Taylor's POV
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Walking along the English corridors is always a treat for me, the atmosphere and hearing the lecturers talk loudly about books is something I quite enjoy. Myself and Ross walk past the sash windows with views over the gardens, today they are coated in snow like a scene from a Christmas movie. The lecture hall doors are open just inviting students in to come and listen. I hover outside of his lecture with him as he stands against the wall watching me.
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“Would you like to just come in with me” he smiles and I look up at him.
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“Students do it all the time, people that are just interested in books” he says softly.
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“Can I” I say to him and he chuckles taking my hand and walking me into the lecture hall. Up to a seat near the back where he sits me down and grabs his books out of his bag. I sit back smiling over at him as he takes my hand in his own and faces the screen at the front.
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“Taylor” he whispers as I listen in on the analysis of Mr Darcy intensely.
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“Ross” I whisper back smiling over at him, he’s wearing a light blue jumper today and tan chinos, he looks soft and wonderful. He turns my head over to his and I smile up at him as he holds onto my jaw lightly, smiling at me with his true blue eyes.
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“You’re the most wonderful friend I have in my entire life” he whispers.
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“You’re my best friend ever too” I smirk and he blushes deliberating before letting me go and resting his hand on my thigh.
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The lecture flies by, I glance up at realising it’s almost five pm. Ross and I walk through the corridors again in the twilight as I gaze out over the gardens wondering about the character of Mr Darcy. How Elizabeth as a character excludes him at first due to his pride and awkwardness, yet how later on in the book she discovers his true character and they fall in love. Jay pops into my mind, like he usually does and I push him out. I’ve been refusing him, excluding him and demonising him in my mind for some time now. Rarely looking at him in public, and never ever being alone with him, at all costs.
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Ross greets Matthew in the parking lot as he pulls me into his embrace. I hug Matthew and whisper in his ear that I love him and I'll see him later.
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“I will drive safely” Ross promises Matthew before I climb into his car, an Aston Martin, I look over the plush interior and sit back feeling the heated seats warm my back.
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"Have you been to Jays before" Ross asks me as he drives through the snow carefully.
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"Once after we were admitted to hospital" I comment and he nods.
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"Fancy isn’t it" he says rolling his eyes and I chuckle.
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"He really gets on my nerves" I laugh back and he smiles.
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"I hadn't noticed" he laughs and strokes my thigh.
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He indicates onto the highway and I watch him silently. Our extended silences are never awkward for me. I enjoy his company because he's okay not talking and he doesn't feel like filling up any silences with mindless chatter. He glances over at me smiling and I giggle.
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"What?" I smile.
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"First time I've been truly alone with you in forever" he says laughing.
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“Without anybody else in the background” he says looking through his windshield.
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"You saved my life by the way" he says after a minute focusing on the road.
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"I'm sure that gives you every right to demand anything from me" he laughs looking over at me slowly.
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"I had to go back for you, after what we had just been talking about I got worried." I admit.
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"I'm sorry I caused you all of that panic" he says softly.
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"I haven't stopped thinking about you" he says looking out at the road.
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"I know you love him, I accept that you're with him. But I love you too, whether you have feelings for me or not. I'm here for everything and anything." He says looking out of the windshield, it catches me off guard entirely and I sob next to him in the car.
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"Hey I'm sorry, I don't want to make you cry” He says stroking my thigh lightly.
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"No it's just Ross I don't deserve you, I don't deserve this. Your loyalty. And your love" I tell him.
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"Taylor you saved my life so I'm pretty sure that you do. And you have it anyways" he laughs.
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"Don't worry about it. I'm here in any way you need me" he says looking back through the windscreen.
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I wipe my eyes, and pull down his interior mirror on the passenger side.
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“You always look beautiful” he smiles over at me as he parks inside of Jay’s drive, I notice his cars and a new car parked next to his usual Range Rover. A Ferrari, which I’m sure is not Jane’s. A female voice beeps us into the lobby, one I haven’t ever heard before, a soft voice of an older woman. The concierge greets us as we head into the large elevators that I remember.
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The doors ding open into Gilbert Scott’s large apartment, the lights are all on illuminating the room. I watch as Jay talks with an older lady, she is small and petite in size with the same shade of blonde hair as his. He looks upon her softly and I realise this must be his mother. His body language is entirely different when he is with her. Jane is sprawled out over the sofa with a glass of wine in a tracksuit, ignoring them.
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I walk my louboutin boots into the grande foyer which leads into the apartment and the lady who I assume to be Jays mother eyes me surprised looking up. Her eyes appraise my boots and she smiles slightly before looking back at him.
