Taylors POV
~past tense~
March
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University flies by, I spend the day with Jay. Ross settles his gaze on me in psychology, Jay's arm around my shoulder as I listen into the lecture. After we arrived together, Jay had picked me up from dance and walked me into the lecture hall telling me jokes the entire way. Ross' face was clouded with concern, yet clearly he knew better than to say a word.
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"Hey would you like to go out for lunch" Jay asks me, we've been walking through the halls lost in conversation. I finally look up at him and he's smiling, his Ralph jumper tied around his neck loosely makes me laugh.
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"I would really like that" I tell him. Confidently taking my hand in his he guides me towards the parking lot and we hop into the Audi together. As I gaze at him driving towards town I realise that I am utterly addicted to his company. I prejudged him before, thinking that he was cold and stand off-ish. That's not the case at all, actually he is very easy going, the way he brushes his hair back makes me smile and his grin tells me that he is happy spending time with me.
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Jay takes me to a local Italian restaurant, I appreciate the small little venue and its open fire. The charm in the decoration and mostly the scent of proper authentic Italian food.
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"You can't see it can you?" I say to him after the waitress leaves our table finally.
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"What" he says defensively stroking his hair back.
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"Completely oblivious" I sigh as he winks at me leaning into me.
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"I am not interested in other women" he whispers and I giggle.
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The waitress brings my pasta and his pizza lingering as if to just soak up his beauty before she leaves.
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"So what's the verdict ? As good as your arrabatia" he smiles looking over at me.
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"No, I'll cook it for you " I say spooning some into his mouth holding my hand under the fork so as not to drop it all over his pizza.
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"Then you can see the difference" I smile as he eats it. He keeps my eye contact the whole time he's so confident.
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"I like it, but yours will be better" he says once he's finished his mouthful.
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"It's nice, it needs more... love" I say to him and he laughs.
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"Love?" He asks.
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"Yes you've got to love what you do and then it will turn out great" I say smiling as he listens eagerly. We eat quietly and I marvel at how he doesn't look messy even eating pizza.
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"Want to come over Saturday, we can watch a movie or go out?" He asks eyeing me as I try to delicately eat my pasta without putting him off.
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"Definitely is that date number two" I ask to clarify reminding myself of our conversation that we had about when it's appropriate to ask a girl to stay at your house and we agreed date number two.
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"It is date number three, this totally counts as two" he laughs and I giggle.
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"Pizza and pasta dates are always the best kind of dates" he explains and I nod agreeing.
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"I would love to come over" I smile up at him.
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"Is there anything in particular you want to do?" He asks as if he's never done this before. Never had a date with a girl where he's actually interested in what she likes.
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"I want to cook this for you and then watch a movie, besides we may be a little bit hungover after tonight" I say smiling up at him.
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"Oh yeah I forgot about that, what time would you like me to pick you up for the party later" he says glancing up from his food.
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"Around 8?" I suggest.
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"I'll take Ross too it's no problem" he laughs and I smile over at him.
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"What" he asks looking self conscious.
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"I don't know you just make me smile" I say feeling corny as ever.
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"You too babe, especially when you say stuff like that to me" he says and he reaches his hand across the table to grasp mine.
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"Why is it you're like a completely different person to who you were before" I say smiling holding onto his hand.
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"I mean like before you were hot but you were not friendly with me, and now it's like I can't not smile at you" I explain.
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"Because I was a dick" he says smiling.
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"You kind of were" I say laughing and he gasps, mock surprise.
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"Yeah I wanted you so bad Taylor. I played so many stupid games, thinking it would somehow work out for me. I was an idiot" he admits.
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"What made you continually stick with me when I was unimaginably awful" he asks laughing.
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"I knew you were a good guy really" I say holding onto him.
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"Plus you're pretty hot too" I laugh.
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"That helps" I tell him and he smiles.
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"You wanna bunk the rest of the day?" He winks at me, his eyes glow like he's just had an idea. He's impulsive and exciting and I find that I love that about him. Everyday is a continuous adventure.
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"Yes" I smile and he grins.
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"Okay, I'll go pay" he smiles and I release his hand.
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"And then we can go somewhere else" he explains before sauntering off to the counter.
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Jay returns with one of the sweets from the counter which he hands me before I hold onto his hand and we leave the Italian restaurant together.
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As he cruises the car down the highway I watch him. I would be lying to say that being driven around in an Audi by an older guy who looks like a model isn't something I'm enjoying massively. The more time I spend with him, the more I want him to be with me.
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"Taylor you're giving me that look a lot today" he smiles over at me and I realise I am staring.
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"Sorry" I smile over at him.
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"No keep doing it" he says rubbing my thigh.
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I laugh gazing out of the window realising that something is happening between us, something which could lead to us being together. Feelings intensifying, I gaze at him again.
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"Where are we going?" I ask him softly.
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"It's a surprise" he says winking at me.
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The weather is mild today, the sunshine filters into the black out windows and I marvel at how we're already in March. Almost the start of spring and all things new. The green leaves adorning the trees making me feel alive as we breeze past a forest I don't know.
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"We are going somewhere I love, that I have never ever taken anyone too" he says smiling over at me his hair pushed back by the breeze.
