“How you can talk like that? She is your natural sister and they are your parents also.” Viswanadh’s face filled with surprise.
“I just cannot think like that” Evalla nodded her head helplessly. “Sometimes I am thinking that it is all just fiction I imagined myself subconsciously and behaving like that! You know one thing? It is I who vexed most with this Okatho and all those sort of things.”
Viswanadh, Prameela and Sadan exchanged glances with surprising expressions.
“Then what you are going to say about your remembering your past incidents so?” Prameela looked into the face of Evalla.
“They might be just my dreams, nothing else.”
“I don’t think dreams can be that much clear and particular. If they are just dreams, I don’t think you can remember every detail of it so and say that to us.” Prameela said again.
“What do you want to say? Why you are trying to force me to think they are all true?” with an irritating expression in her face Evalla yelled. “Sometimes we may remember dreams also with such clarity.”
“Its alright Evalla” Prameela said, dragged chair to the right side of Evalla and put her right hand around her shoulders. “We are not trying to force you believe anything. Okay, we agree that they were just your dreams. In future also whenever you remember things like that; just think strongly that they are your dreams and nothing more.”
“You don’t know, you just don’t know how much I am vexed with this Okatho, Amsara and the rest. I just want to lead a happy marital life with my husband but.....” she paused for a second and said again. “.....this is all started in this way. You both who never believed in paranormal started believing in that and you agreed with the existence of Amsara also. I am so happy as that Okatho did not expose in me for the last one week or so feeling that I have become free of it at last. But it once again came into me confirming me that I never can be free of her. How long I have to suffer in this way?” Evalla suddenly covered her face in his hands and burst into weeping.
“Eva dear” Viswanadh said. “You are very much right at one time my daughter and I were never believed in anything paranormal. You very well know this also what really led us to believe in paranormal and agree with the existence of Amsara. Even though you are worrying in this say, I cannot say now that the whole paranormal is a naught and Amsara is an absolute myth just because your worrying in this way.”
“That means” Evalla removed her hands from her face and looked angrily into the face of Viswanadh. “You still want me to be a victim of that Okatho and suffer with this split personality till the end of my life.”
“I never mean it to be so. Don’t you know how much I love you dear?” Viswanadh took her right hand into his hands and squeezed it gently. “I am not a psychiatrist like Dr.Rose and a para psychologist like Sadan. But I can say one thing! With our sudden emotions we just make the problems we have been facing even worse! Just because your sudden feeling like this, the problem you have been facing for a long time cannot be solved suddenly.”
“Dad is absolutely right Evalla.” Removing her hand from her shoulders, Prameela said. “We are all also as much anxious as you are for your being freed from that Okatho and to lead a normal life just like all of us. But bursting yourself in this way does not help at all.”
“You are right. You are absolutely right.” Evalla nodded her head. “But.....” she paused for a second with frowns.
“Why you are hesitating? Whatever you do want to tell just tell it straight.” Looking encouragingly into her face Viswanadh said.
“I want to meet Dr.Rose.” with a small but firm voice Evalla said. “I think it is Dr.Rose who can give a perfect solution to my problem.”
Viswanadh and Prameela both quite unintentionally looked into the face of Sadan with frowns on their foreheads.
“Perfect idea! I never do against to take treatment from Dr.Rose. As Evalla feeling like that; it is quite better that we meet her as soon as possible.” Sadan said.
“I procure an appointment of her on tomorrow evening itself. We four go and meet her.” With a fixed expression in his face, Viswanadh said.
***
“It is indeed a wise idea that Evalla herself thinking like that and it might take change in the way of your thinking also.” Looking into the faces of Viswanadh, Prameela and Sadan one after one Rose said with her charming smile on her lips.
“In fact we don’t know what to think now.” With a smile on his lips also Viswanadh said. “The recent incidents that took place in our lives made us believe in paranormal and Amsara also. But Evalla’s thinking like that, we are just in confusion!”
“I want to hear this great parapsychologist opinion also” then Rose kept her gaze straight on Sadan keeping her charming smile just like that on her lips.
“My opinion is just that there is no change in it at all.” There was firmness in the voice of Sadan. “Whatever you may think of me and even Evalla does not like it; in my opinion Evalla’s problem is not split-personality, her sister Okatho is in her body and it is she occasionally exposing herself so. Amsara as well is hundred percent true and he is a very much cunning, dangerous and powerful bad angel.”
“You are feeling not good with what he talked, is it is not?” looking into the face of Evalla, Rose said.
