Rachel walks out just as we head into the hallway. She looks at me glancing at my arms and then swiftly looking away. She takes in myself and Matty leaving a bedroom together and I realise how this comes across.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgjKndVq05
"Oh Deja vu you too" she smiles.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOS4PrMQxUr
"Oh stop it" he jibes and I love how he doesn't make me think of a comeback, I'm not at the top of my game right now or in my right head and I can't think. So he doesn't make me. He continues conversing with Rachel as we walk down the steps. Keeping her entertained so that I do not have to talk.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ25osRw76Dl
"Rachel, Jacob is still here. It's mad I know but can you please just go with it for me" I say softly. I don't want to divulge all of his secrets to everybody, about Sophia. But it may come to that.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMB0121HVE
"Got ya bestie" she smiles.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpIoQEJ6qWk
I skip over to Jay and sit on his lap leaving two chairs for them to sit in. Jay pulls me in close and it's so comforting, just hearing his heartbeat and feeling his chest rise and fall.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ZgQTa0fNz
"So you're leaving" Rach says to Ross.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLCSGsnnKXH
We're not going to talk about last night and that is fine by me. Matty glances at me inconspicuously and it's our little secret. I smile at him and he smiles back, good girl. I rest into Jay, feeling safe in his arms.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2J7dp2hsB
"Yes I'm going to make sure Matty doesn't get lost in London" he says laughing. Matty smiles at him.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡorJiJoHmDX
"Were you going to tell anybody other than Taylor or..." she laughs.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeB61ZXSpmw
"Of course" he smiles.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYeuEhtUZi3
"There's still time" Matty says.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡObKa4X8auP
Rachel pulls her phone out and sighs looking at it. She's scrolling.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhJQLzceJFL
"Messages from Nate?" I ask.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfSxtgvxJP
"Yes not sure what I'm going to do about that one" she says. I liked them for each other, they worked.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ2YAIY820G
"I think you should meet up and discuss" I laugh.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZCag3qGlk
"Discuss what? I cheated on him a hell of a lot" she chuckles. She's being harsh and mean. She pulls on her pink fluffy coat, and stands to grab her duffle bag. She refuses to look at Jacob.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbb7lQ0adxK
"I've booked a cab if anybody wants to join" she says looking at Ross and Matty, only.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHgzw3zJjqo
"I've booked for us" Ross says glancing at Matty.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0LiCj8XlI
"Jacob would you like me to drop you anywhere" Jay says.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJDI4LzzXA
He wants him out, and he is doing his upmost best to be good about it. Considering the circumstances.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPOxsuWyNd
"Thanks man I've booked a cab too though" Jacob says and I smile. Jay is not going anywhere.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEgGjrPwaQ
"Well that was one hell of an experience" I laugh standing up and stretching. I pull Jay up with me and he obliges walking with me. We head out through the gardens. I refuse to be traumatised in my own place by what happened yesterday and I defiantly walk back through the cherry trees where Jacob...did what he did.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsNPLyTSQ7n
I squeeze Jays hand as we reach the part and he holds me that little bit tighter. I never want him to let me go.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjyn9tvTef
"Rach" I say once we're in the house again. Her cab pulls up in the driveway. She hooks her bag on her shoulder and pulls down her shades.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhBlhKfn2S
"Talking works. So meet up with him" I say and I'm
Absolutely certain there's a teardrop trailing down her cheeks. I hug her.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD5xneo50os
"Whatever happens I'm here" I say.
