Taylor's POV
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It's kind of like waking up with a hangover, but without the fond memories of dancing all night long and sipping Prosecco. Only the leftover misery and sadness lingers from being emotional and worried, all night long.
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I feel for Henry straight away when I wake up looking through the voiles out at the searing Californian heat. My hands going around bump and stroking, his little kicks, and movements reassuring me instantly.
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Glancing over at Jay, I stroke his face and his hair. Moving in closer to his chest I kiss him. And he begins to stir. I take his hands and place them on bump whilst he's still waking up. Henry reacts jabbing away and I smile. Half way through pregnancy I think to myself, looking over at Jay and imagining us in twenty or so weeks changing diapers.
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"Morning" he says in his southern drawl.
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I chuckle and he opens his eyes, hands still cradling bump.
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"Good morning" I say softly and he smiles at me.
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"You don't know how good it is to hear you say that" he says chuckling.
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"My baby and my wife" he mutters just before kissing me.
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Getting lost in his kisses I climb on top of him, he smirks whispering in my ear that he's missed waking up like this.
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With his boxers pulled slightly down, I manage to work him into me instantly, intending on giving him the ride of his life.
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With Jay it's always pure passion, he never leaves out any part of my body. His hands are everywhere and I gasp and moan as he lifts me up and places me down on my back. Hiking my leg up and moving into me more forcefully.
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"God Jay" I shout out and he smiles his eyes watching me the entire time.
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"Good girl" he whispers as I unravel underneath him.
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"I love you" he whispers in my ear.
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"I won't ever leave you" he adds.
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He kisses me for a long time afterwards, not moving off of me. Keeping his arms wrapped around me and his lips locked in my own.
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"You know" he says softly breaking the kisses for a moment.
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"We have a honeymoon to finish" he smiles. I smile back at him instantly, but Ross? I need to be here for Ross my mind tells me. I squash that thought and focus on Jay and what he is saying to me.
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"Where would you like to go" he ventures and I gaze into his eyes. He needs to be away from Matthew, and he also wants me away from him too.
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"We could go to Australia, back to Tasmania, Aspen? Anywhere Taylor" he says fingertips on my face stroking.
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"Although" he says slowly looking down at bump and smiling.
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"It might be worth sticking to places with accessible healthcare" he laughs.
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"How about somewhere entirely new" I say to him.
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"Greece or Italy" I suggest and he grins. Jay is a traveller at heart, he loves being in new places. Seeing new things and experiencing different cultures.
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"The Amalfi coast" he smiles, and he gets that sparkle in his eyes before he kisses me.
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"Think of all the pizza and pasta" he laughs and I can't help it I laugh along with him.
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"Tonight" he presses me and this escalated quick.
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I smile up at him and he won't move off of me until I give him what he wants, until I let him whisk me away again.
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"We can be dining by the coast tonight" he says smirking.
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"Jay" I say softly and he watches me, intently.
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"Shall we go the hospital, check on Ross first and then decide" I say reining him in.
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"Of course" he says to me and it wasn't the right answer.
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"Taylor" he says slowly, and his grin disappears. He moves off of me propped up on his elbow, looking down at me and bump.
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"You do want to go away with me don't you?" he asks slowly and I pull him back into me.
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"Yes of course I do" I smile and he kisses me.
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"I just want to make sure that Ross is okay recovery wise" I admit looking into his eyes.
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"And this has nothing to do with Matthew?" he asks and I flinch slightly.
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I lay on my back and I can't help it I just cry. Because this is my fault, and because I know this will have a lasting impact on our relationship.
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"No this has nothing to do with Matthew" I say slowly.
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"I'm sorry" he says and his arms go around me.
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"That wasn't fair. I just got worried. I'm sorry" he explains. He looks down at me and I see the little cracks in his composure, the insecurities. The problems I have caused.
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"This isn't going to just go away" I say slowly.
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"No, I'm sorry Jay, this is my fault" I say and I wipe my eyes.
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"I can assure you this has nothing to do with Matthew" I say softly looking up at him.
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"Here's the plan" I say stroking his face whilst his hands are on my hips. Jay needs direction, he needs things to be moving and then he is okay.
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"We go to the hospital, check in on everything. And then we book for tomorrow morning. Plus we have to pack" I smile at him.
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"That sounds like a perfect plan" he smiles.
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I stand up off of the bed and he follows me into the bathroom. We have a large en suite. The walls are a grey marble, with spotlights which highlight the classic bathtub. He turns the taps on and the water starts flowing into the bath.
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"I'm going to grab us some breakfast from downstairs and we're going to bath together" he says kissing my lips.
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"Another perfect plan" I tell him.
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Once he's left the bathroom, after holding onto me for a fraction longer than he normally would. I begin to feel better about the whole situation. I plan the bikinis I'm going to take away with me and imagine us in a jacuzzi or strolling through the winding little streets of Italy. I start to think that maybe we could begin to repair this. It is my duty to make this work, to take the little pieces I have shattered inside of him and begin to place them back together. And perhaps I can just build him up again, and give him enough reason to trust me; all over again.
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