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These days I’ve been plagued with a slightly feeling eating away inside of me. It’s hard to describe. A numb… empty feeling that makes me feel like I’m in a dream or life is just an illusion. It’s a mild version of my depression, and I haven’t felt it for such an extended period of time for so long. It’s truly a strange feeling. Was it something I ate? After putting my arm around a friend shoulder, only having to take it away to walk through a door, and being too awkward to re-attempt it so I did it to a different friend, the awkwardness snapped me back to reality. Bro claimed to like hugs but not being my personal walking stick? Offended /j.
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This reminds me of the time I called a friend, and decided to hang up with an “I love you too” jokingly… bro was like “uh… I don’t think we’re close enough for that…”
“Friendship love, man??”
”Yeah, uh... No…”
Apparently they’re the type to only say “I love you” to close family, and they don’t want to use it unless they really mean it. I guess their type of love is really deep, huh.
I mean, I’m that one guy who will say “I love you” if you give me snacks. I asked around how people defined love from their point of view, and most of them were pretty simple. I guess there’s people who use “I love you” sparingly, but I didn’t think my friend was one of them, judging from their actions. Well, reading into people’s actions, words and emotions was never my strong suit.
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Anyway, Have you ever felt a strange sense of emptiness when you listen to a song… like there’s something that’s missing? Just a mild sense of emptiness… you’re longing for something, but you don’t know what. It’s a little sad, a little lonely, but it doesn’t feel that bad.
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