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"Oh interesting" I say smiling at him and trying to work out where he may be taking me.
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After some more driving into what feels like the wilderness we park up in a small unmarked car park. We get out of the car and he looks into the trees. Looks like we're hiking. I laugh looking down at my shoes. Heeled boots, that will just about survive this terrain, I mentally tell myself to have a spare pair of trainers around Jay at all times.
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"Here" he pulls off his jumper as it's cooler and I take it.
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"Paths flat you'll be fine" he laughs and I roll my eyes.
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I pull his jumper on and he stares down at me, lifting my chin and kissing my lips, before he locks up the car.
We start walking, me closely behind him. It's sunny and the trees are beginning to get ready for spring already. There's lots of wild flowers which I love, everything is just natural not overly pruned or kept.
Bluebells and blossoms, I delicately walk around it all while trying to not step on anything. He smiles back at me and grasps my hand before we start walking together.
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"We will have to come back again when it's warmer, Then you can see how it all changes with the seasons" he smiles, as if he's reading my thoughts.
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The sound of water flowing nearby echoes through the trees and for some reason I get excited like a kid going to the beach and waiting to see the sea.
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He guides me through the trees, into an opening which a lake runs through. I gasp taking in the views over the river, watching the water flow, with the backdrop of the trees and flowers. There's a small bridge which I want to cross and small benches for people to sit on.
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"Jay this place is magical" I say feeling like a five year old.
"It's quiet and beautiful and different" I smile hugging him into me as he chuckles.
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"I'm glad I remembered where it was, would have been a bit rubbish if I couldn't find it" He laughs looking down at me. Fuelled by his stare I pull him into me and kiss him as he wraps his arms over my waist.
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"When I was younger we lived in so many different places. We had a home here, but my mum and dad moved around quite a bit for work. Often staying with me for months in different places. And whenever I came back I used to come here with them" he says softly.
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"We weren't outdoors people but here we all liked" he smiles. I stare at him enjoying this new insight into his life. Something that is so mysterious and enigmatic about him is his relationships with both his mom and dad and I enjoy learning about him and his childhood.
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"There's that look again" he smiles brushing a finger over my lips.
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"What does it mean?" he asks out loud laughing and I giggle. I smile broadly and take his hand as we walk past the lake along the marked path.
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"It's just in my head you've changed as a person. You feel different to me, I see you differently. And I keep smiling because I like the changes" I say glancing up at him.
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We keep walking, hand in hand. And I reflect how nice it is to spend time with him, just us together. Without any interruptions or distractions. In a place that is special to him, somewhere nobody else has seen.
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"My mum used to tell me when I was small that fairies lived here, and when I didn't want to leave and go home they would come out from there hiding spots. My dad used to get exasperated, he just expected me to do as I was told, but my mum always had a way of reaching me. And of course as I got older I didn't believe in fairies anymore but because she always made things nice for me, I always just did as she said" he laughs and I chuckle.
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"You love your mum, I can tell from the way you talk about her." I say stroking his arm lightly.
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"I do love her." He says softly looking over at the water. He pauses assessing the situation before speaking again.
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"I've never felt like this with somebody before. I always imagined that somebody would come along that my mum liked and I would just be with them because she approved. I didn't ever really consider meeting somebody that I would actually want to take to my mum, you know?" He says looking out over the water.
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"I don't normally do this Taylor, take girls places or even talk to them really" he laughs looking at me and I smile.
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"I know you don't. Even though before you were being such an ass, and I was mad at you all of the time. I was still consumed by my thoughts of you" I tell him, enthralled by the mention of meeting his mom.
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"When you came back after New Years I didn't know how to be around you at all because you literally told me you loved me and then Ross was there being Ross. And I kept thinking no this is my only chance" he smiles rubbing my hand.
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"I do love you, Taylor." He says looking at me.
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"I'm not just saying that, and it's like nothing I've ever felt before. I'm happy just spending time with you like this until" he begins, thinking I'm going to knock him back.
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"I love you" I say looking up at him and he almost gasps. I gaze up at the trees and the sky which is turning ever so slightly darker. The stars beginning to come out as the day begins to shift into night.
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"I do Jay, you were so maddening, even before when you were with Jane I was so angry because I wanted you. And that's pathetic I know. Even when you were with Rach I kept convincing myself I had no business being involved with you." I laugh wiping my wet eyes. He kisses me and I gasp, as he wipes my eyes and pulls me into him.
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"You love me?" He says surprised, between kisses.
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"Yes" I tell him kissing him back fervently.
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"I'm going to do this properly" he says breaking away and staring into my eyes.
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"I can tell that this moment in my life is special. This is an opportunity Taylor and I'm not going to ruin it like I do with every single girl I've ever been with" he says his fingertips holding onto my chin.
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"Would you be mine?" He asks, innocence and charm all rolled into one. A look of insecurity on his face that makes me long to reassure him. He watches me anticipating my answer and I smile. Adventure and longing and love fill my mind and I tell him yes.
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"I will be yours" I say and he picks me up, holding me under my bum as I wrap my legs around him and he kisses me before the backdrop of the lake. My Jay, My Mr Southern Viking and My forever.
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