
當我盧仔再次上洗手間的時候,都會看清楚門牌上的「Gentleman」的英文字,才敢進入學校的「男」洗手間去:男女在某些事情上是不會有平等的?儘管內急,但依然要小心為尚,先行看清楚室內四周的一切設備,確定是男洗手間才敢走進廁格方便去。
然而……
然而……
然而……
真的有點像「墨菲定律」------就是說要出錯的,始終會出錯?當我舒暢了、方便了以後,一打開廁格的門;卻發現了幽小魂背向著我,但一臉緋紅的她卻倒映在鏡子的面前來。
「盧仔……」
幽小魂面向鏡子卻對著倒映在鏡子上的我,幽幽地說話:
「盧仔,你可以……可以放下張吉蒂(Kitty Cheung) 嗎?」
「我……你……」
我,根本不知道在此時此刻如何反應;幽小魂的心事?但願理解也願意……可是,突然之間,鏡子的倒影一變而為吉蒂,怎麼會這樣子?
「盧仔,你忘記了我嗎?你說過……一生一世的……」
「吉蒂,你回來了嗎?但我沒有說過……一生一世的……」
突然,那個女生轉過身來,忽地是幽小魂的臉龐,卻又忽地是張吉蒂的面孔,閃爍不定地在我的眼前去復往還,把我逼迫得只好走回廁格的裡面去,並且把門關上,我肯定是發噩夢;但卻也幽美的,兩個美少女的美麗臉孔,依舊在我的眼前揮之不去!
睜開眼睛,全身冷汗,下身濕濕的;我在黑暗中簡單清潔,把骯髒的處理後,穿上外套、褲子,因為始終夜涼如水!到書桌前來開窗、開燈,外面依然漆黑一片,夜中很寧靜,我想起了吉蒂她們是怎麼樣學習英文,其實端賴2E班的英文科老師Miss Fok;她是一個慈祥而幽雅的中年女士,她的金絲眼鏡下的高雅儀容,一口流行利的英式腔調------是她自己說的,我們2E班同學又怎麼會曉得分辨英式的、美式的?
曾幾何時,英文科老師Miss Fok為我們2E班的同學的改上了英文名字,最經典是如風的Windy、阿水的Walter!女班長則叫Thresa、高個子叫Vincent……反而,吉蒂較為容易,Kitty是也;王嘉明呢?是「Elise」,至於我盧仔,不會真的是Donkey吧?其實,因為盧仔太深入2E班的同學們的心中,反而忘了我的英文名字,並順便改我的渾名:「Donkey」!
英文科老師Miss Fok教我們聽歌學英文,尤其係學習Tenses;最記得是吉蒂Kitty買了一架小型的錄音機,把卡式錄音帶放進去,戴上有線耳筒。這時候的她陶醉在樂韻之中,你知道嘛?十四歲少女最美的臉容及姿態,都盡在吉蒂Kitty的身上來。
有一次,吉蒂Kitty跑來向我說:
「盧仔,聽聽這一首歌,旋律及調子都是很動聽的哩!」
「歌名是什麼?」
吉蒂把一邊的耳筒塞進我的耳朵裡去,我就問她歌名;只見她想了一會兒,笑了一下,說:
「歌名?都忘了,反正很動聽!」
究竟,是什麼英文歌?直到她退學離校後,我方才記得這樣的一首英文歌,翻查之下,原來是《Love's Not For Me》,由英國創作歌手Graham Gouldman一手包辦曲詞及主唱,是1980年卡通電影《Animalympics》的原聲歌曲。Graham Gouldman是英國搖滾組合「10cc」的主將。我把吉蒂送給我的錄音帶放進我新買的卡式錄音機,戴上有線耳筒慢慢細味我和吉蒂的相聚每一刻:
I've always run away72Please respect copyright.PENANAIWu4ERPxxO
From things that tie me down72Please respect copyright.PENANAQF4L45NCr5
My life I love72Please respect copyright.PENANAqBAdYcUB3J
But love's not for me72Please respect copyright.PENANAzP0E5aGFDU
I see my goal ahead72Please respect copyright.PENANANcfm0avq6I
With nothing in the way72Please respect copyright.PENANAMw9DPBBqE6
If love should come72Please respect copyright.PENANAr55pH71uB8
Then I'll run away72Please respect copyright.PENANAvfyQ75S2lj
I've always been the type of man72Please respect copyright.PENANAa6Kw1i9KOB
Who's dedicated to his cause72Please respect copyright.PENANA7lfazvedGd
And it's a lonely road I run72Please respect copyright.PENANAjMsqn5CrSw
But I'll stay faithful to my course72Please respect copyright.PENANAKUpyHV0faE
There's only one direction72Please respect copyright.PENANATB0s0Zqcnf
There comes a time when you must choose72Please respect copyright.PENANAeongFzpHF2
About the path you're gonna take72Please respect copyright.PENANAcKwFbQNAxH
And you must take it win or lose72Please respect copyright.PENANAK3LU3A86J9
And if you lose it's your mistake72Please respect copyright.PENANA5zWZcYCG8f
There's only one direction72Please respect copyright.PENANAphAcSyCCzT
So when the race is won72Please respect copyright.PENANAjWu0ppNyJi
And there's nothing left to do72Please respect copyright.PENANAILPbAOBhjw
