“Okay. Ask him to him tomorrow morning at ten itself. Luckily the patient scheduled then cancelled the appointment and I can entertain your grandpa at that time.”
“Your name is Someswar if my memory is good, is it is not so grandpa?” as soon as she looked at him Rose smiled and asked him to sit and when he sat she asked the question.
“Your memory is wonderful and my name is just that.” Someswar settled in the left side chair opposite to Rose and said looking into the face of Rose. “And I am sorry that I am troubling you in this way.”
“Providing psychological help to my clients is never a problem to me.” Her charming smile climbed onto her lips. “It is my profession and I am earning my bread depending on it.”
“But my problem is something awkward to you to hear” there was an uneasy expression suddenly in his face. “I might have chosen some male psychiatrist in your place. But I am impressed quite a lot by you and so expressed at my granddaughter that I want to see only you.”
“I am really flattered for your feeling on me like that.” Rose laughed and said again. “It is not unusual that I provide psychological assistance to male clients also for some odd problems too. Just let me have the pleasure of helping you. First tell me what exactly your problem.” She stooped forward in the chair and balanced her both arms on the table in between.
Someswar leaned back in the chair and closed his eyes and Rose understood that he was struggling to express his problem to her.
“Is it is something relating to sex? Are you getting unwanted sexual feelings at people so close to you also?”
There came a startling expression into the face of Someswar on hearing that and he snap opened his eyes and looked into the face of Rose. “How you can guess it that accurately? That is what indeed my problem.”
Rose’s laughter then was mellifluous and she leaned back in the chair again. “For what other problem you do feel this much to express? There is no problem and you express yourself as freely as you can. Use the language you want and just free yourself.”
Someswar’s face was filled with a brightening expression on hearing that. “My wife died ten years back. From ten years or so prior to her death, she was diseased and bedridden. We used to have it together before she has become bedridden but ours was always a conservative approach. I wanted to have it on a wild bear way but she never let me have it so.
“I understood” with a charming smile on her lips Rose said. It was also not unusual that men do want to have hardcore sex and traditional women never do allow it like that.
“I never took a wrong step as long as my wife has provided that to me however much restricted it was; but when she has become bedridden completely like that I approached other women for it.” There was an uneasy expression in his face once again.
“It is not too much of a mistake providing that you do take safety measures sir. Sexual desires don’t vanish into thin air just because we are advanced in age. They do become even more strong and urging if the partner has become incapable to provide it.” Keeping the same charming smile just like that on her lips, Rose said.
“Thank you very much doctor that you understood it in the best way.” Now there was a happy expression in the face of Someswar.
“Alright tell me the rest, please continue.” Rose sighed heavily and adjusted herself in the chair for more comfort before leaning back again.
“Some of the women I used to have it with; let me have it in the way I want. I satisfied my kinks with them in the way I wanted.”
“They might be professional prostitutes. Only they allow all types of kinks to be satisfied in the way the clients want providing they pay extra money. Those kinks mostly consist oral sex.”
“You are right.” Someswar nodded his head once again with troubling expression.
“But I want to say one thing here, even you are not participating in oral sex now. Oral sex is dangerous! Sometimes it leads to diseases like cancer also.”
“My god!” Someswar’s face was filled with a fearful expression on hearing that. “I don’t know about it!”
“Not just that sir. Even protected also, free sex with women is dangerous! It leads to lot of diseases. If you are still having sex like that with women, please desist from it from now on. It is very important.”
“If I am having sex like that with other women; I would not have faced a problem like this now.” Someswar sighed heavily and said. “Moreover I have not been afflicted with any diseases so far because of my sex with other women.”
“You are extremely lucky that you are not afflicted with diseases till now because of your free sex with women but I cannot give any guarantee like that in future if you continue it so.” Rose once again adjusted herself in the chair. “Let me guess the rest of your problem also now. Recently you cannot have the association of women to satisfy your lust and kinks. Absence of that making the urge and desire in you more and more now that you wanted to do it with your daughters, granddaughters like that.”
