Sailaja did not say anything to it then but still was adjusting her dressing. By then he finished his dressing and came near to her, embraced her and kissed on her lips. “But it takes five months or so of time to her to come to home again. We can have it together as many times as we want in between.”
Sailaja did not say anything to that also and indulged herself in continuing her dressing allowing his hold around her. She did not feel too much thrilled either by his hug or kiss at that time as she was before. In fact her heart was with full of remorse for what she did. However much the urge in her until that day, she never has dared this much to have it like this and in fact she never have even thought to have it practically. On this day she has it with a man, that too a married man.
“It seems you are feeling for what you did now.” There was regret in his face. “That was why I asked you........” he tried to say something.
“No problem” she cut him off and relieved herself from his hug. “I go now. I come to you tomorrow evening for tuition.”
“Don’t forget to take a tab or something. Otherwise you know the possible danger!” while she was walking away from that place he reminded her.
Until that moment she has forgotten about it and her heart was with cold fear thinking what would happen if she became pregnant! She did not know what tablet to take and the necessity of the situation made her remember her friend Madhuri who was an expert in such matters. She said she got her fucking even before she became a woman!
“Oh, you have it! Wonderful!” when Sailaja asked her about the tablet she laughed loudly and told her the name of it also.
“But I don’t think I can go to the medical shop and ask for it straight.” There was uneasiness in the voice of Sailaja. “What that medical shop man would think?”
“You have no problem to have it like that but you have a problem to ask for it in a medical shop.” The same sort of laughter irritated Sailaja to the maximum. “Alright. Come to my home. I always keep a stock of them with me and I have no objection to share some of them with my best friend.”
“I don’t need many. Only one tablet would do.”
“You don’t know now but very soon you need more. Just come as soon as possible. I am having plans to go out soon.” After that without hearing anymore Madhuri cut off the phone call.
“Come into my room. After having a little chit chat in between ourselves, I do part with that tablet.” It took fifteen minutes to Sailaja to reach Madhuri’s house and after welcoming her into her house leading her towards her upstairs room Madhuri said.
“You said you have plans to go out. Why don’t you give me the tablet and go out?” once she entered into her room, Madhuri asked her irritatingly.
“I am planning to have it with a guy who is staying in a hotel now but that can be postponed for some half an hour. He will wait.” She slumped in a chair and made a sign to Sailaja to sit in another chair nearby. “But after hearing you like that, I just cannot say how much surprised I am! You have it with a guy after all?”
“Yes, I have it with a guy after all and that is why I need that tablet. I too cannot say about my feeling and please give me the tablet and put yourself in your work. I just want to vanish away from here.” With so much uneasy feeling Sailaja said and she covered her face with her both palms. In fact she wanted to burst out into weeping.
“Why my darling, why you are bothering in this way just for satisfying your urge in such a way? What’s that much wrong you did?”
Hearing her like that Sailaja opened her eyes, removed her palms and looked angrily into the face of Madhuri. “It is all because of you, you rascal! You said to me all the bad things and spoiled me. Hearing sex things again and again from you I started feeling uncontrollable urge and ventured to have it like this on this day. I did a big immoral thing and I never can excuse myself for what I did?”
“You did that much of an immoral thing and you cannot excuse yourself for that? Having sex in a natural way with a guy is that much immoral in your opinion? Then what should we say about other dirty, nasty things in the world? Comparing with so many other dirty things in the world, your having sex like that is nothing. Just stop worrying like this.” Madhuri vehemently said.
“I know that having sex before marriage is no mistake for you but I just don’t know why I cannot think like that.” Sailaja sighed heavily and said. In fact she was relieved by whatever she heard from her but could not remain without saying that.
“You cannot think like that just because you have been born and grown up in an orthodox family which never believes in woman’s freedom and which never gives importance to woman’s necessities. It always thinks how a woman should mould herself all convenient to man, to his tastes and desires. It just trains her to look after her husband, to look after her family and all her life to after their needs. Even to think about her needs is a sin and immoral in that family’s opinion.”
“Satisfying the sexual urge is a necessity?” Sailaja knitted her brows together.
“Is it is not then?” Madhuri stooped forward in the chair. “You are all the time so much controlled but why suddenly you have it like this now? That urge has become a necessity and you understood you cannot remain peaceful without having it.”
