Taylor's POV
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJqHjwgRy7
The bugaboo fox is the pram for me. I've decided and so Jay is ordering it. We're still in the baby shop, I didn’t quite realise how much this gear is going to cost. Especially since Jay wants high end, branded stuff.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLiNHXYlWY
I'm looking at the vests and baby grows whilst he is ordering the car seat. He's pretty good with shopping, he knows his stuff already on baby gear and I smile walking over to him holding onto a few baby clothes. Little hats and socks.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXYNP4s510
The salesman smiles at me and I stand next to Jay his arm goes around me.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLqrGxGci7
"Yes so could we choose delivery nearer the time" Jay enquirers.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVI7cfdNrPT
"Of course when would you like the items to arrive sir" Greg, the salesmen asks. In this store the staff are impeccably dressed.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmsegOvybJo
"Say 4 months time" Jay says looking at me for help.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0iptH0zq1t
I smile.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTHfoPZRiXe
"Yes that should work" I say.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCsO9FnLA7S
"Of course" Greg replies sorting it all out on the computer.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZkesjRv0r
"What was your colour choice ?" He smiles.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡletdjoLXOD
"I like the black but it's up to you" Jay says smiling at me.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlP7SkKrUhV
"Black is neutral and classic" I say softly.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CLfBLPIb8
"But" he laughs.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CrCqEVzKK
"No it is totally impractical" I laugh.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4t9fcFs1U
"You like the cream" he says reading my mind.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgBHdyQDOX
“I like the cream colour” I say to him smiling.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiONyomgt8
Jay smiles at me.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM3gy7AeHgd
“The fabric is pretty stain resistant to be fair and it’s all wipe clean” Greg informs me smiling.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZTDEWC0lC
“The cream then” Jay smiles looking at me.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oCwPj5uZB
I nod and stroke his arm. We order all of the extras including a footmuff which zips up to keep baby warm. The car seat with pram adaptors so that we can clip it to the pram chassis. I thought I would be most excited about the pram but the bassinets and the cribs are just as cute. I imagine tucking in a little baby and watching them sleep.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix6soXPp94
Once everything is ordered, several thousands of pounds later we browse the clothes and sleep sacks.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBeyk9Iq1Bb
“What’ve you picked already” he smiles.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡECwpOkQrYx
“Little socks and baby grows” I smile showing him and he holds the tiny clothes in his hands.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SFE3adxdA
“They’re so tiny” he says.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpa7o9svQh7
Naturally I am drawn to the blue and he begins picking up all the baby pink stuff.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmueqkP3h4o
“Maybe we buy gender neutral, until we know” I say.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUT9lfbdV7
“You wanna find out” he teases me.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2uEqRpc9TG
“I do I think you’re right, painting the room and buying the clothes I think actually it makes sense” I say.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPWZMywbyT
I turn to him unbelieving this man is mine and is going to be the father of my children. I see his smile which has softened since being with me; the once boyish brute that I used to meet only at parties has become the centre of my universe. The reason I’m happy.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqLET0oayu
“That’s actually really good because I’m impatient” He laughs.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrD1fzOVkJ
We purchase some socks and vests in neutral colours and then we head to an Italian, my choice, for lunch. He orders, he just knows what I like. And I’m busy browsing my phone at the time.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlUMgjAdBJ
I look up at him, he’s thinking about something and my face falls. His usual calm self assured expression is replaced by one I almost don’t recognise on him. He strokes his blonde hair back.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYHIqNzCSjE
“You okay, Jay” I say softly reaching my hands out.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkfmzrCTXke
He smiles at me.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi9QaITqsqk
“I’m fine” he says but I’m not leaving it there.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ06Ltg2tBQb
I stroke his hands in mine. Softly, my approach is going to be gentle.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVyuJ9iOC9
“I can’t explain it Taylor. I just felt a bit confused. Temporarily. It’s nothing I promise. I actually don’t think it’s even a thing.” He mumbles.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9acKHunwed
“You’ve just come out of hospital with a head injury Jay” I say
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOrkQ352Kyn
“It must be related, but it’s okay we can sort it” I say softly.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4izaytY4J
“Just you being here helps” he smiles. I stroke his arms across the table.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurFVcVB7hp
“Let’s just keep an eye on it. I’m gonna look after you” I say. He smiles softly.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv0GtOYHDN
“No I’m supposed to look after you” he says.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJozqgBstJ
“And you do, always so think of it as pay back” I smile.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY4jPVBxapS
Our food arrives and we move our hands smiling at the waiter. He’s ordered me truffle pasta, because the man knows me so well. We eat heartily after our shopping and I keep a close eye on him. Just to be double sure that he’s not having another episode of confusion.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZwjhKYlsiK
Of course I’m worried, that this might become a part of our lives. That he might not get over it. And it will all be my fault again. I fork some more pasta and eat it watching him.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4i4Pd41qwY
“No Taylor” he says.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoGg3MYY8o
“Don’t you do that this is not your fault” he says.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpfTRIOSyC4
“How is it you can read my mind” I say
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpecE1Y4ebb
“Because I’m very good at deciphering your thoughts from your body language” he smiles.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRhmyAKBXlk
“Firstly this isn’t your fault, and second I’m not confused anymore there’s nothing to be worried about” he smiles.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR9SVIT16Qd
“Are you sure” I say to him concerned.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDf75PtZOyQ
“Hundred percent” he smiles.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpsaC261EQ
“Eat” he smirks at me.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBuMXZK2unI
“Don’t worry about me” he adds.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHgjjzsvn0
We finish our lunch in peace. I cannot shake the worries I have over him. I decide if there’s another problem I will call DR forester and ask his opinion.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEa8SHrqxK
Once we’re finished we head back to the car, we’re in the Audi. I watch him, not too closely but just in case. I’ve not seen him look lost before ever. He’s the most self assured person I know. And lost isn’t something I ever associate with him.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2o8RYQgD3
“We need to give our home a name” I say to him.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkeZOueNWh
He smirks.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbVw8649S7
“A name?” He asks.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAc7MCxbd3h
“You know we used to call the lake house that because of the lake. We need a new name for this one” I laugh.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sj6Hu93fq
“Hmmm okay” he smiles humouring me.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rIhbVyjvB
“What about cherry tree house” he smiles
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepi3Ks6dcE
“Jay you are great with names” I laugh.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRs5Mj6GH2d
“We have cherry blossoms, it’s a feature” he smiles.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWomboLtuJ5
“Our cherry tree house” he says softly.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKb2ItL3Pcn
“I like it” I smile running my hand up his thigh.
56Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxDdEtWcxte
He winks at me and I smile. Gazing out of the window I watch the sun hide behind the clouds, we’ll be back home at cherry tree house soon and I can’t wait to spend another evening with just him.
ns 15.158.61.5da2