She nods and heads out to her cab. Getting in slamming the door and she's gone. I hug Ross and Matty before they go. Jacob leaves, I don't hug him or touch him I just watch him walk away.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeZGwIoJQcX
"We need to pack beautiful" Jay says turning to look at me. He knows what I need, to be busy.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1bc2MmxU9
"Where is the spa" I ask smiling.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrJzfnLIfw4
"It's a four hour drive" he explains.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZHYYauTXw
"It's remote" he laughs.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGx8XtWlA3u
He scoops me into his arms. Kisses me tenderly.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBy9SWGSFqA
"This is very cute" he smiles looking at my blue dress.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡluUlVdo6Fv
I rest into his chest. He dips my chin up to his.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGU2Lc4uoGr
"Hey I love you" he says.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZYrcaQNnu
I kiss him pas through my watering eyes. The quiet, the absence of our friends. I keep seeing it in my head, feeling the worry and the pain.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayRm1W0pXj
"I love you" I say pulling away from him.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawkPpdfcUm
He wipes my eyes, holding onto me.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxygJD1j00
"Do you want me to report it to the police" he asks softly.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Yw3NyqtVI
"No he didn't actually rape me" I say and it's so difficult to say the r word.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqomILZJ4x
"It's assault" he says.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPuumrn5s1H
"With intent" he adds.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxurLm0YGo4
"No" I say thinking of having to explain it all over again. Reliving every detail to some officer who probably doesn’t want to hear. I pull him into me again, he's worried.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOxy3WApme
"Take me upstairs" I say and he's momentarily confused.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXI8PVuI4go
I need to be able to get past it, make sure I can let him touch me like that. Every time he's tried too since I've stiffened up. I cannot have that.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb50SuO8wNt
"Take me Jay" I whisper and he lifts me up in my pale blue dress his hands holding under my bum.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Xm7SSWjKR
He kisses me passionately all the way up the stairs. We don't speak at all. He sets me down on our bed and delicately lifts my dress up and over my head. Swooping my hair back he kisses my neck and my clavicles. I try to relax, keeping myself still and watching him.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6LQDVSj7C
His hand travels down, instinctively stroking bump. I breathe in sharply as he lowers my panties. He assesses the situation, making sure I'm okay. He smiles at me reassuringly, standing and removing his own clothes.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RqxW63wWZ
I watch him, his chest and abs. He slowly and delicately holds my hips. I flinch, but not because I don't want him. I look down at my hips and see two huge bruises on either side of them. He lowers his face to them and kisses them delicately.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPttU3Z1bc
Just light soft kisses, I lay back onto the bed.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76cSIeIpHE
"You're so beautiful" he says and his tongue finds its way between my legs.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmQ0rBMcHR
"So beautiful. I love you" he says between sucking.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3WZj9uJ1M
And I relax. My hands finding their way into his hair. He comes up and hovers over me, I smile at him. The boyish expression on his face. He slowly thrusts inside of me and I keep his eye contact.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ949q4h3Ec4
"Jay" I moan my legs wrapping around him.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQe8vKLodPV
He increases his thrusts and my breath hitches. My hips ache and he slows down again. Smiling at me and kissing me.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9pLwBrJXk
"You’re so beautiful" he whispers and kisses my neck.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2FU8GTnbv
“I will never ever let anything happen to you ever again” he says.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrRpm4yPiu
He slowly thrusts into me and I kiss him. We orgasm together and I feel complete again.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6QYfEUfZH
He lays on his back next to me, pondering and getting his breath back.
“Taylor” he says and he’s thoughtful.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYSkrcNu4w
“Jay” I respond and I face him, it hurts again moving. I must have blocked out the pain at the time, I was in a state of fight or flight, and I didn’t quite realise how much pressure he put on my body.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35IPUYda4S
“You’re injured” he says and he looks as though he’s going to cry.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSeNEdvpq3H
“My darling” he says and he brushes my hip bone.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBPf4xijyn
“I’m so sorry I let this happen to you” he says softly.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL4e1nO4mlF
“No this is not on you” I say defiantly.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMDDbDXk0m
“I was so stupid letting you go after him alone” he curses.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEl61dyX3r0
“I will never be so reckless and careless with you again” he adds. He brushes my hips and they’re tender. I flinch.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGC6LJsAJe
“Do you think we should check on everything” I say absentmindedly.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOmJb91MSo
“I want you to see forester anyways and it might be worth me having a checkup” I say and I sob.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7OeJCr5xe
He holds me closely for a while. We lose track of time, just in each other’s arms.
46Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8H2m2WeM8E
Eventually when we get up we pack our bags for the weekend, I stuff some prenatal vitamins in mine. Makeup and wash stuff. Spare clothes, lots of comfy and easy to pull on stuff. He looks at me and we leave heading for the hospital first.
