“You are feeling too much fear to Amsara, are not you Pomya?” Okatho asked her “Is he is that much of a bad god?”
“It depends darling.” Pomya said. “He is very good to those who fulfil his wishes and be loyal to him but very bad to those who become betrayers and go against him.”
“Is there no way at all to make him love us? To escape from his wrath?” Evalla’s heart was filled with fear on hearing that.
“Certainly you people can, if your mother and sister changed their way of thinking and behaviour.” Pomya said with firmness. “Amsara loved your mother as she is direct descendant of his great devotee Michivako so graced her when she offered herself while Okahto was in her womb. I don’t know why that your mother has turned a betrayer to Amsara. She started to hate him and even started following the ways of god. I just don’t what Amsara will do to her and her family also as it is the nature of Amsara to punish all the family members of his betrayers so severely.”
“My god!” Evalla whispered and looked into the face of Okatho and her face also was with fear.
“But if she changes her mind and start following the ways of Amsara everything will be alright. Because of his inherent love on your mother he not only pardon you people but grace you also.” Pomya said.
“I don’t think mother ever would agree to it.” Evalla said. “She is too much adamant to lead life as a respectable house wife and she wants us both also to do it.”
“I am also of course of the same opinion.” With firmness Okatho said. “I too don’t want to be a prostitute and lead life as a respectable house wife.”
“If it is so we cannot do anything except wait and see.” Sighing heavily Pomya said. “I want all you people to be happy where you are.” Then she looked into the face of Evalla and asked her. “What about you Eva? What type of life you want to lead?”
“You said that I am Tarima, the mistress of my great grandpa in his life as Michivako. I think that is the reason why I am so much attracted towards him and I want to marry him. You said to me he is in existence somewhere.” Evalla said and her face suddenly became serious. “But I have no objection to accommodate more men even as a housewife also. I think I love it.”
“It is the decision of Amsara. He decided that you should marry Michivako in this life also and it just happens. You can find him and marry him also. Michivako also does not object for your accommodating more men after marriage.” Pomya said.“Not just you but Amsara also does love it. Because of your wishing like this to follow Amsara’s ways, Amsara may pardon whole of your family and atleast not punish you people even does not show his grace.”
“If you like to accommodate more men, why don’t you lead life as a prostitute rather than marry someone?” looking angrily into the face of Evalla, Okatho said.
“Marrying that guy is Amsara’s decision not Evalla’s” Pomya said. “Don’t forget at one time he was great devotee of Amsara and it was he who introduced him into your family. Tarima was also a great devotee of Amsara and Michivako’s mistress then. Amsara just wants to make his two devotees to unite like that and he did it like that before to his devotees. I am feeling so strongly that Evalla also becomes pregnancy and gets his grace.”
“It will be so wonderful if it happens like that Pomya” Evalla exclaimed and before she would say anything more Pomya disappeared from their vision.
“You both girls once again engaged in talking with that Pomya?”
Both of them turned back and found Charakka standing behind them.
“You came here again disturbing Pomya?” Evalla angrily said to him. “I want to talk some more time with Pomya but she disappeared because of you.”
“You can meet her again and talk with her anymore length of time you want.” With a smile on his lips Charakka said. “But for the present come home. We are all waiting for you both for lunch.”
***
Evalla sat bolt straight on the bed waking up from her sleep in the early morning of that night. It was not her dream, she knew it for sure, but another piece of her past! She was feeling shock and disgust on herself remembering what she said to Pomya. She has no objection to accommodate more men. In other words she loved to lead the life of a prostitute! How could she think like that, how could she talk like that?
“Some more past of you jumped into your mind?” she found her husband’s right hand around her shoulders and his kiss on her left cheek.
“Of course, yes.” A small smile came onto her lips remembering that she impressed by this man, attracted towards him and wanted to marry him. “Pomya said the marriage between you and me is the decision of Amsara.”
“What an important character that bad angel has become in our lives!” sighing heavily Viswanadh said. “Almost everyday we are talking about him.”
“Don’t talk like that! He is a good angel.” Placing her right hand across his mouth Evalla said. “You don’t know the consequences if we talk about him like that.”