Alone again but where are you72Please respect copyright.PENANA0BTV8a2eB3
Alone again but where are you
《Love's Not For Me》這首歌,好像跟電影《Animalympics》(動物奧運會,1978)的主題有點格格不入的感覺。但細心歌詞帶出的,Love並不是Win or Lose那麼簡單,總要有緣份,以及很多不確定的因素在其中,愛情又是否冥冥中自有主宰?
接著,是女歌手Charlene Duncan的《I've Never Been to Me》我記得吉蒂曾告訴我,這首歌是很女性的,很有女生自我覺醒的情歌。其實,我已經忘記了我和吉蒂是在哪兒聽這首歌;因為在哪兒或什麼時候都不重要,重要的是只有我跟吉蒂在一起兩人的時候……
Hey lady, you lady72Please respect copyright.PENANASQPXtEYpPR
Cursing at your life72Please respect copyright.PENANAbBqxhOv8XW
You're a discontented mother72Please respect copyright.PENANAIeNgj2jqq9
And a regimented wife72Please respect copyright.PENANAoXYeOIQ8fd
I 've no doubt72Please respect copyright.PENANAXeKDFVDqmT
You dream about the things you'll never do72Please respect copyright.PENANAr7cVfMf6LL
But I wish someone had a talk to me like I wanna talk to you72Please respect copyright.PENANALGgw1L4k8Z
Ooh, I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run72Please respect copyright.PENANAznwSebSuVl
Took the hand of a preacher man72Please respect copyright.PENANAbCDDtNpfMy
And we made love in the sun72Please respect copyright.PENANAf80q2f3H8w
But I ran out of places and friendly faces72Please respect copyright.PENANAXdSp7EdDpJ
Because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...72Please respect copyright.PENANASUYaNG2lU4
Please lady please lady72Please respect copyright.PENANARVG2ltYWot
Don't just walk away72Please respect copyright.PENANAgPKwjfP3bi
'Cause I have this need to tell you72Please respect copyright.PENANApaoOmI77yT
Why I'm all alone today72Please respect copyright.PENANAgYhu7BL4DP
I can see so much of me72Please respect copyright.PENANADnKZyaaksA
Still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part72Please respect copyright.PENANAicetli1K7F
Of a weary heart that has lived a million lives72Please respect copyright.PENANApD2iqaZ34s
Ooh, I've been to Nice and the Isle of Greece72Please respect copyright.PENANAMsFUTbPUlW
When I sipped champagne on a yacht72Please respect copyright.PENANA6wgQ4d3its
I moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo72Please respect copyright.PENANAe0oTaA3xzK
And showed them what I've got72Please respect copyright.PENANAJpRJOn05nM
I've been undressed by kings72Please respect copyright.PENANAB5QdZkZYAl
And I've seen some things that a woman ain't s'posed to see72Please respect copyright.PENANAfjwlpKsMaq
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me...72Please respect copyright.PENANAgFjeIp0O8v
Hey, you know what paradise is?72Please respect copyright.PENANAF1UgXdCrI8
It's a lie72Please respect copyright.PENANAnIYvCdIcig
A fantasy we created about people and places72Please respect copyright.PENANAdpDJTEsgmu
As we like them to be72Please respect copyright.PENANA3CHSJlyVHH
But you know what truth is?
