Taylor's POV
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Matthew and I arrive at the hospital to collect Ross hand in hand. He looks down at me looking happier than he has in weeks.
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"I think maybe at the party I shouldn't drink just in case you know I was thinking earlier I still haven't come on this month" I tell him and he strokes my thumb in his hands, holding me close in his embrace as we stroll through the hospital on our way to collect our friend.
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"I love you my darling" he says and it surprises me, the affection in his tone and the wistful look in his eyes.
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"I love you" I tell him as he smiles.
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"I think that you not coming on, means something Taylor" he smiles slightly opening up the door to Ross' room. I'm so used to seeing Ross in bed that when he is up and wearing all of his clothes, leather jacket and ready to leave, I smile slightly stunned. Like I've got my best friend back, I beam at him and he smiles happily.
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"Ready?" Matty says to him laughing slightly.
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"Almost they just need to check my blood pressure again" he says laughing and I almost rub his back.
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"Okay, we're going to get takeout on the way home and eat at yours if that's okay" Matty asks him.
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"Of course man" Ross says smiling at him.
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"What do you both feel like eating" I ask smiling at them both as Ross briefly eyes me before looking away.
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"Burgers?" Ross asks looking over at Matthew and conferring.
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"Burgers it is then" I smile.
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The nurse comes back in, a small lady with black hair and petite features. She checks Ross' blood pressure, I'm sure she has children our age as she smiles down at him warmly. He is adorable after all.
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"Okay Ross you're fine to go" she says softly putting her equipment away.
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"Here's a prescription for some pain relief" She says supplying him with a piece of paper, as Matthew collects his duffle bag and I hover by the door. As Ross is still unsteady we help him over to the lift. After picking up the pain medication we head out to the 4x4.
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"Wow it's odd but I haven't been outside since the accident and it's cold isn't it" he laughs as we walk over to the car.
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"It's cold, it's snowed since that very day" Matthew laughs.
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"Thanks both of you" Ross says randomly out of the blue as we sit in the car. I turn to look at him, and smile.
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"Ross it's fine, now let's go get some real food, no more hospital crap" I laugh and he grins happily.
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Matty squeezes my thigh, and then starts up the car. Once we're on the highway I notice that Ross looks around avidly, at everything and it makes me laugh but really I suppose he has been in the hospital, in the same room for some time. Matthew pulls into a drive thru on route to Ross' home and we order the burgers and shakes.
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"Hey do you want some chips now?" I ask Ross and he chuckles.
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"Nope I can wait, can you though?" He says smiling and I laugh.
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I prove that I can wait until we get to his house even though it is a long drive and it's been a while since I ate my salad. Matthew pulls into the drive and I smile looking up at the towering house, with the balconies over the bedrooms. We walk up the wooden porch and Ross unlocks the door sighing with relief once he sits down on his familiar sofa.
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With the fireplace alight we eat the takeaway in front of the flatscreen. I take note and once they've finished eating with their feet up I clear away everything, Matthew protests but I tell him to relax with his friend. I climb the wooden staircase and invite myself into Ross' bedroom. Eyeing the books straight away, and the journal that he writes before tearing my eyes away from it and grabbing his duvet and a few pillows.
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"Do not climb the stairs please" I warn him as I'm walking down the stairs with his sheets.
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"Yes boss" he smiles up at me as I lay the duvet down for him.
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"I mean it Ross" I say eyeing him seriously.
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"Do you need anything else from up there?" I ask him and he smirks at my serious face.
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"No thankyou Taylor I promise I will be fine" he explains chuckling and pulling the duvet over.
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Jogging up the stairs again I retrieve some joggers and a clean t-shirt for him, a few more books and some underwear. Curiosity pulls me in and I quickly glance at the journal, the one Rachel opened up telling me the writing was all about me. I take a quick glance at the first page and eye the first couple of lines. His neat handwriting and the words he's chosen so carefully to describe me. Words and terms of endearment, I glance up at the fireplace and imagine him sitting here writing. Placing the book down carefully, I pick up his washing and take it all downstairs to put on a load.
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Handing him the clean clothes he looks at me shocked but grateful. I take the dirty clothes and place them in the washer, whilst they're on a short cycle I clear up his kitchen. Taking two large litre bottles of cold water from the refrigerator I place them on the side for him back in the living room.
