Jay's POV
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Counting in my head has become a coping mechanism for me, it all started a very long time ago when I found it hard to hold my anger in place. So as I drive us down to the lake house, I'm counting up and down from twenty. To stop myself from asking Taylor just what Matthew said to her and how he might have tried to convince her to be with him. Painfully imagining his hands on her body, seeing him kissing her in my mind. Having to physically control my thoughts from driving over to his and punching him in the jaw or breaking his wandering hands.
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Hands that he placed upon her, pulling her into his embrace as I opened the door to her room earlier. It flashes through my mind and I curse myself for getting worked up over it. I glance over at her as she looks out of the windshield at the passing trees and wonder about her feelings. My hands grip onto the wheel, just thinking about her relationship with Matthew, how he came along before me. And how he will always have that over me. As much as I'm riled up, practically seething as I drive us home I cling onto the fact that I have her, and that I will not lose her.
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The second I kill the engine and the car shuts down, the lights flicking off in our underground garage we climb out of the car. I grasp her bags from the trunk worrying myself that this is the end for us, the beginning of her distancing herself from me. Eventually she will have had enough of my behaviour and fall back into Matthew's arms. As I push the button to close the trunk Taylor crosses the distance between us, unleashing her lips on me almost immediately. I let go of the bags and they fall to the floor. I hadn't realised the tension in my jaw and shoulders until I let it all drop, surrendering myself to her and how she stands on her tip toes kissing me and giving me her all. All of my tension disperses as I lift her up in my arms carrying her through to the house. Up the steps that lead to the back door through the kitchen.
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"Mmm" she gasps as I kiss her lips whilst holding onto her body. Flicking the light on in the kitchen with one hand as I walk through the tiled floor into the hall.
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"I need you Taylor" I gasp walking her up the stairs and over the first floor landing to the double doors of our bedroom. The four poster bed awaiting us, as I place her body down on the white sheets. Moonlight streams through onto her skin as I look down at her before removing her clothes, one piece at a time.
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"I need you, Jay" she gasps as I pull my shirt off standing over the bed, my eyes intent on her. I pull my trousers off as she props herself up on her elbows. Thrusting into her instantly as her head rocks back and she sighs.
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"How much do you need me Taylor" I ask her softly as she opens her eyes and looks into my own. I've set things into place today for us. For our future, it's the ultimate surprise and should she choose to take that step with me I will be elated.
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"I need all of you forever" she sighs as I pull out of her briefly.
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"Jay" she gasps and I smile down at her.
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"Taylor" I smile back as she sits up watching me closely. Manoeuvring herself on the bed to kneel in front of me as I stroke her hair back and she kisses me down below. I gasp instantly as she takes me fully in her mouth.
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"Baby" I sigh feeling myself almost explode, she looks up at me through her lashes and my whole body reacts to her.
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"I need you Jay" she smiles looking up at me.
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"I'm sorry" she says before kissing me again and closing her mouth around me. It’s clear that she’s alluding to being alone with Matthew, he knew that he could try it on in my absence. Taylor had been pretty drunk too and I suspect he just felt he could have his way with her.
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"Please Taylor let me have sex with you" I gasp uncontrollably. Finally she releases me and I waste no time climbing on the bed scooping her body up and possessing her instantly. My eyes boring down into her own, my lips entwined with hers. Mine I tell my self as she moans underneath me.
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"You don't need to be sorry" I whisper holding her closely my eyes watching her, my body possessing hers.
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"I should have said something before I left" I whisper pulsing into her as she whimpers and I watch her closely. Her head swings back revealing her neck and chest which I cover in kisses.
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"I just wanted to make everything a surprise, but I get it" I whisper almost to myself as I watch her writhe underneath me. Lesson learned; keep Taylor close at all times.
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"What's the surprise" she whispers opening her eyes again and looking into my own.
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"That would ruin the surprise" I smirk upping my game and increasing my thrusts.ces
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"Jay" she gasps and I smile watching the effect I'm having on her body.
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"Taylor" I whisper as she looses all control.
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"I'm going to make you mine forever" I gasp as we breathlessly let go together. My head rested in her neck and my hands clasping her chest.
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"Forever" she smiles up at me as I kiss her lips delicately.
