Taylor's POV
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The surrounding area by the lake house and even the roads are full of natural outstanding beauty, from the way the sun rises over the lake in the distance to the lush green trees that frame the roads. Jay and I have university today, and so as he cruises through the lanes towards the main interstate I sit next to him in a small white skirt and black camisole, I matched the outfit with tan sandals that have a small heel.
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"We'll be on time" he smiles at me as I sip my coffee, utterly relaxed from our weekend spent together.
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"Here" I smile passing him his coffee cup as he drives one handed and sips at his espresso.
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"Jay" I say slowly looking over at him, his expression grows concerned before I give him a reassuring smile. Since we moved in together at the lake house, his show of material worth has astounded me. The cars and the luxurious lifestyle he can afford bewildered me at first however since I've let it settle in my mind it's been nagging at me that he may feel I am only into him because of his material worth and possessions.
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"I feel like you can give me more than I can give you and I don't want you to think that I am taking advantage. I love you and I would love you no matter what" I explain softly, it's important to me that he knows that I love him for who he is. Jay, wearing his white T-shirt and tan chinos gives me a look which I'm growing to love. The one that says he loves me unconditionally. We're practically unintentionally colour coordinated today with our outfit choices, we even look like we belong together.
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"Taylor you give me everything by being here" he says softly as he parks the car at dorms, pulling into the drive and killing the engine. Before he turns to face me and grasps my chin delicately in his hands.
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"I cannot stop kissing you" he giggles between passionate kisses which he places on my lips. His strong hands rested on my hip bones as he leans over slightly.
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"I love you" I gasp as he pulls my mouth into his again for just one more sweet kiss. Jay smiles and releases me, I open my eyes slowly and follow his stare to the porch where Matthew and Ross stand shirtless smoking and trying not to stare at us. Assuming there was a party here yesterday evening I giggle slightly at their lack of clothing.
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"Looks like a wild night" Jay laughs as a few girls walk out of the house, looking worse for wear as if they haven't had the time to brush their hair. Party dresses on and heels tucked under their elbows, as they walk bare feet over the lawn to their own dorm.
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"I'm so glad we spent the weekend away" I giggle as he strokes my thigh before we climb out of the Audi.
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"He's not used to seeing you with me, but he will be" Jay snickers quietly in my ear nipping at me as he does. He means Matthew of course and he's entirely right. I watch Matthew's eyes practically burn from the intensity of his stare and I look back down at my painted toe nails as we approach the porch. The sunlight beams overhead as Jay's hand finds my own. Clasping at my hip with his other hand as we walk looking like two lovebirds.
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"Hey guys" I smirk when we reach the porch.
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"Hey" they both say in time and laugh at each other. I smirk glad the tension has somewhat dispersed.
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"Here's your ticket" Ross smiles handing me a shiny slip of card, alongside a booklet full of images and information on the show we're going to see together.
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"Thankyou" I say gratefully flicking through the pamphlet and smiling at all of the images of actors and actresses in costume.
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"What are you guys seeing" Matthew says as I glance up at him giving him my eye contact before looking back at Ross.
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"We're seeing Wuthering heights" Ross says warmly and I nod.
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"We sure are" I say somewhat awkwardly as I pull Jay into me just a fraction closer.
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"Why weren't you out this weekend" Ross asks directly as he glances at Jay.
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"Not usual for you to miss a party" he chuckles shaking his head before he pushes his blonde hair back.
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"We were busy" Jay replies speaking for the both of us. It's no secret now that we are exclusive to one another and therefore we do all of the things that couples do including spending the entire weekend together.
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"What did we miss?" I say looking up as the door swings open and Rachel and Nate waltz out arm in arm.
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"Well they're together again" Ross laughs looking over his shoulder as Rachel pouts at him. A black tight mini dress hugs her frame as she stands under the sun with Nate. He drapes his tattooed arm around her slender frame and sparks up a cigarette. Wearing a leather jacket, his black hair pushed back revealing his jawline and piercing eyes.
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"Your shirts, they were on the sofas" she laughs handing Matthew his button up shirt and Ross his t shirt. They pull them on an I avert my eyes. Ny bet is that they played a drinking game that involved taking off their clothes.
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"Happy for you Rachel" I say genuinely giving her a grin as she winks at me. Nate and I haven't always seen eye to eye, to say the least, however perhaps we can set aside our differences and tolerate one another.
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"Was a wild party and you missed a lot" she smiles at me as I give her the tell me all look. Although nobody knows that Jay and I are living together, we will be moving everything out by the end of the month. I haven't gone through my things yet, the most personal items that remind me of my past relationship with Matthew are still in a cardboard box for me to unpack. I glance up at him briefly and he watches me intently before I look over at Rachel.
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"I'm sure I missed a whole load" I smile back at her before we walk in step towards the main campus. The sun beating down on my bare back around the straps of my camisole which I'm sure will leave a tan line. The guys walk behind us, and when I glance over my shoulder at Jay he winks at me cheekily breaking off his conversation with Ross and Matthew. I begin to wonder how Nate is managing this heat in a leather jacket before I turn my focus back on Rachel.
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"Nate huh!?" I say to her raising my eyebrows.
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"Hey I didn't judge you when you got with bad guy Viking back there" she laughs.
