With three assignments due soon along with a group project and weekly quizzes, laboratories and tutorials, I decided it was a good idea to read manhwa all night last night. Nevertheless, the 7 hours spent at university were dreadful to go through without a sip of coffee.
It's funny. Sitting next to my friends made me uncomfortable in class. With them being hardworking straight-A students, and me, the unorganised student who only ever seems to ask them stupid questions, my inferiority complex can get the best of me. They don't even take notes in class and can remember the lecture contents just by watching, while I lose track after 5 minutes. So you can bet I felt subconscious as hell nodding off in class, exhausted, next to my genius friends. The worst thing is, we have a group project together, and we have to all write our contributions to every task. For me, who can't start work unless a deadline comes up, I have nothing to do as they've all already done the work that was needed before I even start. The last thing I want is to come across as negligent and lazy because, despite my late start, I do try. Of course, not to the point of being extra like them, but I try. I try in this damned world where I have to live doing something I can barely force myself to do to be financially stable and pursue what I really want to do.316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGguUxTgo1r
The stress from putting aside important work again and again because I struggle with delayed gratification and avoid hard work as a coping mechanism isn't a joke, however common it is. Especially because I also have a violent fear of failure and inferiority that kicks in right before deadlines or when I see someone succeeding.316Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ560W9VNPUi
