There were a lot of things that weren’t mentioned in detail during my life story arc, and that was my health.
You see, I wasn't a very healthy baby. I was born with a bad case of pneumonia, and was a child with many allergies. All I ate was sweet potato, rice and vegetables for a number of years, as everything else made me break into rashes.
Whenever I returned to my home country, my whole body would break into rashes as well, and I would have to visit the hospital almost every visit. Not to mention my stomach pain and constant nosebleeds growing up.
As I said, I was a spiteful child. I was jealous of the food everyone else could eat that I couldn't, and how they looked perfectly fine while my face suffered from ugly rashes most of the time. I would have to constantly put on special creams and maintain a strict diet, and I'm thankful that I do not have to experience this today while others are not so fortunate. Heh, I remember the fun times in middle school where I'd go to the sick bay to grab ice for my rashes (cold helps sooth the skin) often.
Unfortunately, with health problems often come with low mood, and starting at a young age, I would experience sudden occurrences of extremely low mood, especially in the evening or in the shower. I still do, but thankfully not as often. It's difficult to explain. An empty feeling knaws at you from inside out, and you feel trapped in a dark abyss with no way out. All your motivation and emotion has been sucked out from you... something like that. The worst moments are when you're with a friend or a group of people when the low mood hits. You force a smile and pretend that everything's fine.
So what are the triggers of this low mood? There are three I can think of. 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifLd2E4j6N
1. Showering. Maybe it's because your body is the most relaxed and so it's somehow a physiological phenomenon...? Or something about the sudden change in temperature?267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPWhs7R8fmZ
2. Physical pain, usually an ache like a stomach ache or headache. Maybe low mood happens more often when I'm tired, but I don't remember enough to make that correlation.267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflIgmmfNV1
3. Will probably explain this in another chapter, but the piano.267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65D5Hfw1hl
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So how do I manage this low mood? Luckily for me, it doesn't last longer than a few minutes, and it's been happening less often. However, if you're experiencing reoccurent low mood for extended periods of time, it's possible you have a mood disorder, so please get professional help.267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGnp1MAMJgF
To sound randomly professional, if you have 7 or more of the following symptoms for at least two weeks, or three or more for a very long period of time (months, years), you are likely to have major depression or persistent depressive disorder:267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WB9wqc6gz
- Depressed mood, children can have irritable mood267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgFjQFcd9K
- Diminished interest/pleasure in hobbies267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡttOu8ZiIVy
- Fluctuating appetite and therefore weight267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHRBObGlCYc
- Insomnia/Hypersomnia267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzGA2K7Ypd
- Fidgety/noticeable slowing in movement267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2Ujn06n47
- Fatigue, loss of energy267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrFTXRMiFp
- Worthlessness267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20vSLw3uRk
- Diminished thinking267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ5fT1S2f0C
- Thoughts of death267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiq8oxuw46v
Alternatively, if you have constant high mood and consistently make impaired decisions, you might have mania. Of course, consult a professional, not someone who's done one psychology paper.267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIcnQg3wL6t
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Anyway, health. I don't think my health is at all that great, to be honest. I no longer eat at scheduled times, and my sleeping schedule is messed up. But... at least I'm not constantly in pain. For a period of time, I couldn't remember what it felt like to NOT be in pain. 267Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO7AqsZlC0p
If you're young, please take care of your health. I know the struggle with delayed gratification, but when you're in your 30s, you'll regret it. Young people aren't supposed to be getting backaches and irritated eyes so soon. (My eyes have been dying lately. Oh, I'm not 30, by the way... this is secondhand information... T_T)
