“Just get out! Get out from this place you rogue, cheat and scoundrel!” once again Charita tried to throw him down from the bed but as Anirudh has expected something like that could manage not to fell down but he has to get off from the bed.
Charita once again got off from the bed and started beating Anirudh with both of her hands everywhere on the upper part of his body and Anirudh was trying to ward off those blows. Suddenly then he heard the loud tapping on the doors and he understood who has come.
“What is happening my boy?” when Anirudh opened the doors wide relieved himself from Charita difficulty, his mother Apsara at the threshold asked him with full anxiousness in her face. But as Charita came on the back of him and was continuing beating, he just was not able to tell anything.
“Why, why you are beating my boy?” Apsara went near to Charita and took her into her both hands. “Why you are behaving like this?”
Suddenly there was confusion in the face of Charita and it was just like she came out of her hysterical fit. “I just don’t know. I suddenly felt lot of anger on Anirudh for what he did to me.”
“What he did to you is the worst thing on the earth I know and it is not excusable. But you yourself compromised and married him. If this is the way you feel towards him, why did you marry him at all?” with the same anxiousness in her face and voice Apsara asked her.
“I could not control myself. I am sorry.” Charita went from there, fell on the bed there before cupping her face in her hands and broke out into weeping.
“Even I were not in your place, I know it is not easy to forget about that. Just because of by marrying him you cannot forgive him absolutely and it is natural that you become emotional like this. Remember one thing here! You are going to be a mother also and if you cannot get change in your attitude, it will be dangerous to your baby also.” Apsara went near to her, sat beside her on the bed and put her hand on her right shoulder.
“Sometimes I just cannot control myself and feeling so much anger. I love my baby a lot and I don’t want anything happen to it. What should we do now?” Charita sat straight on the bed and looked into the face of Apsara with knitted brows.
“We have to go to that psychiatrist again. Only she can give a suggestion to us.” Apsara said and then looked into the face of her son there.
“I need to phone to her to take her appointment.” Anirudh nodding his head said. “She is very busy psychiatrist and we cannot get appointment straight.”
***
“Its alright. It may get positive change in Charita. If you both are careful, it is not that much of a very big problem to deal with.” Looking into the faces of Charita and Anirudh, Rose said. When Anirudh phoned to her and tell her the urgency, she gave them the appointment on the evening of that day deciding to stay half an hour more.
“I remembered your caution. I should have been more careful!” with regretful expression in his face, Anirudh said.
“It is my fault in fact! I have compelled him to do it without protection.” There was the same regret in Charita’s face also.
“That means you do love to have children that much?” Rose laughed and said and on hearing that Charita’s cheeks were blushed deep. “Yes, I recommended not to have pregnancy until you become hundred percent your normal self. But you do love your would be baby that much....” Rose stooped forward and balanced her both arms on the table in between “.....first tell me one thing. How you are feeling at your baby? Love or anger?”
“Love, abundant love” suddenly Charita laughed and said. “I just cannot say how much happy I am feeling to have a baby either it is a son or daughter. Anirudh wants it to be a daughter but I don’t want a daughter!” suddenly Charita’s face became serious.
“But why?” Rose leaned back in the chair with gathered frowns. Inside of her she knew why Charita did not want a baby but she wanted to hear it from her.
“Please don’t tell that to her!” Anirudh said hastily when Charita opened her mouth to say something.
“Let her express her feeling Anirudh. Don’t try to stop her.” Looking into his face Rose said and once again looked into the face of Charita. “You tell me why don’t you want a daughter?”
“If she is a daughter, she also will be gang-raped just like me and then be forced to marry one of her rapists.” With an uneasy expression in her face Charita said.
Charita and Anirudh both expected some surprising expression in the face of Rose but there was nothing like that. “If every woman thinks like that and stop giving birth to daughters what happens? Shall we make the world devoid of women with fears like that?” Rose asked Charita still looking into her face.
“I don’t know and I cannot say” Charita also was looking into the face of Rose with anxiousness. “That was why I felt too much fear suddenly and became emotional so I behaved like that.”
“Your fear is groundless! Nothing like that happens to your daughter.” Rose took Charita’s right hand into her hands and squeezed it gently. “Not just because it is not in your hands, just because girls are so important, you do just wish to have a girl baby. Don’t feel fear like that and everything is going to be alright to your daughter with loving parents like you both.”
