I thought about if I could make some friends here. Whom can I make friends with? What can we talk about? What am I passionate about? Manga? Webtoons?
Ah, music. I haven't a lot of friends, if any, that listen to Jpop. One of the many artists I admire is the group Yorushika. More specifically, Nbuna's lyrics. Something about them makes his songs so lonely, poetic and hauntingly beautiful at the same time.
No one knows much about nbuna, he reminds me of the characters in his songs; I often wonder how one can express so many feelings in a song with such beautiful melodies and lyrics. He reminds me slightly of Van Gogh; a lonely man immersed in his art, yet every time he creates a masterpiece, he loses a part of himself in the process.
I could never come up with such poetry even if I tried. Sincerely, I love nbuna's songs with suis' vocals.
I also love Yuika and her soothing voice. Her life and live streams seem so ordinary; it feels like she could just be an ordinary girl down the street yet she's all the way on the other side of the world. If I could meet her, I would! Her 17-sai no uta hits hard, even though I'm a ways past 17.262Please respect copyright.PENANAYnKrvcgHdH
"Actually, I just want to live doing what I love, but that's not a good way of living." 262Please respect copyright.PENANAeArfiTVVWH
... There are a lot of things to give up when you become an adult, and making friends is harder than ever.
Sometimes I think that all humans long for a deeper connection with other humans, but I wish it was not the case as it seems impossible for me. I've come to the point that I only see humans as temporary forms of entertainment or measures to get what I want. I've long given up on the trash that is humankind... which brings me to the lyrics
"If I had the reason why I wanted to die262Please respect copyright.PENANAt0biSkguY8
It would be that I still hadn't met you yet262Please respect copyright.PENANApWQNie2kAN
If this world were more like you, warmer and with more kindness too262Please respect copyright.PENANAaQpQPzfI7x
I think that I would like this world a little more262Please respect copyright.PENANAlGpPO1lrA5
If this world were more like you, warmer and with more kindness too262Please respect copyright.PENANAESrX68oat3
I think that I would have a little more hope for the world"
If there are people out there who would be willing to prove me wrong, to prove that "This city just showed you that it's full of people ready to believe in good"... if you know where that quote comes from, good on you.
Proving me wrong with one instance isn't enough. Come on, there's a whole subreddit for that. If there's someone that can consistently show me the good in humanity, that would be nice. Yeah. Because I know that I'm definitely not a good person, either.
This whole entry just changed topics 213087 times but yeah, jpop music lyrics really hit hard.
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