“I just don’t know what to say.” With a helpless expression in his face Viswanadh said. “He remained silent while those rogues were gang-raping your mom. He let those rogues gang-rape and murder your sister. You still feel love and affection on that god?”
“My sister herself has love and affection on that god despite all those things.” She kissed on his both cheeks. “What we can do, love on sex is Amsara’s weakness. Just because of going against that, my mom and sister were punished.”
Viswanath laid on his back and closed his eyes. He did not know what to say.
“What more Pomya said was I do become pregnant and get the grace of Amsara by offering myself then.” Evalla also laid parallel to Viswanath and put her right leg across him.
“You are going risk our child’s life for that dear?” looking into the face of Evalla, Viswanadh asked her. “If we are going to have a child ever, I never allow you to sacrifice it like that.”
“I have not yet become a pregnant and we worry about it when I have that.” Evalla laughed. “Who knows that child also may be a fortunate one and survive his sexual intercourse.”
“But one thing I just cannot understand at all!” Viswanadh turned towards Evalla and looked into her face. “If I were such a great devotee of Amsara at one time, why don’t I remember any of that now?”
“You already expressed yourself like this. Some lives passed in between and there is no surprise if you don’t remember any of that now.” Then suddenly Evalla’s face became serious. “But Viswa we are not going to think against Amsara. We shall remain as his devotees for all the time.”
“But our god......” Viswanadh tried to say something.
“Don’t say anything about god. Amsara is the only god to us for all the times to come.” She kissed straight on his lips without giving him anymore chance to talk and kept her lips there. He took her lover lip between his teeth frames and started chewing on that gently. It just continued like that and came to an end after they satisfied each other in all respects they want.
***
“I know that your memories are troubling to you Will. I know that some of your past is very much disturbing to you and the feeling it is evoking in you is quite unbearable to you.” Looking into the face of Williams, Rose said. “But your trying to suppress them or to run far away just worsens the situation.”
“So you want me to accept them and bear the torture to the maximum for all my life.” Williams face was with full of irritation.
“You know it very well I don’t mean it so.” She pulled her charming smile onto her lips. “One thing you should try to understand here darling. The things that have taken place in your life are not absolutely unusual or unnatural! Those types of incidents took place at many places in this world.”
“Sisters getting fucked even before they become women and mothers having sex even with the servants in the homes are quite usual and natural incidents in your opinion!” Williams looked into her face with a sarcastic expression.
“Of course they are not so natural and usual but almost all the girls have fucking experience before they have it with their husbands and extra marital affairs of women is not so uncommon. Anyhow don’t forget how your mom has been put in this place and why she has to do it like that.”
“How can I forget about it? She was a common prostitute giving herself to more men not just to that rogue. She even has the audacity to get pregnancy by him and give birth to my sister.” The anger expression in his face was intensified even more which was intimidating to Rose.
“She was forced to lead a life like that Williams. It was not her mistake.” Rose paused for a second before saying again. “But she loved your dad hundred percent and that Dibbu blackmailed her to have it like that with her.”
The inquiries they made after the death of Margaret and Dibbu, made some disturbing facts elicited.
“No, Rose. That is not true.” Williams nodded his head in negation. “From the very beginning her love was on that rascal only. Only to make themselves rich she married my dad and could become pregnant with that rogue even while my dad was alive. After my dad’s death, there were no impediments to them and had in the way they wanted.”
“If it were true, why she had shot him to death like that and shot herself so?”
“She knew that I remember the truth and once I remember it I kill them both on the spot. So she did it like that but for not any other reason.”
“Will until you forgive them both, you cannot have peace. They both were dead and we should not hate dead people like that.”
“I just cannot even think to forgive them both.” With firmness Williams said. “I hate myself even to think to forgive them.”
“Try atleast to forgive your mother Will, atleast try.” With gathered frowns Rose said. “Try to read the book she has written in full. Try to understand her from depths. Put yourself in her place and then think. After all she is your mother Will.”
They found some book written by Margaret in her room after her death but none of them were read it then. Williams and Jasmine wanted to read it but Rose did not allow them to do so as she feared what her mother in law wrote in that book and what type of affect it would have on them.
Williams nodded his head in negation and tried to say something more but both of them heard a voice from behind.
(……….to be continued)
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