Taylor's POV
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Psychology flies by, Jay swiftly exits at the end and I watch after him briefly before collecting my things and turning to Ross. He pulls on his beanie and I smile up at him as his strands of blonde hair tumble out of the bottom. Taking my hand he leads he out of the lecture hall.
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"I've got to head on over to dance quickly" I explain to him as we head out into the now dark sky, I crunch through the snow and huddle closer to him.
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"I'll come with you" he says eyeing the dark field I have to cross in order to reach the dance department. Whilst some may find it daunting, I love the walk it clears my mind. The field is pretty desolate with trees lining the sides, and really the university should create a lit pathway to aid the safety of students. However I find I am able to make my way here easily through the grass.
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"This is quite the commute huh?" He laughs whispering into my ear as we walk.
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"It's relaxing." I smirk back at him and he giggles.
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"Taylor you like horror movies and walks in dark gloomy fields. That is practically a red flag." He laughs.
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"Oh shhhh you" I tease him as he holds onto my hand.
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The dance block, lit up ahead like a bright beacon, welcomes us in and as our eyes transition and adjust to the light I head towards the studios. Peering in I spot my teacher, she welcomes me in smiling. I ask about the staging, the lighting, and a few of the costume choices. I am pregnant and I need to be able to fit into the outfits. Should I need to take them to a seamstress; I will enlist my mother's help. So far I have managed to successfully hide bump under knitted dresses, anything tight and it would be totally obvious.
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Turning back to the door, I notice Jay behind Ross and assume he's had a quick pump in the gym. Due to his shirtless chest and the way his hair is tied back, his usual tan cheeks look flush as he smiles at me.
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"I'll be at the show" Ross tells me as I approach them and my teacher smiles briefly as I wave goodbye.
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"Thanks, there's going to be wine" I laugh over at him as I nod to Jay and he pulls his shirt back on.
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"I'd be there even without the wine" he laughs.
I blush and we begin walking out of the building I realise collecting blonde guys is a specific skill that I am very good at. I laugh inwardly as the doors open and the cold air hits us.
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"You shouldn't walk up here alone anymore" Jay comments as we head through the field, it's grown darker. The lack of light almost disorientating. I gaze out into the darkness seeing the outline of his body, and smile at his concern.
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"Hey Jay, nor should you" I laugh at his possessive tone and I can feel his frustration.
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"Don't worry Jay, I walked Taylor down here. Plus she told me that she really enjoyed the dark side" Ross smirks.
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As a group, we emerge from the trees, and I realise that walking out of a field with two guys looks pretty suspect. The parking lot is well lit and I glance over at Matthew's car realising that he will be in art still and cursing slightly.
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"What's up" Ross says sensing my mood, I have three hours to kill before Matthew finishes up. I don't fancy sitting by the car in the cold. Pulling out my phone I contemplate giving Rhea a message for coffee, that way I can catch her up on all of my problems. The baby, and indeed the pregnancy that she doesn't know about.
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"I can't leave without him and he has art" I sigh.
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"Idea, we have finals next week let's study" Ross explains.
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"With pizza at mine?" Jay comments and I smirk. Sending off a quick message to Matthew I pocket my phone and nod. There's an awkward moment where I think they're both going to fight over whose car I'm travelling in. Controversially I hug Ross before walking over to the Audi with Jay. He has been feeling down today, maybe we can air out our own problems during the ride.
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Noticing how he holds the door open for me, I slide in and he closes the door. He reverses and Ross follows us in his Aston Martin. Breathing steadily I wait for him to break the silence.
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"This is definitely breaking the don't even look at Taylor rule" he laughs and I turn to face him.
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"Jay" I say softly and he watches me before staring at the road.
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"We both know that you don't follow rules" I snicker and he laughs placing a hand on my thigh. My breathing hitches and he notices.
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"Stop biting your lip" he whispers and I hadn't even realised I was until he pointed it out.
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"Sorry" I whisper.
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"You started it" I tease him as his hand reaches just slightly up my thigh.
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"You started it by sitting here in my car when you could be sitting next to puppy dog Ross" he whispers.
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"He is not a puppy dog" I laugh and he smirks.
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"He follows you around" he comments and I laugh.
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"He does not follow, we're friends" I comment and he scoffs.
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"Oh Jay baby don't make me regret getting in the car with you" I say laughing and teasing him.
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"God damn I wish he wasn't following us right now" he sighs winking at me, I stare at him and realise he genuinely means it.
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"I don't just want to... you know" he replies softly.