“He should not have talked like that even he is feeling so.” With an uneasy feeling in her face Evalla said. “It is making me feel fear.”
“Once you are confident in what you are thinking, you would not be influenced by such type of talking by any person however great he may be. My teacher Sahamooti, who is a reputed and famous psychiatrist also talked just like that at you, was not he?” Rose was still looking into the face of Evalla.
“You are absolutely right doctor!” Evalla exclaimed remembering that only then. “He also talked in the same way! I just don’t know how he could be your teacher having such blind and useless beliefs?”
“Great people also sometimes do have blind and useless beliefs.” Rose nodded her head. “We need to be careful and in our guard not to be influenced by such type of talking.”
“But what we need to do present? How my problem is going to be solved forever?” Evalla’s face was covered with anxiousness while she was asking that question looking straight into the face of Rose.
“It is indeed appreciable that you are taking your problem as just psychological and want a solution in a scientific way. But........” Rose leaned back in the chair and sighed heavily. “..........your becoming inimical to the split-personality in you will just make the situation worse. The more you think to get rid of it; the more it becomes stronger.”
“My god! This means there is no solution to my problem at all!” Evalla leaned back in the chair and closed her eyes with despair.
“I don’t say your problem will not be solved. But it will not be solved in the way you are thinking.” Rose leaned back in the chair. “First you have to accept that split-personality is nothing but part of your mind. Then you should try to make friendship with it by knowing what exactly it wants from you. I thought here Sadan could be much helpful to you.” Then she looked into the face of Sadan there.
“I came to know what that Okatho, the split-personality as per your opinion, what exactly wants. I think I told you about it.” Then Sadan told her about that split-personality’s wish and desire.
“I don’t remember that you told me. Anyhow that does not matter.” After saying that Rose looked into the face of Evalla again.
“I cannot agree that Okatho is just a part of my mind. I never heard about that Amara! How I am talking with that much clarity with the incidents happened in her life?” before Rose said anything Evalla said with gathered frowns.
“Even you don’t remember anything, you don’t forget that Okatho and you were natural sisters and grew up together. Quite automatically you could be known many of a thing associated with her life.” Rose said.
“Doctor I don’t want to think that Okatho is a real character and was in existence at one time. I wish all that is just my imagination but nothing else.”
“We cannot change the facts with our wishes however strong they may be Evalla.” Rose said. “Even I too don’t like, I agree that Okatho was your sister and you both have close intimacy at one time. You saw many an incident that took place in your lives. I don’t know the particular reason but you have lost your memory absolutely. Someone has put you in an orphanage and you grew up your rest of your life there.”
“But what this Amsara and her trying to get the grace of it?” Evalla knitted her brows together.
“There is no Amsara at anytime anywhere but the some people do believe that there is a bad angel with that name is in existence and it fulfil all their wishes. I believe such an atrocity took place in Okatho’s life and she is trying to get the grace of it to take revenge on those rogues.”
“But if there is no Okatho at anytime in me who it is trying to get the grace of Amsara and take revenge on those rogues?” there was confusion in the face of Evalla.
“Somehow or other you came to know about Okatho’s wish to get the grace of Amsara. Quite unknowingly sometimes you do believe yourself as Okatho and in such occasions you are feeling to get the grace of Amsara. You were so much influenced by your sister Okatho and her dying like that moved you so much. That is why you are feeling sometimes as Okatho and feeling like that.”
“Then.....” Viswanadh said “....what is the necessity to Evalla to feel like Okatho? She straight can get the grace of Amsara.”
“Difficult to say. Unless we do know completely about the lives of these sisters, we cannot say why Evalla trying to get the grace of Amsara as Okatho.” Rose sighed heavily and adjusted more in the chair she sat. “But I think it was only the wish of Okatho to get the grace of Amsara while they were together. So Evalla imagining herself like that.”
“But at present I am not feeling anything towards that Okatho. I am just vexed that she is exposing in me occasionally. I just want to get rid of her from me forever.” Evalla’s face was filled with an irritating expression.
“That type of feeling creates problems Evalla, don’t think like that” Rose said. “If you hurried and hastened like that to get rid of that split-personality it becomes even stronger in you.”
“But what should be done doctor? How my problem will be solved and when I can live the life I so much desire?” now there was anxiousness in the face of Evalla.
“First thing I want to ask you to don’t feel anxious like this.” Rose stooped forward and balanced her arms on the table in between. “You try to see whether you can remember anything regarding that Okatho and feel her as your sister. Feel some love and affection on her. Then it becomes easy to me to make you contact with her and your problem will be solved.”
(……….to be continued)
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