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“Taylor” she says softly extending her hand to me like a business woman would, she shakes my hand and I notice the bracelets on her wrist wondering how she knows my name.
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“I’m ever so sorry I don’t know your name” I say stumped but smiling all the same.
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“Claire Gilbert Scott, or Jay’s mom whichever you prefer” she explains smiling as Ross pulls my Barbour jacket off and hangs it up. Jay scoops his hair back with just the slightest hint of frustration on his face.
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“Lovely to meet you Claire” I say and she smiles pleased before eyeing Jane who has finished her wine.
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“It’s a nice print” she says back to me as I eye a new edition of art on the walls, my eyes rake over the image of a couple walking in the rain under an umbrella. Contrasting dark navy’s with pools of orange light for the street lamps, and the couple at the centre of the image seemingly deep in conversation as they walk through the rain.
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“It’s beautiful” I say softly and she eyes me happily, a smile reaching her eyes.
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“It's a print I bought a long time ago" Jay explains standing behind me.
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“I bought this when we were in Australia” he says clarifying with his mother and she nods watching the entire encounter.
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“I love how the dark contrasts with the light” I say feeling him behind me so close.
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“It’s my favourite too” he smiles as I turn around to face him. Having not looked into his piercing blue eyes for such a long time, I feel the intensity of them baring down into me. With just a hint of longing as he watches me. I stare at him totally transfixed before clearing my throat and smiling.
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“Well Jay, I’ll be expecting your confirmation on whether you’re going to be around for Christmas or not” his mother says smiling at him, and he laughs.
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“I’ll be there” he smiles down at her as she pulls a set of keys out of her bag and I recognise the Ferrari symbol on them.
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“Taylor” she says turning to me and appraising my long hair just briefly.
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“It was wonderful to have met you even just briefly” she smirks before looking up at him.
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“You too Jays mom” I smile over at her as she pulls him in for a hug before she leaves. I notice that she doesn’t bother with Jane as the doors close to the elevator. Ross has set the laptop up on the coffee table and I find myself standing in front of Jay watching him before either of us moves. The elevator dings closed and I jump slightly as he chuckles, he has an effect on me that’s for sure. And that is entirely why I refuse to look at him and have done for weeks.
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He clears his throat and I gaze over at Jane who is on the single leather chair flicking through the channels on the flat screen. She's turned on say yes to the dress and I cringe internally. I look away from her beige tracksuit and slippers and remove my high heeled boots.
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"Jay" Jane interrupts as he looks up from me.
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"Where's the wine" she moans.
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"You drank it all babe" he says walking toward her.
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"I did not." She laughs before eyeing the bottle and face palming.
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"I'll order some in" he laughs pulling his T-shirt over his head and sitting down on the leather chair as she stand up and sits down in his lap.
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"Tay do you wanna share some wine" she asks me.
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"Actually I'm all good but you enjoy" I tell her.
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"Do you watch this?" She asks as I sit down next to Ross who moves his arm up so it's around my shoulder.
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“No” I comment and she laughs. Ignoring Jane may be the best option from now on.
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“We need to edit this section here” Ross tells me as I tuck my legs in next to him.
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“I’m hungry” Jane comments and I look up at her before Ross brushes my thigh sensing my annoyance.
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"On it" Jay say’s eyeing me briefly before heading into the kitchen.
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“I’m going to make sure that the food is edible” I laugh and Ross smirks as I pace out into the kitchen remembering entirely where it is from my last visit here.
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“I do have wine” Jay laughs as I stand in the doorway watching him.
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“You want a proper drink or juice?" He says watching me as I smile.
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“She needs to slow down” he comments and I eye him silently.
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I walk over to him slowly and he watches my every move, his eyes taking in my legs as I come to stand next to him.
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“It’s been so long Taylor” he says softly before he puts his hand slowly down on my hip.
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“You’ve literally starved me of your attention” he whispers and I just watch him not saying a word.
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“No I’ve allowed you to move on” I say softly as he stares at me.
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“Like that was going to happen” he whispers.
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“Your mom knows my name” I say softly and he looks down at me wondering what to say.
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“Because when you meet a girl like yourself, it’s something to tell your mom about” he explains softly.
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I lean against the counter top and he stands in between my legs, grabbing some oranges from behind me, he peels them and it’s oddly sexy. He places them in his juicer and turns it on and I just watch him.
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“I can honestly order takeout we don’t have to cook, you’re a guest” he says watching me.
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"Jay it's a crime having a state of the art kitchen and not being able to cook" I tell him smirking.
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"I’ll be honest I'm rubbish at it. I need somebody who can cook" he laughs slightly.
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"To cook for you all day long and make you dinner" I smile at him.