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My phone vibrates and I glance at it as they're talking about the sport on the TV in the living room. Gilbert Scott has messaged and I stare at the screen wondering what he could possibly want from me whilst he's with Jane. Jay and Jane, I sigh heading back out into the kitchen to hang up Ross' washing. I open up the message and sigh, angry that it's only two words.
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Ross okay?
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I message him back instantly, secretly feeling annoyed that he hasn't asked about anything else considering our rather explosive exchange earlier on.
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Why don't you text him?
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I reply deciding that I can be just as cold towards him. I know that he will instantly message me back, I briefly think about him holding me in hospital and wonder if he meant anything he said. His whole speech about, always caring no matter what.
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Okay what's the problem?
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His next message reads and I type back a reply instantly.
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No problem just unsure why you're texting me?
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I reply angrily just imagining his face as he reads it. I'm sure that he is at the party with Jane, and that she's most likely wondering why he's on his phone rather than paying her attention. I wonder if she wore her polo shirt to the party and I laugh slightly.
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Fucking hell whatever. I'll text him
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He sends back to me and I ignore him putting my phone back into my bag somewhat forcefully. I place some of the washing up to dry and tell myself to remain calm even though I feel like calling him up and shouting at him. My phone buzzes again and in my current mood I shouldn't look at it. But I do.
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You're being really difficult, Why? I told you how I feel and you pushed me out. Not the other way around. So what if I'm with somebody new? You don't want me and you're always with him in front of me. Let's be friends and just be civil with each other
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Ohh I'm so angry with him, how he just met her this morning does not constitute as being with somebody. I feel like Rachel and briefly I relate to her calling him pathetic. Ducking my head into the laundry room I close the door over and dial his number up instantly. The call connects and in the background I can hear voices none of which I can distinguish. Shouting and whooping in the background alongside loud music.
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"Yes" he says and his speech is ever so slightly slurred.
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"I'm not being difficult, do not message me and ask me how somebody else is rather than asking me what you actually want to ask" I tell him directly.
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"Baby don't be bitter. Nothing happened between us" he says after a pause and I scoff.
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I ignore him instantly, going for the call disconnect button.
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"I'm sorry" he says after a pause as if he can see what I'm doing or sense my anger somehow.
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"Where are you right now" he asks.
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"In the laundry room, doing Ross' fucking washing because I care that he has clean clothes and somewhere to sleep that isn't fucking dirty" I say crying down the phone. Feeling suddenly overwhelmed and unable to cope with this conversation, with everything. I sink down onto the floor sitting flat against the closed door.
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"I'll see you later I'm sorry for calling you" I sob and he shh's me softly. I can feel his arms around me, which is ridiculous as he has only held me once.
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"Honestly I'm so sorry" he says softly and I cry for a few minutes, full on gasps. It's like being slapped in the face, when you care about somebody that actually you probably shouldn't, and they disregard you without a second thought. It hurts even worse when you know that you have brought it all on yourself, that you have put yourself in an impossible situation inadvertently where you cannot talk to a soul because your intentions were treacherous to begin with.
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"It is honestly fine Jay, I understand like you say nothing happened between us. You don't really need to listen to me crying down the phone I get it enjoy your night" I say and I hang up instantly knowing that he will only try and change my mind.
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Jay dials me back, like I knew he would but I screen the call and place my phone on silent. Pulling myself together and hanging up the washing I wipe my eyes before walking back into the living room.
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"Hey Ross your washing is done, and drying so don't worry about anything" I tell him and he gasps shocked by my help.
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"Thank you" he says genuinely.
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"That's okay honestly" I say softly.
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"Thanks again, I can't thank you enough for everything" he says to me and I smile genuinely at him. Happy dependable Ross deserves somebody in his life to make him just as happy.
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"We're all going to Ryan's tomorrow, you're invited Ross" I tell him taking a seat by his folded clothes.
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"I can't drink though, or walk well enough" he smiles over at me and I shake my head.
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"You're coming, I'll be sober with you" I say briefly eyeing Matty. Realisation dawns on his face and he smiles.
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"Somebody needs to stop you from falling over right" I chuckle and he nods happily.