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"You did" I laugh and she smirks.
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"I merely warned you" she says defensively when I eye her with a mock shocked expression. She had verbally warned me about Jay several times.
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"Plus I had reason to warn you Jay used to be an absolute dog" she sighs.
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"And I will always be here to warn you back. I'm just being a good friend" I say and she nods.
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"Oh I know but I like him" she whines and I giggle before giving her a hug and walking over to Jay for our psychology lecture. He makes a show of wrapping his arms around me before saying goodbye to the others.
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Sitting through a two hour lecture, and remaining focused with Jay next to me is next to impossible. He flirts with me the entire time, with his eyes and wondering hands that occasionally brush my thigh. I find myself just staring at him and how his shirt rides up as he lounges back in his seat. I must be watching him hungrily as when his eyes meet mine he smirks.
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"At break ?" He whispers in my ear leaning into me.
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"Jay I want you to take me back to my bedroom" I whisper back blushing as he giggles slightly. Ross eyes me warily, a look of concern falling over his face. The lecture wraps up and Jay and I stand up, turning to Ross with Jay's arms draped around my waist
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"What have you got next" Ross asks as I begin following him out of the racks of seats. Assuming Jay will follow us I push my way through the other students reaching my hand back for Jay. Shocked when I cannot feel him behind me, I check for him as I glance over my shoulder and I can't spot him. A young guy with lots of facial piercings looks up at me with a quizzical expression wondering why I'm staring behind me in shock. Quickly I duck out of the way to let him pass before scanning the room for Jay.
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I can make out his blonde wavy hair from afar, as Ross stands next to me looking up to the top of the hall. Jay is lounging against the wall, near the top doors speaking with another student. A young girl with blonde hair, a similar shade to his own. Wearing a cropped shirt and shorts she stands facing him. A small smile on her face which tells me she is already acquainted with him. I briefly brainstorm who mystery blonde girl could be, and try to work out why his behaviour has suddenly changed. It's in the way he smiles at her, how he is intrigued by their conversation.
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"He'll catch us up?" Ross says unsure as he brushes my arm. I look over at him, his expression full of care.
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"He didn't mention anything" I say slightly shocked looking back at him before he walks out of the hall behind the petite blonde girl and away from us. Rationally I tell myself that Jay is older than me, he has attended this university for a year longer than myself and so it's natural that he may have other friends that I do not know. Mystery blonde girls that make me insecure.
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"Come on" Ross says carefully, perhaps he assumes I will pursue Jay with a verbal assault for leaving me so abruptly. He pulls my arm gently and guides me down the now empty steps. My mind wanders to Jays expressions when he talked to the blonde girl, the look of knowing on his face. I think of our entire weekend, how I've put all of my hopes into him and how he has just walked off without a single word. Surely I tell myself he would not invite me to move in with him, let me so far into his life and then up and leave for the hell of it. I think of how we matched our names together and talked of forever and tell myself not to be paranoid.
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"Want me to walk you to wherever it is you're going" Ross whispers grasping at my hand as I walk forward slightly shocked.
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"I have no more lectures so I'm heading to dorms" I say slightly numbly.
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"I'm bunking English" he begins warily watching me as he pushes the doors open and guides me out back into the sunshine.
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"So I feel like it's been ages" Ross says glancing down at me as we walk back through campus.
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"Actually I guess you're right it has been a while since we caught up" I mutter still thinking about Jay and our forever. All of our promises and how one moment of insecurity could ruin it all.
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"What's new?" I ask somewhat more confidently, just praying that Ross will turn to me and tell me he's met a girl that he likes. That he's over me, and that I no longer complicate his life. I glance at his soft expression and see no falter in his loyalty to me.
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"Not much ohh I'm booked for a tattoo next week" he smiles raking his blonde hair back with his hands before he lights up a cigarette.
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"Wow nice what're you getting?" I ask smiling at him.
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"I'm getting some tribal stuff over my leg scar" he says quietly as I look up at him and the way the sun shines over his tan skin and blonde hair. Remembering the accident instantly, where he fell off of his bike and I found him in the snow. The accident that bound our lives together.
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"That's awesome" I smile encouragingly.
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"You wanna come along when I get it done, it's before the show. I'm nervous" he smirks and I laugh out loud.
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"Sure" I say smiling as he goes for my hand, grasping at it in a way that tells me he wants to hold onto me. Fortunately I turn to glance at him at the same time and our hands do not intertwine with one another. I saved his life and at one point I was in love with him irrevocably. Of course Ross saved mine right back when I lived with him after Matthew and I split. He put me back together. And because of our history we have never had good solid physical contact boundaries. I need to start putting those boundaries in place.
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"I miss you" he says eyeing me in the sunshine as we stand outside of my dorm.
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"You do?" I whisper.
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"I miss you in my life, in my home. Every party I go to I look for you" he says softly as I glance over his shoulder spotting Matthew approaching us. Pulling my phone out in the hope that Jay has messaged me, I text Rachel and tell her to get her butt back to dorms so that I'm not on my own with both of my ex boyfriends. No messages from Jay adds to my growing paranoia, the hurt and confusion swells inside of me as I look up at Matthew and he smiles.
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"Lunch I'll cook" I say to them both as they follow me into the dorm house.
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