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"No, so that I can learn from them, miss judgey" he scowls taking his phone out before eyeing the juice.
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"Jane can't cook?" I whisper as he stands in front of me.
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"No, they all just want to take advantage of my generosity" he says ordering me to sit down on a stool. I climb up on the velvet chair and he eyes my legs as I cross them over one another.
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"They don't want to give you anything back" I say and I should shut up, if I’m honest he excites me beyond belief. He’s totally commanding and honestly beautiful.
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"Nothing babe" he says looking into my eyes, and leaning into me.
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"I am the used one in all of my relationships" he laughs.
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"I very much expect you get something from the girls you date" I say quietly.
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"Nothing like what you could give me" he says daringly and he winks at me.
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"Shame I'm taken then isn't it" I chuckle biting my lip.
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"So am I babe" he says.
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I look down and avoid his eyes staring at his chest, the nipple ring and the way his blonde hair collects by his shoulders.
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"Taylor, if you ever want..." he begins and I take my finger and place it on his lips to shh him. The blender stops and he watches me. He kisses my finger smiling and I just watch him captivated. Placing one hand swiftly on my hip he then moves my finger away from his face with his other. I clear my throat.
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"Don't worry I won't do anything" he says releasing me and staring into my eyes. I slide off of the stool as he pours the orange juice and hands me it. Jay gets Ross beer and begins walking towards the door as I pull myself together staring at the kitchen island and wondering.
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"Okay babe?" he asks as I drag myself out of my trance. Pregnancy has made me majorly horny, before I stop my mind racing I imagine him bending me over the kitchen counter and doing unthinkable things to me.
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"What were you thinking about just now" he turns fully around and puts the glasses down on the side.
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"I'm not about to tell you" I say laughing.
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"Wait there don't move" he says spontaneously as he watches me biting my lip.
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He paces through the hall to the living space and I face the counter willing myself to leave the room and not follow his orders like I always do. Just as I'm about to walk out he returns without the beer and wine glasses, brushing his hair back.
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"So tell me what was playing on your mind just now whilst you were zoning out biting your gorgeous lips" he says closing the door.
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"Jay..." I begin he turns the blender on with nothing in it and smirks.
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“Nobody can hear us” he smiles and I laugh at his logic.
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"You're a bad girl aren't you Taylor" he says whispering to me again as he stands by me, both hands rested either side of me on the counter.
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"What is it you want me to do to you ?" He wonders watching my lips.
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"I think this is about what you want to do to me Jay" I whisper back to him.
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"Me? I'd happily tell you. I have already over and over again. I've told you what I want with you. You however have not" he explains.
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"Well the last time I told you, you made out with me" I tell him.
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"Okay, I promise I won't touch you or kiss you. Just tell me" he says eyes baring down into my own.
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"I was thinking about this kitchen counter" I say to him.
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"Just the kitchen counter?" He whispers, eyes transfixed on me.
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"I was thinking about you bending me over the kitchen counter" I say quietly as his grey blue eyes stare at me. A wry smile pulls over his lips as he exhales. I'm sure I've managed to shock him.
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"Bloody hell, please. Even it's just like a one off although please don't get me wrong, I want it to be a long term thing. We don't have to tell anybody if you prefer. But please let me lift up your dress and worship your body Taylor. I'm literally begging you just to consider it before you go off and end up marrying Matthew" he says and then waits for me to respond.
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I raise my hand and lightly stroke his hair back involuntarily he breathes out a sigh of relief. I move my hand down his cheek, over his lips. He lightly kisses my fingers. I continue down his chest and over his nipple ring. He opens his eyes and he smiles.
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“What are you doing to me Taylor” he whispers.
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"You're tense Jay" I say and I move my hands around his hips to massage his lower back.
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"If you're having sex with somebody you shouldn't be this tense and worked up" I tell him keeping his eyes on my own. Gilbert Scott places one hand on the back of my neck possessively. Lightly he pulls my neck back as if he's going to kiss me but he doesn't.
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"That is definitely a yes" he says slowly.
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“You want me too” He smiles triumphantly before releasing my neck. I count up and down in my head, all the way up to ten and back again. Telling myself to get out. Reminding myself of the twin babies in my tummy. Telling myself that if I kiss him, or indeed let him kiss me then it’s all over. Four weeks of avoiding him would be all for nothing.
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He switches the juicer off and smirks.
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“You do that too huh” he smiles.
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“What” I say to him defensively.
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“Count in your head to regain your self control” he smiles and I blush.
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“I’m in total control” I smirk.
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“One day Taylor, I’m going to take over all of your control and posses you entirely” he laughs and I gulp before he removes his body from my own and we walk back out into the living area.
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