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"Mhmm forever" I tell her softly climbing over to the other side and pulling her into my chest. My mind goes through all of the things I left in the drive; her bags which include her belongings and clothes and I decide I need to get dressed and retrieve them once she's comfortable and resting.
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"What does forever look like for us" she smiles laying on her back before giggling. Her shiny eyes glance up at the top of the four poster bed before settling back on me.
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"Forever looks like, you and me living here. Cooking together every night, kissing each other under the stars in the boat, going on trips around the world together, making love to you all the time. And me calling you Mrs Gilbert Scott, and eventually..." I begin smiling as she watches me captivated.
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"Eventually we conceive a little baby" I say rubbing her waist, her hair flowing down her back as she watches my hand.
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"Is that something you would like Taylor" I whisper as she turns her blue eyes on me and smiles.
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"Would you like me to place a ring on your finger someday and mean every sense of the word forever" I whisper as she watches me utterly captivated.
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"Yes" she replies breathlessly before I stroke her face lightly with my fingertips. Pulling her slender frame into me as she wraps her arms around me. My worries and anxieties melt away in the knowledge that she wants what I so desperately need from this relationship. Even my anger over Matthew dissipates as I hold her into my chest, sure of my place in our future. Watching her as she smiles and falls asleep in my arms.
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“I’m going to go and get the bags” I whisper in her ear as she drifts off, she protests holding me into her before I smile climbing out of the bed and pace over to the large oak painted double doors of the bedroom.
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Slipping down the hall and taking the stairs quickly so that I can get back to her faster. The sweeping marble staircase leads to the hall, the kitchen illuminated by the large chandeliers as I take the door to the garage. Jogging down the steps into the dark garage I notice the bags strewn on the floor and smile reminding myself of the intensity of Taylor’s passion when she kissed me earlier. I turn my attention to setting the security alarm, before heading over to the bags.
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It’s only as I approach them, the grey hold-all I realise is slightly unzipped where it is so packed with clothes. Unzipping it in order to push some of the clothes down before I carry it up, laying on the top of the pile is a small piece of paper. Crumpled as if it’s been unfolded and folded back up again many times. Scrawl written on the front of the paper in handwriting that I recognise and a small ring box next to it.
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My mind whirls as I look down at the sheet of lined paper and consider reading it, tapping my fingers on the ring box and deliberating before I open the small jewellery box quickly to check inside. The ring that glares back at me, I recognise from a time where Taylor was with Matthew. A ring that conjures up a whole host of unwanted emotions in me; having to see her engaged to him whilst I needed her so desperately. A ring she wore for years whilst she held him in her arms instead of me. A slightly smaller ring lays next to it, an eternity band.
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Closing the box as it clicks shut with a soft thud and I scramble for the note attached to it. I open up the sheets of paper, scanning the words and seeing that Matthew has signed it off with his name at the end. Leaning back on the car as I read his apology to her over and over again, it goes over their entire relationship from the beginning. They had clearly almost conceived a baby early on before I had even met Taylor. He romanticises the entire thing and imagines where they would have been should they have conceived that baby. He mentions the bet with Ross and how he felt when she took him back. The elation he experienced when she told him she would marry him.
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The way he felt when she wore his ring every single day, and all of the times that he took that for granted. The happiness they both experienced seeing their baby twins on a scan and how he still has the womb picture on his mantelpiece.
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He mentions me and my involvement in her life, specifically after she miscarried the babies. He tells her that I was her rock when he couldn’t show up to life because of the misery he felt at loosing them. And even though my jealousy is through the roof, I can sense the pain he experienced through the words he has so carefully strewn together.
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Ending the note by telling her that she will be wearing his ring again someday and urging her to keep hold of it. Before professing unconditional love for her and signing off his name.
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I rest my head back on the cool exterior of the car and exhale, folding the note back up and placing it alongside the ring box. I zip the bag up slowly and rub my face in my hands wondering whether Taylor put the note and ring in this bag or whether Matthew packed it. It makes a difference. Could she be holding onto his ring and his words in the event that something bad happens between us? I had the feeling earlier that she thought I would just up and leave her, that I would move onto somebody else quickly which just is not the case. She fell into Matthew’s arms earlier in the knowledge that I would hurt her and I must never ever give him that opportunity again.
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