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"Plus you owe me" I add.
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"Okay, okay" he laughs and I feel like throwing my arms around him, but I don't. I figure I have enough on my plate without adding Ross into the equation too.
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Matthew and I leave shortly after and Ross promises to message one of us that he's okay later so that we don't worry about him. I hug him unable to rein myself in, so tightly before we leave. Crying big tears all over his fresh clothes as he ends up reassuring me that he's going to be just fine.
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Matthew drives us home through the snow and steals a few glances at me in the passenger seat.
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"You okay babe?" He asks me and I look up at him, having been lost in thought.
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"Yes I'm just happy that he's home and on the mend, makes me feel emotional" I say.
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"Good call on the whole sober thing." He says and I smile looking down at my tummy wonderingly.
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"I've never been this late on my period." I say staring up at him.
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"I have to tell you this, your emotions are all over the place too babe" he says slowly.
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"When I'm sad it's like the world is ending. And when I'm happy it's euphoric" I explain to him and he nods placing his hand on my thigh.
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"Babe you're pregnant with my baby" he says hoarsely. I sob again and he glances over at me, eyes full of wonder.
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"I can sense it" he says softly rubbing my thigh, tears forming in his eyes.
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"You've changed" he explains logically.
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"Not that you weren't caring before, but you're overly caring now. You just cleaned the whole of Ross' home and made sure he had everything he needs. You're overly into sex, and I don't know I can just feel it." He says watching me.
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"And babe I know we're young. But this is right for us I can feel it" he says as he pulls up at home.
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Walking up the steps to our porch I brainstorm in my head when my last period was, how late am I? I cannot for the life of me remember having one for around six weeks. And honestly it is true, emotionally I've been quite chaotic. My anger at Jay earlier and the crying. Sobbing down my phone at him I blush embarrassed by my behaviour. Jay did upset me but not enough to warrant an absolute meltdown. My constant need for Matthew's sexual attention, I hadn't realised that was a sign, but I guess it could be?
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Matthew sits me down on the sofa and lights up the fire.
"Hot chocolate?" He asks as I'm shaking. I shake my head and pull him into me kissing him on the sofa as he chuckles yielding to me.
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"But you're cold" he protests.
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"I'm fine Matthew" I say pulling my skirt off as his eyes rake over my already ripped tights.
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"Are you seriously going to deny me this?" I ask him sweetly. His green eyes search mine and he smiles happily. Something clicks for me, the emotional rollercoaster that has been my tumultuous relationship with Gilbert Scott may have been heightened because of my hormones. And that is not to excuse my wrongdoings on any account, yet it could explain a few things that I have been feeling intensely over the past few days.
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"If you're going to be this insatiable the whole time then..." he laughs. Matthew doesn't even take his jeans off all the way, I need him inside of me. I gasp as he inches inside of me and he smiles his eyes closing.
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"Better?" He asks once he looks at me again.
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"Mmhmm" I moan slowly and he sighs smiling down at me.
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"I love you" I say closing my eyes. Feeling his lips all over my neck and chest I gasp as he explores my body.
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"I love you Taylor" he gasps as I move my hips into him.
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"Yes" I call out finding a release as he loses himself uncontrollably.
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"Hot chocolate? Now then?" He laughs pulling his jeans up slightly standing in front of the fire. I nod to him smiling looking down at my leotard which we unclipped in a hurry.
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When he returns he hands me the button up nightshirt I wear which is actually his and sets down two large mugs of hot chocolate on the coffee table.
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"Thank you Matthew" I say taking off everything and putting his shirt on. He stares at my body as I do the shirt up in front of him, getting distracted briefly and I giggle.
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"Think we should do a test" I ask looking into his eyes, at this point I would be more shocked if it said I wasn't pregnant.
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"They are early detector ones" he says softly watching my eyes.
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“But they do say to take them in the morning” he adds and I smile up at him.
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“First thing in the morning” I say to him eyes alight as he picks me up, my legs wrapping around his waist.
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“We can do one and see where we’re at” I smile he giggles slightly and I find myself imagining what a child of his might look like. With his brunette curls and green eyes, olive complexion and sweeping eyelashes.
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“First thing in the morning” he agrees kissing me everywhere whilst carrying me up to our bed.
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