Jays POV
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Taylor is asleep. I'm driving sensibly through the empty highway which usually I would be speeding on. But the love of my life, who is carrying my unborn son is in the car.
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She is facing the window and I'm desperately hoping that she's dreaming rather than having nightmares.
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I walked Jacob around all night because he had to learn a lesson. He had to know that I was in charge. We did talk, over and over. Turns out his little story was indeed true, I have a way of getting things out of people. Half of me had wondered whether he told her a load of crap just to get her to feel sorry for him.
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He did lose his unborn child, and partner horrifically. And I cannot imagine the grief he experienced after that. I implanted the idea that he should hand himself in for what he did to Taylor, subtly. I hope that he does, it's the only step that will somewhat redeem him. For Taylor. Not for me.
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Although it's something I cannot comprehend, and indeed something I don't want to comprehend. But losing what I have, I glance at Taylor, would not justify me terrorising another woman in such a vile way.
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"No" she murmurs. And I stroke her arm, she softens again and falls back asleep. She used to sleep soundly, now looking at the concerned look on her face I just know it's going to take a lot. A lot for her to relax again.
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Seeing how traumatised she is, it's taking every single restraint I have not to drive to wherever he is and do something unspeakable to him. I wanted to drop him home. I wanted to know where he lives; because then I would always have the option. The option to end him.
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Unfortunately for me he is linked into her work and so eradicating him is troublesome. She stirs and I know she's waking up. She blinks opening her eyes and thankfully she doesn't shout or cry instantly, it breaks my heart when she wakes up like that.
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"How much longer have we got Jay baby" she mumbles and I turn the AC down.
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"Around an hour or two" I say.
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"You hungry?" I ask pushing my hair away from my face.
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"Super hungry" she says.
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"I'll pull off into the next drive through" I say smiling.
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She turns the radio down slightly and sighs.
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"Jacob rung me" she says.
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I'm stunned but I keep my expression calm.
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"He rung me to tell me that he was heading to the police station" she says looking through the windshield.
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I feel like clapping, I don't.
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"To confess" I say softly.
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"To confess" she confirms.
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"Will I have to go in too" she says quietly.
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"I will go with you" I say to her.
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"If they ask me to leave, we will leave together" I say.
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"Okay" she says.
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We pass a sign that reads services and I get in lane for the drive through.
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I pull into the chain restaurant and you can instantly smell fried onions and burgers. She smiles at me and I'm happy to see her happy again.
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"What would you like" I smile at her.
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"Milkshake and burgers and chips and ice cream" she says enthusiastically. Our boy is going to be an eater.
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"Oh and chicken" she laughs.
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I order two of everything and pull over to lay it all out in the console of the car.
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"Jay" she says and I look over at her.
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"Thank you" she says.
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"I know, it would be just like you to tell him to hand himself in" she says watching me.
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"He needs to admit to what he has done even if it's just to accept he's an asshole. He needs to take ownership of his own fucked up stupidity." I say.
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"He assaulted you. Hell I almost killed him. It makes me marginally calmer that he is handing himself in" I add and I'm getting worked up. I count in my head.
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"I know that" she says whilst she's eating fries.
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"Once it's done, and it's finished it will all be over" she says.
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I rub her thigh.
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"I will be here the entire time, sorry you're stuck with me." I say.
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She smiles at me, two smiles in twenty minutes it's a record. And I aim to keep that smile on her face the whole entire weekend and beyond.
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We set off again, both eating as we cruise down the highway listening to a mix of her playlist. I reflect on a time when I would only have my own loud and heavy stuff on in the car. So angry and alone telling myself I was happy and free. Now we listen to mazzy star and Bob Dylan, even the odd Carly Simon song which she sings along to.
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She makes me feel free, being with her, listening to her sing as I drive occasionally sipping my shake. She lifts my burger and chuckles holding it in front of my face. I take a bite whilst driving and she sets it down back into the box.
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I love her. It's absurd, that her holding a burger for me whilst I drive is one of the moments that makes me love her more. But it's more than that. Taylor is intuitive to my every need. As I am trying to be to her.
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Taylor has just experienced one of the most traumatising events a woman can ever go through yet she still thinks of others. Of all the things she means to me, of all the things I love about her, the way she cares for others is her greatest asset.
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"I think you're going to love this place" I say and I sip my shake.
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"I love everywhere you take me" she smiles. Another smile.
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"It's super relaxed" I say and laugh.
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"Well I guess that is the whole point of a spa" I chuckle.
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"They do maternity massages" I add.
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She chuckles. I am the best at making my girl happy.
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"I can't wait" she laughs.
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"There's a pool and lots of space to walk around like fancy gardens and stuff" I say.
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"And lots of food" I laugh.
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"I'm officially excited" she says.
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I kiss her quickly and then focus on the road. Maps says we have two hours left and I can't wait to see her face when she gets there. Hopefully I can keep her smiling the whole entire time.
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