“But what should I do I just cannot escape from the troubling thoughts and feelings!” Charita relieved her hand from Rose’s hands and said vehemently. “I don’t want to feel like that and I don’t want to think like that but I am having the same disturbing and uneasy thoughts all the time.”
“It is the nature of our mind. It thinks what we don’t want to think and it feels what we don’t want to feel. It is not just for you; it is so for everyone.” Rose leaned back in the chair again.
“If it is just like that I may become mad slowly and I am afraid I cause damage to my baby also.” With full apprehension in her face Charita said. “If my feelings rule me like that I just cannot say when I become violent like that and what I do during that time.”
“Doctor, you may please start your hypnotherapy treatment. I am thinking that only can help her for the present.” Anirudh said feeling anxiousness full in his heart.
“I sure do give her hypnotherapy treatment if I am thinking it is inevitable. But I am seeing development in her case. Considering what has happened on her, it is quite natural that she becomes violent like this sometimes. The way you both have been living together, her subconscious also accepted the situation maximum. What all necessary is; she has to understand the situation and put the suggestions I am going to give into practice.”
“I am ready to put all your suggestions into practice if they help the situation.” With lot of enthusiasm Charita said. “In fact it was your suggestion helped me to live along with my husband.”
“That is very nice! Your trying to be moulded yourself according to the situation itself is a big positive thing! The other two important positive things are; one you do love your husband despite what he did to you and want to live along with him. Two; you do love your baby also. The love you are feeling towards your husband and would be baby gives you lot of strength and control on yourself.” Rose paused a second.
Neither Anirudh nor Charita preferred to say anything because they knew that Rose was going to say something more.
“Sometimes you certainly feel lot of anger, hate on your husband for what he did to you. Just say yourself strongly, you are not the feelings and separate from them. You do love your husband and baby a lot and never do anything damaging to them. Don’t try to force that negative feeling out but decide yourself strongly that you are not going act basing on that feeling. Try to put yourself in some other work, just like reading an interesting book or watching an interesting movie like that! Let that feeling vanish slowly or stay in you as long as it is going to be but don’t try to force it out. If you do try to force it out, it becomes even more strong! But once you put yourself in something interesting that feeling slowly vanishes.”
Anirudh and Charita looked into each other’s faces and a small smile crept onto the lips of Charita.
“I sure do it like that doctor. I am feeling confident that it works out.” Charita said feeling full confident.
“It sure does work out. Once the baby takes birth there came even more positive change in you. You just become hundred percent fully normal in one or two years. Keep in mind what I have said and follow my suggestions scrupulously.” Rose said with the same smiling expression in her face but suddenly her face has become serious. “But I want to say one thing here which you both need to keep in your mind and just be careful!”
“Tell me doctor, what it is?” Anirudh asked her once again with anxiousness and alertness in his face and Charita’s face has also filled with the same expression.
“There may be incidents that Charita becomes emotional and behaves violently. Don’t be felt surprised and shocked especially you Mr.Anirudh. Just be prepared to it and deal with it as gently as possible. Remind her that she is going to be a mother and try to make her feel it. I am of the opinion thinking of the baby she is carrying certainly gets change in her. If it does not happen like that, I am always here to help you people.”
Charita and Anirudh looked into each other’s faces with anxious expressions.
“I don’t want to make you both feel unnecessarily anxious. Charita may never become emotional and vehement if she feels confident and behaves in the way I suggested but it is always advisable that we are in our preparation. You sure can win over everything and have your beautiful baby but just be careful also. Just face situation in the required way if it happens like that.”
“Sure doctor, we just do like that.” Charita said and looked into the face of Anirudh and Anirudh nodded his head and said “Yes, we do just as you suggested doctor.”
“Then you both can go now with light hearts.” Once again Rose’s charming smile climbed onto her lips and Anirudh and Charita came out of her chamber. On that day they both came there with Anirudh’s mother Apsara and they both went back along with her.
***
“What’s happened mom? You are appearing uncomfortable and uneasy.” Looking into her mother’s face Nalini asked her.
After meeting with Rose, taking her treatment and after changing from that place to here everything was usual and comfortable to Nalini and there was nothing to her to worry now. The only problem to her now was; even after five years of their marriage she could not have children. She used to the idea that she would never have children and Sanjan also would have accepted it like that he too did not talk about children anymore recently. Even doctors gave them the assurance as they both did not have any problem they might have children at any moment Nalini was not feeling optimistic at all about it. She did not know how Sanjan was feeling about it but still she wanted children very much.
(……….to be continued)
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