“You are right” Someswar hung his head as if he could not look into her face anymore. “I am even trying to observe them while they are taking bath and changing their dresses. I am afraid I may even try to rape them also.” He paused for a second and while saying again his voice shivered a little. “I know it is incest! Something we should not even think about. I am going to be fried in the hell for entertaining such type of thoughts and doing such type of things.”
“Starvation of sex once we accustomed that much to it create such type of urges and desires in us sir. You need not feel too much about it. Just thoughts and feelings don’t make you sinner but you have to be very much careful that thoughts and feelings don’t turn into actions.”
“That means........” he suddenly perched his head up and looked into the face of Rose “..........may I entertain those thoughts in me without fear?”
Rose laughed on hearing that “I don’t mean at all that there is no wrong in thinking like that or feeling like that. Thoughts and feelings are the base to any action and we never should ourselves indulge in such type of thinking. If such thoughts and feelings themselves occupied your mind, you need not worry about. Just don’t care about them and sooner or later they do vacate your mind.”
“But it is not happening like that in my case. They are becoming more and more strong and prompting me to try to watch the naked bodies of my close relatives also. You know I am even imagining sexual intercourse with them and having dreams also like that.” Once again he hung his head.
“All of that is not your mistake and you need not feel guilty for it. It is quite unintentional on your part because of lack of sex after you have tasted it like that before which is creating such feelings and dreams in you. I tell you what to do to lead a peaceful and moralistic life from now on. Just hear carefully and follow what I do say. That is enough.”
“I am very much eager to hear whatever you are going to say.” With a curious expression in his face Someswar said.
“Sex plays a main role in our lives. It will be in human being from their birth till death. We do feel a lot for it while we are in youth and in some cases it continues just like that in old age also. I don’t want to blame you for what you did so far till now but it is not advisable to have sex with other women especially after sixties or so. Sex is only a part of our life and it is not all. The main role of sex is to put the male and female do the intercourse to create children. The main purpose behind the sexual feeling not just in human beings but in the other creatures also is to instigate them to have sexual intercourse to continue the world. I really doubt whether anyone does participate in such sexual act if there is no sexual urge or desire. If we consider male and female genital parts without sexual feeling in us, how nasty we do feel!”
“You are absolutely right! I have to agree with you.” Someswar nodded his head.
“In fact, to be frank, after we do have children to continue our generation, the role of sex in our lives has come to an end and we need to put a stop to it. Unfortunately, the taste of it is like that and we continue having it for a long time also after we have children. So far with our life partner it is acceptable. For some unfortunate male and female who don’t have a legitimate partner to have it, it is acceptable to have it with other guys taking safety measures. But once we reach a certain age, seventy years or so, it is quite recommendable not to entertain sexual thoughts in us and participate in sexual activities.”
“I want to lead a very moralistic and holy life but with all these sexual obsessive thoughts and feelings, it is appearing just impossible.” With a worrying expression in his face Someswar said.
“That is the most important point I am going to discuss with you now.” Rose once again balanced her both arms on the table in between. “Mind has a certain nature that it forces those thoughts and feelings on us which we don’t want to have at all. The more we do try to force those thoughts and feelings out, the more strong they do become. Let those thoughts do come and stay however long they want however much nasty and disgusting they may be. Don’t entertain yourself such type of thoughts and feelings but you need not feel fear if they all by themselves came into you. But you engage yourself in some other work, reading a book or watching television, something like that while you are invaded by such thoughts.”
“I have tried that but did not work out. I just cannot do anything at all while I have been torturing with those thoughts.” the worrying expression was just so in his face.
“With practice it is possible, not immediately.” Rose once again leaned back in the chair. “While leaving those thoughts and feelings in you just so, put yourself in some other work. Let all physical changes also do take place in you and don’t worry about them too. Slowly and slowly those thoughts and feelings would be relegated in your mind and you can concentrate more on what you are doing.”
“Alright doctor, I do try.” Someswar said but his voice was with not much confidence. “But I heard that hypnotism would give best results for these types of problems.”
Rose once again mellifluously laughed. “Hypnotherapy is a best technique to use. But do in the way I am going to tell just one month or so and then tell me whether it does work or not. Then I sure do give you hypnotherapy also.”
“Alright doctor. Please tell me what should I do?” Once again there was a curious expression in the face of Someswar.
(……….to be continued)
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