feel the rise. I stand up and Taylor turns around defending him. Looking at me her eyes pleading with me to just stop.
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“We had a code alright, and you broke it when you stole her from me” I say and I can feel the anger rising up my chest.
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“I didn’t steal her from anybody, she left you” he tells me.
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“And you capitalised on that didn’t you” I retort and were arguing now.
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“Stop it both of you” she shouts and walks out.
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Ross gets up instantly and pursues her. I start to curse myself, why can’t I be more like him? The person that’s always there for her instead of causing her problems.
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