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Jacob pic ***
Taylor's POV
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Jacob eyes me the second I walk out into our large patio. The sun is beating down now and Jay is putting the parasol up. Rachel is lounging next to Jacob her legs draped over him.
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"Lemon cake is for after" I smile, looking at Ross.
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"That looks" he begins.
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"Incredible, I want cake now" he laughs.
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I smile and head over to Jay helping him to plate up all of the meat. I've placed the salads on the table already. Rachel is picking at the fries.
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"I got this, take a seat" he whispers kissing me and rubbing my back. I smile and take a seat next to Matty. I can't explain it, he still makes me feel safe.
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I think I had a very mild panic attack earlier, and I feel embarrassed by it. Matty eyes me, and I smile at him. It's a thank you, for helping me to stop crying. For rationalising everything and making me feel secure.
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Jay sits at the head of the table. I smirk at him and he chuckles handing me a burger. He looks good at the head of the table. It suits him.
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"Congratulations" Jacob says to Jay more than me. And it's an odd moment.
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"Thanks Jacob" Jay replies.
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"How are you feeling Tay" he says to me, and he means generally in pregnancy.
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"I'm feeling great actually" I say tucking into my food.
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"I had no idea" he says.
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"Yes we wanted to keep it that way until we were sure everything was okay" I mutter.
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"It will be fine" Matty says and Jay eyes him.
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"How far along are you" Jacob asks casually.
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"We're just over twelve weeks" I say softly.
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"Wow" he replies. Rachel is unaware of the tension. Ross is watching me.
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Thankfully he's quiet for the rest of the meal and we leave it at that. Jay, I have decided has a way with BBQ's and the food tastes amazing. After everybody has stuffed themselves with food, I cut the cake into slices.
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"It should be pretty lemony so if you hate lemon don't have any" I laugh.
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I take a piece for Jay and go and sit on his lap. He chuckles his hand resting on my hips. I feed him the cake and he smiles at me.
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"It's amazing Taylor" he whispers.
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"Good" I smile looking at him.
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I remain in his lap watching everybody else drink and laugh with each other, after a few hours the sun begins to set. The automatic lights come on and I snuggle into Jay's chest. Rach is on Jacob and I watch him for a bit. He's talking to Ross about something obnoxious and pretentious. I can tell because Ross is trying to be nice, as always.
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"I can't believe we have to go to uni tomorrow" Rachel sighs.
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"Yeah and we've got practice" Jacob says.
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"We sure have" I say, dryly.
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"Oh can I come and watch" Rachel says clapping her hands. Nate is out of the picture, I'm guessing.
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I couldn't think of a better idea. It will stop Jacob from asking me questions.
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"Of course" I smile widely.
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"Would be nice for somebody to watch, maybe you can tell us what looks good" I say, I am all for this idea.
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"Yes" Rachel smiles back at me.
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I turn to look at Jay sure that he will be wearing his normal smile. Instead seeing a confused expression on his face. One which alarms me. My heart pounds again, it's another episode I'm sure of it.
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"Jay" I say softly.
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He looks at me, still confused.
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"Are you okay" I say and everybody has gone silent.
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"What's up" Rachel says but I block her out.
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I stroke his arm. It hasn't been long since the bottle to the head incident. But this is the second time he'a experienced a mental block like this. I stroke his face.
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"We ugh" he says softly.
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And then it’s as if he snaps out of it.
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"It happened again" I say to him, concern on my face.
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"No Taylor" he says softly. He is looking at me begging me not to make a deal out of this.
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"Dude what's up" Ross says concerned.
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Jay sighs slightly.
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"Nothing is up; I'm just recovering still from the bottle injury and sometimes" he says and he's denying the seriousness of this.
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"Jay we have to get this seen too" I tell him. My hormones rage and I am stubborn pregnant Taylor.
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"Taylor Gilbert Scott, I know exactly who I am, my oldest memories and everything, I'm not getting amnesia or some rubbish" he chuckles lightly.