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"Do you think you could ever see me in that way Taylor" he whispers as he pulls into his drive.
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"As a lover, a provider, somebody who cares for you and makes sure you're safe" he says softly stroking my hair back as I look at him stumped.
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"I wasn't aware you ever wanted those things" I say slowly as he kills the engine.
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"I fucked up telling you I would have sex with you once and then leave. I know that. You have this idea in your head of what I want. It's not like that anymore okay" he says eyeing Ross who jumps out of his car. Pushing his hair back he snaps his belt off and then strides over to my side and lets me out of the Audi before looking down at me intensely.
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"Thanks" I tell him before he guides me over to the lift in the foyer, his hand just hovering on my lower back.
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The elevator dings at the correct floor and we walk out together straight into his skyline apartment. He pulls his shirt off and chucks it in the laundry room before heading up a set of stairs and disappearing briefly. Ross rolls his eyes at me and I smile over at him as I shrug off my jacket and walk over to the sofas.
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"I actually got some books out of the library" I say pulling my bag up and smiling at him. I set them down on the coffee table and he flicks through them briefly nodding. Jay reappears in a crew neck jumper; handing me his phone he sits down next to me as Ross eyes him carefully.
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"You chose the pizza; you're a great cook and I know that you will choose fantastically" he smirks and I browse through his phone as he unlocks it. His wallpaper is an image of him and his mother and I can't help but to stare at it before opening up the webpage.
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"It was around three years ago" he says eyeing the picture, a snap shot of them by a beach. His blonde hair ruffled in the wind and her small petite features framed into a smile.
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"We were in Australia" he smiles down at me and I nod opening safari and pulling my eyes away from him as a younger surfer guy. In the picture a surfboard is propped under his arm and his hair is pushed back. His mother's expression nothing short of adoration.
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"Ohhh meat feast yes Taylor" he smirks looking down at my choices.
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"Can you get some wings too" Ross says pulling out an a3 piece of paper.
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"Wings check" I say as Jay rubs my thigh while Ross busies himself with the paper. He smirks as I look up at him appalled before I laugh.
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"Order a desert for yourself" he whispers.
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"A desert for me" I snicker adding in some salted Carmel ice cream.
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"And order some dough balls they're heaven right" he whispers down at me his grin infectious as I smile and place the order on his card.
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Handing him his phone he briefly grasps my hand before I go to use the restroom. Taking my bag with me I pace up the stairs and head into a long corridor. Situated to the sides are the bedrooms, five of them. I poke my head around the door and notice his four poster oak bed frame, no tv and a book on the side. A business journal and a cooking book, laughing I head to the large bathroom.
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The marble tiles are warm under my feet and I glance at the separate shower room. A large jacuzzi type bath with jets takes pride of place in the centre of the room. I gaze into the double mirror and resign myself to looking jaded and pregnant.
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Taking a seat, I remove my tights and look down my face suddenly feeling hot taking in the small spots of blood staining my tights. Investigating further I glance down and wonder if I’m imagining things, this just cannot be. I take a good ten minutes of time spent staring and deliberating. Ten minute of worry and panic that seizes me before I pull my phone out and ask google. Placing a pad down there. I calm my nerves and read my tights in my handbag.
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Spotting can be common and isn't always a sign of anything more serious, I read. I think of how it was only the most minimal amount of blood and reassure myself. I tell myself that I just lost one twin and how this is possibly related to that. I consider calling Matthew; but having him drive in the snow panicked doesn’t seem fair. Holding onto my phone for a few more minutes before placing my phone in my bag alongside my tights. Feeling over my tummy I stroke it gently before letting my jumper dress hang, nicely.
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Monitoring the situation and remaining calm I brush through my hair and neaten myself up before walking bare foot through the halls back down to the pizza study session.
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Baby A, I think to myself, the bigger baby is robust and will be just fine. I will him or her to not leave me too, plastering a small smile on my lips as I pass through the kitchen and down the hall back onto the sofa.
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“Hot” Jay questions when he takes in my bare legs. I barely hear him through the panicked questions in my head. Pulling a piece of pizza out from the box, it must have arrived during my bathroom realisations. Slumping back down next to Jay I tuck my feet in and he watches me, his eyes raking over my legs before he places his arm above my shoulder on the sofa.
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“Ross are we making a mind map” he chuckles looking at the post it notes, the collection of papers and journals. Closing my eyes after the pizza I rest back in what has to be the most sumptuous sofa, the fluffy blanket pulled around me as I lean just slightly into Jays side hearing him talk to Ross and chuckle every now and then.
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