“It has become such a necessity to me..............” however much Madhuri’s words were relaxing to her Sailaja could not remain without saying. “.........because of hearing you. You said........”
“Your tempting like that is not because of my hearing Madhuri. In fact hearing like that from me satisfied some of your sexual fantasies and sexual scenes you see in the movies and read in the books satisfy your sexual urge to some extent rather than making it more. In fact suppressing it without thinking makes it trebles. Just tell me one thing! Just before having it with that guy were you thinking what I said to you or were you remembering any sexual movie scene you saw or sexual matter you read?”
“Of course, no” Sailaja wanted to be genuine.
“Then what it indeed made you to take the decision to have it with that guy whoever he may be, tell me? How you have forgotten about everything your morals, the sins, your family traditions and has it with him so?” Madhuri was vehement.
“I cannot say. You may be right. Please don’t torture me anymore and give me the tablet.” Now there was pleading in the voice and face of Sailaja.
“I am not torturing you. I am just trying to make you realise the truth and unburden you.” Madhuri sighed heavily and said. “Anyhow you have unburdened yourself from thinking that you have to protect your virginity until you give it to your husband. Whether you do have it with any other guy from now or not I cannot say but you are relieved from the burden of thinking that you have to remain as a virgin until your marriage is over.”
“Your talking is really very much puzzling to me!” frowns gathered on the forehead of Sailaja.
“Some truths may be puzzling to hear” Madhuri sighed heavily “What it is except burden thinking to remain as virgin until the marriage is over and has it only with the husband? How much unbearable the urge until that moment and is it is not an unbearable burden to refrain ourselves from having it until that moment? What would be that much great loss in having it in a safest way possible?”
“I don’t want to argue but your words are not altogether bad to hear. I am getting comfort hearing you like this.” A small smile was forced onto the lips of Sailaja.
“Just see how the world biased against women! Why there is no such virgin like thing for men and it is only for women? They are not going to lose anything and they don’t need to protect anything by not having it with any woman or women before their marriage? These types of concepts and rigorous rules are only for women?”
“You have found something very convenient for women to have sex before marriage.” Sailaja laughed and this time it was a natural laugh and she was feeling relaxed.
“I did not find out. All the time the society just tries to keep the women under the carpet and the women should try to come up and fight against that.”
“By having immoral sexual affairs like these?” Sailaja knitted her brows together.
“Are you still thinking like that? Are you still thinking, after having brainwashed like this from me, what you did is an immoral thing? I suggest if possible never have it again except with your husband as that is healthy but tell me are you thinking now women having sexual affairs before their marriage is immoral and unfair?”
“No, I am not thinking like that now.” Suddenly there came a serious expression into the face of Sailaja. “I am not saying this to satisfy you but because you satisfied me with your reasoning.”
“Thank you very much! I am not going to detain you anymore.” Madhuri got off from the chair, went near to the cupboard, took her handbag from it and then took a tablets strip from it.
“Take a tab with water without any delay and keep the rest of you. If you don’t want to have it again I am not going to force to have it but once tasting it like that the urge becomes a lot later on.” Handing over that strip to Sailaja, Madhuri said.
“Thanks! I take a tab without much delay and keep the strip.” Sailaja got off from the chair she sat and at that time her opinion was not to have it with any other person except her husband. “I detained you lot of time in the home itself, I am sorry. You have a plan.”
“You did not detain me. I stopped myself.” Madhuri got off from the chair, laughed and said. “In fact I felt a sort of thrill hearing that you have it with a guy. I never have thought that you could do it. Anyhow, if you tell me who is that lucky guy I feel very much good. Is it is just one time sexual adventure or do you in love with him and have plans to marry him?”
“I must say it is just one time sexual adventure.” Sailaja laughed but her heart was once again filled with untellable uneasiness. “There is no question of marrying him. He has a wife and children also.”
“Is it is so?” Madhuri’s face filled with surprise, frowns gathered on her forehead and she came so near to Sailaja. “Will you tell me who is that much lucky guy to enjoy this beauty?”
“Our commerce lecturer!” Sailaja’s voice became low while saying that but clearly audible to Madhuri. “And your words are absolutely true! An experience in the hands of an experienced guy will be just pleasure. He just let me see the heaven.”
(……….to be continued)
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