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"Man, if there's something though it's worth it" Matty says on my side instantly.
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"It's probably just too much drinking last night" Jay says.
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"Yeah he's fine" Rachel says and I almost throw a plate at her. She begins to move on and I curse myself for having a self absorbed friend.
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"And you're a doctor are you" I snap and she flinches looking from Jacob to me. Yes he’s hot, hotter than Nate. But I’m dying for her to see the bigger picture, she barely knows Jacob.
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"Sorry hormones" I say instantly.
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"I'll call Forester, tomorrow" I tell him. Stroking Jay’s face.
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"Even just to rest my own mind" I say before he interrupts me.
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I take the plates in and load the dishwasher. Worrying about him. Thinking the worst and realising this could be an ongoing problem. It was just one accident, just a blow to the head once. Surely, this isn't something that will define his whole life. Something so hideously inconvenient.
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"Taylor" Jacob says.
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"Mhmm" I say breaking from my thoughts momentarily.
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"I just wanted to say that this doesn't affect a damn thing" he says.
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"What's doesn't" I snap at him.
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"You being with child" he says, formally.
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"I literally have no words" I say exasperated.
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"What!? I thought that's why you didn't tell me" he says defensively.
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“Dancing and choreographing are totally different, you’re a choreographer” he goes on, not hearing me and explaining my own craft to me.
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“You don’t have to dance to see the performance” he adds and I look at him exasperated, feeling extremely hormonal.
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"Not everything is about you and what you think dick face" I say somewhat harshly, stubbornly. And I cry, he's hit a spot. Tension has boiled up and this is the result; me crying uncontrollably in my kitchen.
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“Okay” he says awkwardly. He approaches me warily.
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“So help me God I do not want to slap you Jacob” I say as he goes to touch me, a simple hug.
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“I’m sorry” he says and I just stare at him. I am a wreck this evening.
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“I’m sorry too” I say somewhat subdued suddenly.
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“I’m just wow hormonal. And I was worrying about Jay and yeah I’m sorry” I say.
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“I am sorry too, I always say the wrong thing” he says looking down at me. Maintaining his eye contact, I bizarrely remember his face in between my legs last night eyes looking up at me full of lust. I look away quickly.
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“He’s very lucky” he whispers and I can feel him staring. Shamelessly staring at my boobs.
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“Are you even single” I say and I’m back to catty Taylor.
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“What” he says surprised.
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“Well Rachel isn’t” I say and I take a step back.
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“Rachel this is about Rachel” he smirks. He takes a step closer.
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“No it’s not” I say defensively
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“If you don’t advocate me going after her, then why invite her to rehearsal” he says.
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“Because…” I say and I curse him.
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“Because you don’t want to be alone with me” he says and his grin annoys me.
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“Because you’re an obnoxious ass” I add.
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“No because you do not want to think about it” he says and I know what he means instantly. His mouth on me.
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“Oh get a grip” I say and I turn and finish loading the dishwasher.
He goes to sit on a stool and pours himself another drink. He watches me do my tasks in the kitchen, cleaning up, placing left overs in the fridge. Totally boring mundane things that he seems to find fascinating. He smiles at me every now and then, and in my head I want to yell at him to go away. But stubborn me doesn’t want to prove him right, it would be like admitting that I don’t want to be alone with him. I won’t give him that so here we are at an impasse. I’m ignoring him and he’s paying me lots of attention.
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I place everything in the fridge, after wrapping them in foil and cling film. I pull the cake tin down and open it up for the rest of my lemon cake.
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“None of us can drive” Rachel comes in staggering and I look up. He does not.
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“Nope” I say. Looks like we’re having another sleepover.
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“Jacob” she says.
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“Mhmmm” he replies. He looks at her staggering up to him and steadies her when she reaches him. I roll my eyes.
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He watches me.
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“Taylor is it okay if we use your spare room, again” he asks grinning.
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“It’s fine” I say pressing the button on the dishwasher and it roars to life.
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