It's that little baby you're holding72Please respect copyright.PENANA5chVqCKmWK
and it's that man you fought with this morning72Please respect copyright.PENANAGVuSaSIval
The same one you are gonna make love to tonight72Please respect copyright.PENANA1oIV2c5r8i
That's truth that's love72Please respect copyright.PENANAklj1oqfIxD
Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children72Please respect copyright.PENANAp1FvwlCXU4
That might have made me complete72Please respect copyright.PENANA9Gzf2A9FTZ
But I, I took the sweet life72Please respect copyright.PENANAeU35MiXVZH
I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet72Please respect copyright.PENANANO4SO6e8ec
I spent my life exploring72Please respect copyright.PENANAi2fhH7nmrz
The subtle whoring72Please respect copyright.PENANAWmkcowXIhu
That costs too much to be free72Please respect copyright.PENANAR8qRaBUwkZ
Hey lady I've been to paradise72Please respect copyright.PENANAfZkRGPd920
But I've never been to me...72Please respect copyright.PENANAsRTQHwdFdo
I've been to paradise - never been to me72Please respect copyright.PENANANcEQKvuhfa
(I've been to Georgia and California, and anywhere I could run)72Please respect copyright.PENANAPbFWMN0Wub
I've been to paradise - never been to me72Please respect copyright.PENANAlVONFV2DG5
(I've been to Nice and the isle of Greece72Please respect copyright.PENANACgjYlPCQwS
While I sipped champagne on a yacht)72Please respect copyright.PENANA1kI8H034cT
I've been to paradise - never been to me
我盧仔……此刻滿有詩意,於是執筆寫了如下的:
在你與我之間
我想給你寫一首情詩
點了又點逗號
在你我之間
都只有偶爾有緣點落
欲言又止的
……
注定了在其中的
;
斷續往還
無數?的疑惑滿溢了思海潮汐漲退之間
!如流星雨點劃破夜空星碎殂落的驚嘆
「你我」的所願
卻始終有長長的------如銀河橫臥在其間
來一個圓圓的句號可會是痛快的終結
《你我》只不過是歷代詩人抒發的偶然
標點符號
我跟你相逢
,偶爾點落你我之間
欲言又止
……卻注定了在其中
;的往往還還
?溢滿了我你的思海潮汐漲退之間
!像流星雨般是你給我劃破夜空殂落星碎的驚嘆
「」在你我前後左右本是所願
------的銀河卻橫臥在我你之間
拉拉扯扯復復返返
一個圓圓的句號可會是結局的最終
繁星寄寓人間傳說的種種
一一盡在《》之中
我有一個夢想,在茫茫的字海裏,剔除所有的字與詞,還有標點符號,讓我可以緊貼你:我你你我我你你我……最終成不了意思卻最有意思。夢想抵擋不了現實,無奈是只有一條長又長的破折號在我──你之間,像銀河把天地阻隔,是神話裏的喜鵲橋,終於把你和我變成傳奇,合該套上書名號《你我》!
究竟,誰,才是妳?
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